feeling dissapointed and depressed *vent*
well i have been feeling this way for the last week or so, because i am overdue AGAIN! i was really hoping that i would be able to go into labour naturally with this pregnancy and have done just about everything in my power to help that happen.
firstly, i charted so i know when i convieved, making the due date more accurate. secondly, had an early dating scan which are supposedly more accurate in predicting due dates (which by the way came up with the same due date as from the charting software i used) i have been doing things to make this pregnancy a lot healthier like more exercise, yoga, pilates etc. i have been taking RLT since start of third tri, had massage sessions using oils that are conducive to encouraging labour, had accupuncture, had a S&S, extra sex, and still NOTHING.
at first i thought i was being depressed because of all the waiting and seeing just about everyone i know in real life and on here having their babies early or on time, but as my induction is booked in for tomorrow i realise its not the waiting that has been my problem its the fact that my body doesnt seem to be able to go into labour on its own and that i will never experience the natural build up of labour (cause i probably wont be having anymore children). which means that i am probably going to cave and have another epidural which i dont particularly want.
i just feel like there is something wrong with me! i know i am gonna have my baby tomorrow or the next day but i cant shake this negative feeling.