Yesterday..............

I hope this makes sense

We went for what was suppose to be our 12week scan yesterday but we were saddened to find out that 4 weeks ago our baby grew wings and flew up to heaven @ around 8weeks. We were shocked to the core. In the past few days i had had some spotting but thought nothing of it and had no other signs that anything was a miss. The sonogragher was most apologetic and kept saying he was sorry for being the one to deliver the news.

We seen the doctor yesterday and he was on the ball from the moment we went into his office we didnt need to say or explain anything. He explained what had happened and told me it was a "missed abortion" and explained my options and we chose for me to have a d&c but because we're in a country town i wont be able to have it done until Wednesday morning as the surgical staff arent in everyday. He explained the procedure and made sure i would have someone drop me off at the hospital and pick me up and also have someone at home with me.

DF has his 2nd uni exam on Wednesday afternoon so MIL will finish early to come look after Sophie & I. Then Thursday-Friday DF needs to go to Canberra to find somewhere to live as he's starting a new job down there starting Monday.

So my dear beautiful sisters (TK1999 being 1 of them) are driving up from Sydney on Wednesday to stay Wednesday-Friday as i think they need to be with me as much i need them to be with me. They dont want me to be alone.

We didnt have a dating scan because we were sure of our dates and we werent honestly going to have the 12week scan as we didnt with DD but thought we would because we didnt have the dating scan.

Please keep us in your thoughts.

Joanne, Chris & Sophie
xox

so sorry for your loss
*big hugs*

:hug: hon.

Take some time for you and allow yourself to grieve.
Im thankfull that Tania is coming to look after you...what a truely wonderful sister you have.

Healing vibes sweetheart

Oh sweetheart. I'm so sorry.

I am so sorry my love for the loss of Everson... :hug:

I am so glad you have so much support & love around you as you grieve your lost baby.

Lean on us in here too - we are here for you.

Fly safely Everson... :hug:

i am so sorry to hear of your loss. keep yourself surrounded by loved ones and take good care of yourself. you are in my thoughts. take care.

Wanne... my beautiful Wanne... I am so sorry for the loss you, C & S have experienced. You know I would take this pain away in a heartbeat if I could - but I can't and I hate that. I will pass on the love and hugs that I have recieved when I see you tomorrow - big big squishy bear hugs

Fly free little one... Aunty T misses you so much - look over your mummy, daddy and big sister during this difficult time.

i'm so sorry to hear of your loss :hug:

i'm glad you have such a beautiful, caring family to help you through this time.

thinking of you & your beautiful angel.

Oh, Joanne I'm so sorry for the loss of your little one :(

I am so sorry :hug:

Oh Joanne, I am so so very sorry to read this, my heart is just breaking for you. Sending you all the love and comfort I can.

Nae x x

:hug: Im so sorry for your loss :hug:

I'm so sorry :hug:. Give yourself plenty of time and permision to grieve the loss of your precious Everson. In my thoughts and prayers,
Rach xx

:hug: Im so sorry for your loss :hug:

Oh Joanne. :comfort:

I noticed your loss on TK's sig last night and PM'ed her about it.

I wish you ALL the strength in the world. The pain will ease but never go away completely. You are very lucky to have very supportive sisters on hand. I told TK to allow you to grieve, cry and express your emotions in anyway which suits you as this help the grieving process. I hate it when our body's plays tricks on us like that, it is awful.

You have one healthy little girl, so you know you can conceive, carry and birth. I'm pretty sure you and your DH are young and healthy individuals, so you will conceive once more. I know the next one will not replace this one which grew its wings, but you will always carry this angel in your heart forever.

Your little angel is in my prayers tonight. Take it easy.

xxoo
A.

Joanne, Chris & Sophie

I am so sorry to hear of the loss of your precious little angel baby. My heart is breaking for you all.

You'll be in my thoughts, heart & prayers :comfort:

Oh big hugs to you all :grouphug:
That's so sad. Lovely sisters to come and be with you.
Thoughts and :pray: for you all.

I'm so, so sorry for your loss. Glad you have such a supportive family around you :hug:

I am so sorry to see this, so sorry for your loss, sending you lots of hugs and love through the ether....I am so glad you have such support coming through from your sisters xxx
thinking of you all xx

Joanne, I am sooooooo sorry to hear of your loss. I was so excited to see your pregnancy announcement, your such a lovely person. I am happy that you will have support around you during this difficult time. You are in my thoughts :hug:

I'm so sorry for your loss Joanne :hug: I know how much pain you must be in, but please be kind to yourself, and take all the time you need to heel :hug: You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

RIP baby Everson, may you watch over your mum, dad and sister always x

I was a mess when this happened to me, so I know what you are going through Joanne. Take care of yourself, your Dh & DD. I'm very, very sorry for your loss.

I am thinking of you and sending you :hug:

Thanks for all the lovely messages ladies, they are all much appreciated.

I feel so overwhelmed by the love & support we've recieved.

I am so very sorry for your loss.
Thinking of you & your family.

so sorry to you and your family. hugs

I am so very sorry :hug:

RIP Baby Everson

Joanne,

I am so sorry to hear of your loss darl :hug: my heart goes out to you right now, take care and take as long as you need to greive the loss of your precious bubba.

Bonham I am so sorry you and your family are giong through the pain of such a sad loss. RIP litle angel.
Take care and gie your heart time to heal.
X

I am so very sorry for your loss

I am thinking of you at this difficult time

Take care

xoxoxoxo

Ohhhhh, hunny, I am so sorry to hear that yu are going through this.
I know that you're surrounded by love, there's plenty of people thinking of you, and you will make it through this.

Sending you all the strength in the world... :hug:

Awww so sorry Joanne!!! not an easy thing to go through! thats very nice of your sisters to come stay with you! BIG HUGS

I am so very sorry for your loss, please take care of yourself.
My thoughts are with you today
xxx

I'm so sorry for your loss. I'll be thinking of you today. :hug:

I am so very sorry for your loss Joanne :comfort:

I am glad that you are surrounded by your family and the cyber world today:hug::hug:, Take Care.
xxoo

RIP Baby Everson :angel:, fly amongst the stars and watch over your mummy and daddy

I am so sorry to hear this sad news. Take care of yourself, I am so glad that your sisters can be with you.

Thanks for your continued support & hugs ladies it is SO much appreciated and i feel overwhelmed by it all.

I slept ok last night i tossed & turned a bit and woke up a few times before evntually getting up at 6.05am to have a shower and get organised.

Thanks ladies i much appreciate you keeping me in your thoughts.

I went in around 7.30am like planned. And i came to at around 8.20-8.30am they let me wake up and then moved me from the bed to a chair infront of a TV and gave me a drink & sandwich to eat. And then i was allowed to get dressed & go home around 10am.

I came home and basically went straight to bed and didnt wake up until around 12.15pm, got a drink and something to eat and went back to lay down. Chris has left to go to Orange for his Uni exam and MIL is here keeping me company & doing anything for Sophie.

My sisters left Sydney at 10am and were at Lithgow at 12pm and then my younger was driving from Lithgow to Bathurst as she got her Learner's last Thursday. So they should be here between 2-3pm.

Thanks again everyone for keeping me in your thoughts and all the lovely messages.

Joanne
xox

thinking of you babe, and not much longer until your sisters are there xx

:hug: Rest well my sweet. The spirit of your angel child will carry on. You sisters will be arriving any minute... how good to have them at this time.

Rest well darling - my thoughts & prayers have been with you today & my candle has been lit... :hug:

Thanks for the continued support everyone its very much appreciated.

I've been resting and sitting down since i woke up at 12.15pm when i could no longer lay in bed and stare at the walls.

My sisters arrive around 4.30pm and Chris got home from Orange about 15mins later.

We had BBQ chicken rolls for dinner as it was too hot to cook anything.

I took some nurofen after dinner and have been feeling ok all day just a few twinges.

I've was talking to MIL while she was here and then once my sisters got here i talked to them a bit. My nan was going to ring but my older sister rang our dad and asked him to ask her to leave it a while as i still dont feel like talking on the phone.

My sisters arent letting me do much and insisting on doing things for me even taking Sophie's nappies to the bin.