Just went in for my 12 week scan and found that our baby had stopped growing at 6 weeks. I'm not sure if their little heart ever got to beat. I'm not sure why my body has chosen to hold on. I'm wondering if it will realize, now that I know, that this little one isn't meant to be, and will let go.
I feel so sad and numb and cheated. It's so unfair. I am just desperate to see a 12 week old fetus on that us screen and wish I could rewind and change it.
I'm so scared about what has to happen next.
I feel like a fraud for thinking that I've been pregnant for the last 6 weeks and telling our family and letting them be joyous. I feel like a failure for not knowing that it wasn't right.
Sorry for the disjointed post. I don't know where I'm at at the moment but take comfort in reading others posts that I am not alone and, sadly, others have felt the same loss and wanted to share here.
I will be okay. I will get pregnant again. I will have a healthy pregnancy and I will be a mummy one day but right now, I feel crushed and desperate and goodness knows what else.
I'm so so sorry you're going through this. I wish you could rewind it too, and please do not think of yourself as a fraud you were, and always will be, a Mummy to your beautiful little angel
great big hugs, and prayers and love and best wishes for a natural passing, and a happy and healthy pregnancy, birth and baby when you and your OH and your bodies are ready.
be gentle with yourself, and don't let yourself say those negative things ... it's so painful, but you've done and felt nothing wrong.
Our baby is not meant for this world
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go gently, sweetie
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