I'm going to try for a VBAC!!!
I went to my new OB today. I decided to change as I had heard so many great things about her. There are only 3 choices of OBs in Taree.
Anyway, we went through my history with Em & why I had they C/S. I said that I feel disappointed at having a C/S, especially as I went into labour naturally & I always wonder how close I really was. She went on to say that she would have tried to talk me out of a C/S. She said the pressure of p/g in general is a huge strain on the hemmies, & I may have only had to push for 10 or 20 minutes. Anyway, as we went on, I said I'd like to try for a VBAC. I could see that she was pleased. We talked about it all & she thinks my chances of a successful VBAC are great because there was no obstectric reason behind my C/S last time! I can't believe it!
TBH I don't think I realised how much I had weighing on my shoulders WRT having another C/S. I had just accepted it & tried not to think about it. My disappointment from last time was higher than I let myself believe.
So I am still in shock & amazed that I might get to deliver this baby naturally. I am over the moon. And if I don't, well I'll give it my damned best shot!!
The one sour note of all this is the way I'm feeling about my old OB. I feel cheated that he was so keen to book me in for the C/S. He was on the phone booking me in for it before I'd even finished explaining my reason. So I feel really disappointed that I didn't see this OB last time, because if I had, I know things would be different....
