So Over This Rollercoaster...

Many of you know my story... But some of you may not.. So here is the short version...

@ 14 weeks I was diagnosed with Pregnancy Induced Hypertension and was hospitalized and monitored

@ 15 weeks I had a major bleed and was told that I was having a miscarriage

@ 16 weeks doctors told me that it wouldn't be long until I stopped bleeding, Leaving me without a baby.

@ 17 weeks doctors told me that it was a miracle that the bub had hung on but chances that another bleed or early birth was strongly possible.

@ 20 weeks my blood pressure was so high doctors said I wouldn't make it to 24 weeks and bub would have to be born prem

@ 27 weeks doctors said my blood pressure was just going to get higher and they would induce before 30 weeks.

@ 32 weeks I was told they would induce before 35 weeks

@ 37 weeks now they are telling me everything is fine and I'm to rest at home like I have been and just wait for it to happen.....

My BP has been up and down for the whole pregnancy, my legs are swollen to my hips, i have severe pelvic instability and I can barely walk and my BP is still quite high...

WHY AREN'T THESE DOCTORS DOING ANYTHING!!

I don't know how much longer I can go through this... Mentally and Physically..

Each time I go for a check up my results are different... Sometimes protein, Sometimes Low BP, Sometimes high BP, Sometimes swelling is ++, Sometimes swelling is ++++ and still.... EVERY TIME... They send me home saying "You're fine"

Now with what they have told me - all the bad things that "WERE GOING TO HAPPEN" and now they are just leaving me to cope on my own... I'm really confused, stressed and over it..

Sorry for the rant.. I'm sure other people on here are having a bad run too.. I'm just so close to the end.. but it feels so far away

xox

Oh hun hugs not long now and bubs will be in your arms.

Hope you are ok otherwise havent seen u in chat for a while

xoxo

I'm doing O.K.

Struggling big time with everything physically and emotionally now.. Discussing it with my GP every few days... Guess the only thing that will help me right now is to hold my little man in my arms.

Can't wait for the day we meet... It's a wierd feeling that I "Miss him" but I've never met him before..

I just can't wait for this roller coaster to be over.. I want it to stop

If no intervention has occurred - i think although it is hard you are in discomfort - but try and be thankful that bub is still doing well and better off in than out at less than 37 wks.

You said your GP is monitoring you every couple of days, so something is happening???

I truly believe that if there was a real concern and bubs had to be born early - medical intervention is never slow !!

It could be days, it could be weeks, pregnancy tries to teach us patience - and don't feel as though you are alone. Lots of ppl when they get to where you are - are over it - I am now and feel huge for my third - but keep thinking - another 5 weeks at least :doh:

Good luck!

OMG you have been through so much!!!! :hug:

I hope its not too much longer - I'm feeling you on the pelvic pain though - I have physio these days!!!

All worth it in the end though honey, just try to keep your focus on the end goal rather than the hurdles that pop up before then :hug:

Take it easy :hug:

Oh Honey i know it must suck and your probably so over being preg and just wanna get it all over and done with, but your labour will most likely (not def) be better if you go naturally without being induced.

Bub prob figures its too cold out here in the rappy melb weather and wants to wait for the warmer weather. You've done so well to get to this point, try and relax and enjoy your alone time with your DP. Bubs will be out and about before you know it and then you'll be missing being pregaz. lol :hug:

I understand what you mean about enjoying "alone" time with DP... But we live with my parents and brothers... so there is no such thing as "alone time"

I'm not well enough to go out anywhere.. .so i cant escape them.

I understand also that labor would be better without being induced but at this point in time i really don't care.

He's measuring 39w 3d so I know that if hes born now he would be fine... I always thought they had my dates wrong because he was always "bigger" than the dates.

I have been through alot.. but I also know im almost at the end.. Im just completely mentally and physically exhausted

Your pregnancy sounds very stressful. You've been through a lot and I can imagine how keen you are to be over it.

It seems to me that the doctors have been watching you closely and must have done something right, despite all the close calls and foreboding warnings. Doctors can only advise you based on your current condition, and your condition keeps changing. You've had some really close calls by the sounds of things ... it's a good thing the doctors kept up-to-date on your situation and they didn't end up inducing too early.

Now you've made it right to the end, which is amazing. Good work getting through such a difficult time and keeping your baby safe.

You said you've been dealing with your GP. I don't think a GP is the person you need to be talking to at this point. Is there a way to contact the hospital and talk to the midwives and an obstetrician? You might be able to make an appointment to talk directly with someone about an elective c-section or at least get some more expert advice than you can get from a GP.

Of course ideally everyone wants a lovely natural birth, but you don't sound like you're coping and if you do go into labour under such enormous mental, emotional and physical stress, you might end up with a difficult labour.

I'm going to wait at least another week before talking to doctors about things like elective c-sections etc.

I know in myself I can wait another week before "toying" with the idea of bringing him out earlier than when he is ready.

I'm a true believer that he will come when he is ready... But I'm so emotionally tired and physically "destroyed" really... that I am pushing myself every minute of the day just to get through.

My son.. Deserves to be able to decide when he is ready. 11 days till his due date.

It's the least I can do.. give him more time and not push/force him

"I understand also that labor would be better without being induced but at this point in time i really don't care."

?????????

:wall:

Oh hun what an ordeal you have had, i think if your not coping talk to your GP or hospital, surely they know what you have been through. Thats definately been a rollercoaster of events and some pretty hard ones.

I wish you all the very best and hope your little man makes his entrance soon and let your body have some much deserved rest.

By the 38 week mark all you want is bub to arrive....inductions are great in theory....but probably not the best option unless really needed (not saying its not...but KWIM).

Chin up...its worth the wait and cant wait to see a BA *Hugs*

kuraiza: I am confused by your last post... seeings you have posted after I said that i didn't care and u didn't mention it at all.. now a few days later i have changed my point of view to a less "selfish" one and you rub my comments in my face.. how hurtful. If you have nothing helpful/supportive to say.. please don't say anything at all.


Kimbaz: Its been hard. but i know that my son will be fine once he is here. Ive been in hospital again this week and its just getting harder and harder to deal with when doctors say "ooo thats not looking too good" then the next day "oh youre right to go home"... I push for explanations and all they say is... "your test results have settled down and you are right to go home"

I am just struggling with all things at the moment. but hey.. life isnt meant to be easy. and I know in my heart and my mind that i have to stay strong and keep pushing.. for the sake of my son

:hug::hug::hug::hug:
Hopefully they do something for you soon, they're hopeless....... Amazingly they're stories change as much as the opinions they give!

Keep your chin up and remember that your precious gem will be here soon and it's all worth it in the end!

Take care,
Snoopea`

Hi Banx,

:hug: Wow it has been a bit of an up and down ride for you hun! Well I can tell you when you push your son out and have him in your arms you would go through it all again in an instant. I can definitely understand why you would toy with the idea of wanting to be induced etc. but you know there are negative to it. Maybe check out the induction birth article...I think it's called to induce or not to induce? Also induced labours can be a lot more painful so maybe its worth sticking it out a bit longer!

Also if you do opt for an elective c/section, well maybe check out the vbac section...there are a lot of obstacles to get around to have a future vaginal delivery if you have a c/section. It's certainly not impossible but as I said can be a stress and struggle to achieve. So maybe take that into account too, if you feel this would be important to you or not

Also if you think the dates are out and you are almost due perhaps you won't have long to go at all? So I think do some special things for you to pass and enjoy the time.

Have a day with Girlfriends get someone to paint your toenails etc. do face masks etc go to dinner and a movie with your dp or do something just the 2 of you...out of the house(it might be a while before you get to go again) have some you time all by yourself. Read a book that you have wanted to read for ages or watch some dvd's you have been meaning too

and also what have you and are you enjoying with this pregnancy??? Talking and thinking about all the good that will come to an end with the birth of your son might just help you to stick it out a lot longer.

Oh Banx you poor thing. You really sound over it. When I got to 38 weeks I was over it. I'd had a few worries with my pregnancy - mine were more to do with scan results at different times that suggested issues & all the worries that come with having a child at advanced age. I was also suffering from swelling (not as bad as yours though) so I can only imagine how over it you are.

I decided to take matters into my own hands as my doctor was quite happy to let me go 10 days over which had me petrified as I'd read that women of my age should never be let go over as their placentas are more likely to deteriorate. It might sound silly but 3 days of orgasm (just one a day and no actual DTD required) in a row did the trick for me. Of course I don't know for sure that it worked, but I feel it did. You could always give that a go if you are really over it.

I was so shocked when the labour did start - I was so sure I'd be waiting another few weeks. You never know, it could just happen to you too.

Thankyou Jas for all your kind words and suggestions. I am going to wait for it to happen on its own (maybe try natural methods).. I don't want a c-section as I want to at least give birth to my son after all this trouble, and I it to happen when he's ready to see the world... not when i'm ready to see him.

Satya thanks for the advice, you never know i might just try it!! lol
Thankyou also for sharing a part of your story with me. I guess i forget sometimes that im not the only one that has had or is having a rough time (whether as bad, or worse as me).. In certain circumstances its hard to think of other peoples experiences especially when your life is absolute turmoil!

xoxo thanks again girls.. my spirits are really lifted.. and im starting to think more positively and more supportive and loving towards my son... instead of just focusing on myself and my health. Obviously I am still very important.. but I need to make sure I make the right decisions for all involved.. not just me.