Wishing & Ranting

The last few days I have been contemplating whether or not I should just pee on a stick. I know logically that I am not pregnant, but I am so wishing I was! I just need to get this off my chest. Words of wisdom defintely welcome! :)

I stopped taking the pill back in January. 6 months on and nothing, then I needed to go back on the pill for 2 months as I had an operation. So I've been off the pill second time round since August, 3 and a half months. Since then, my cycles have been all 34 days. (Sorry if this is all muddled). I'm 22, DH is 29. We have not been actively trying (charting cycles, 'honey I'm ovulating!' etc), but definetly not preventing it, and we DTD pretty regularly - pretty much every day except for when AF is in town.

I told myself when I stopped the pill that I know it won't happen straight away. I do know that. But I'm ****ed off that it hasn't happened. Essentially we've been TTC for 9 months. I'm 22 years old, healthy and prime baby making age, shouldn't that happen straight away, if not within 6 months? I honestly have no idea how people have 'accident' babies. How do you accidently have unprotected sex, conveniantly right when you're fertile and conceive just that one time?! It really, really annoys me. It probably shouldn't, but it does.

I have been getting ovarian cysts (2 this year), the doctor said it was just the normal follicular ovulation cyst or something, and won't affect getting pregnant. Well it seems like it is! The first one cleared itself up. The most recent, I had an ultrasound in mid September, and am supposed to go back sometime in the next couple of weeks to confirm it's gone. I really want to get that ultrasound, and have the radiologist get that funny look, ask when my last period was and tell me the cyst is gone but there's a heartbeat. I know it's not logical, my brain tells me there is no way you're pregnant, you've been ovulating and having regular periods.

Or have I? I'm slender, almost 6 foot and size 10. So I notice when my belly bulges. My belly is bulging. I look 12 weeks pregnant. People are saying I do, so it's not just in my mind. Yes, I'm probably just putting on weight, but I really really want to be pregnant.

*sigh*

I just need some sense talked into me! :(

POAS and get answers either way. If you are pregnant, you can start planning, and if not, you can move on and focus on the fun of trying again ;)

Go to the chemist, buy a pregnancy test (to put your mind to rest once and for all), and while you're there buy an ovulation predictor test as well. You can get ones that you pee on, or spend a little more and get a saliva one that you use everyday (this got me pregnant the first month I used it).

I know how frustrating TTC can be. And yes I even made the same comments about suprise babies!

But in all seriousness, if you don't know when you're ovulating, then you don't really know if there is a problem or not (not saying there is either). Generally if you're under 30, your GP will want you to have spent 12 months or more trying before they will refer you to a fertility specialists.

If you have a record of when you've been ovulating then you're already one step ahead IYKWIM?

What you are feeling is exactly how I felt after months of TTC. Unfortunately sometimes that happens. Has your DH had his swimmers tested? Many people will tell you that you should wait 12 months before getting tested but I wouldn't wait.

Totally get how you feel about those accidental babies. Some people are just really really fertile. It's ok to be annoyed about it. When is AF due? If she's due in the next few days, you could do a test if you want.

Good luck & :hug:

:hug: ttc can be enough to drive you absolutely crazy! i would POAS as well - if it is bad news, it kind of makes you face up to it & spurs you into action for your next step. it isn't easy when it's negative but at least it's an answer!

if you're not 100% happy with what the doctor has said you should get a 2nd opinion or see a specialist. i also agree on the OPKs - it does help to know you're actually ovulating & when. as you say, there's such a small window for when you're fertile that even with regular sex, it is possible to miss the egg.

good luck, i hope you have some good news soon :hug:

Thanks guys, I do know I'm being silly.

There is no way I'm preg, AF just finished on Saturday. But we can dream ya know?

Rowellen do you know much about getting swimmers tested? Yes, I'm paranoid. No reason, just one of those people. Does it cost much, is it easy bla bla?

I will continued being annoyed with super fertile people. Damn you all! Haha

*end rant*

On a related note, am having random cramps down there. Feels like dull period pain. I have no idea why.

I've also been noting down when I've noticed I'm ovulating.. onto that one :)

I think I am just having one of those days.

Well we had my DH tested a couple of times. Once through QML & once through the fertility specialist. The one through QML was bulk billed but the one through the FS cost $150 I think from memory. I'm not sure what the equivalent of QML is in WA though. It's really easy. Your GP/FS will give you a referral. Then your DH has to get some swimmers in a sample cup. Then you take it in and they count them. You have to make an appt to drop the sample off and there is a time limit (1/2 hour I think) on how long you can take to get it there because they have to test it fresh. My DH made me drop it off because he was too embarrassed :lol: It might be more difficult if you live a long way from a collection centre. Also your DH has to abstain from ejaculating for 3 days prior but no more than 5 days to get the ideal specimen. I might be a little out on my numbers as it has been a couple years since DH had his tested.

Personally, I would rather know if there's a problem with the man early so you don't have to go through months & months of trying & failing & wondering what's wrong when it's not your fault at all. And for men, it's nothing but pleasure. No poking no prodding, no needles, no strange men or women looking at your bits or inserting strange contraptions in your private parts. Much easier to test the man first then if he's all clear, you can face all that crap.

You're not being silly at all! TTC is so, so frustrating. But you know what, people who fall within the first six months are actually in the minority. It can take healthy couples up to 12 months to conceive. Doctors say this for a reason - because it's based on stats. It was over 12 for us.

Long cycles are a pain, I hear ya there too. There are some basic tests you can ask for through your GP e.g. hormone levels, pelvic ultrasound to check ovulation and any structural issues etc. Plus a swimmer test for your guy. We did this at about the six-month mark, kept trying au naturale up to 12 and then saw a fertility specialist.

I used to hate it when people said "just hang in there/be patient", so I won't say that to you. Definitely talk to your GP about your concerns if you're ready to do some investigating. Could rule out something simple or give you an idea of where to go next.

Good luck, hope you get that beautiful BFP very soon x