Tomorrow's the day.. I really need support !

My little girls going off for the day with xp and his mum/family ..for the first time!
it will be the first time me leaving her with anyone else other than my family in which she and i live with.. so its pretty big..well for me anyway.:redface:

Im feeling a tad emotional atm, ive been trying to keep myself busy and keep myself distracted..but know my mind is racing..

Im going to make this a positive experience, i actually instigated it and asked if they(his mum) wanted to take her for a few hours as they thought that i would be coming with her .. but i thought to myself i need to do this if not for me but for the precious little girl who needs to get to know her dad and other family without me their..

its hard! i can't describe it..especially as xp doesnt contact us much at all, all contact that has taken place for this is through his mum.. xp doesnt visit her much as he lives a few hours away..his mum visits most weeks for an hour or so (where we go out to coffe etc) I mean when xp and i do talk its civil and friendly but its a rare occurence and he doesnt think to call or see how shes going..

i just have to pray and believe that she'll be ok/ i mean i know she will i trust his mum.. (sorry im babbling now)

Ok sorry girls what im meaning to get out of this post is i just need to hear im doing the right thing and that i can get through it..

ive organised with Dp for him to come around and we are going to do something to keep my mind occupied..:cry:

She will be fine, you'll have a break from her and that will help you be a better mum to her. You'll fret the first day, but hopefully it will help him realise what he's supporting when he gives you $$$ - a well-adjusted little angel who loves her mumma and wants to know her papa more.

Enjoy your day, do something special for yourself...

That is going to be hard for you - :hug: for tomorrow. Have you got something to keep you busy for the day? The first day DD went to childcare (not the same but YKWIM) I went to the hairdressers and cried and cried and cried. Thank god my hairdresser knew exactly what I was going through.

Thx your understanding and support means the world to me.. its hard because some people close to me(which is a bit of a shock haven't been as understanding thinking that its not a big deal etc)
but i know that im doing the right thing and that it will get easier (hopefully with time)

:hug:Thanks again girls xx

You will be just fine. You know his Mum will make sure she's doing wonderfully.

Think of it as a little time-out for you...

Big hugs hun. I know it's hard and your heart will break a bit tomorrow but Div's right - if nothing elses, his Mum will be there to make sure all goes well.

You're a strong, courageous Mummy for putting what's best for DD first and allowing her the opportunity to get to know them better on her own. I just hope I have half your courage when it finally comes time for me to be in the same position.

S xo

:hug:

You will be fine and so will Grace. It will be hard but you are doing such a good thing ! I hope the day flies by and she's back in your arms before you know it !

So proud of you !
xoxo

Hey Hun,

Just wanted to let you know I'll be thinking of you today, sending you big :hug: and lots of strength.

Lindsay xoxox

thinking of you today huni x

Hugs today honey. THinking of you.

REmember you ARE doing the right thing.

Thinking of you today hun - be strong!

Thanks so much girls..you have no idea how much it means to me !!
dp's coming over soon..

i feel like im about to start crying i know i'm doing the right thing but it hurts and i can't stop it trying to change how i'm feeling ill see how i go!

Your doing the right thing honey.
have a wonderful day & try not to stress too much.

Thinking of you.

oh hun :hug:

The more people in DD's life that love her, the better.

And when she is gone, don't do housework or anything boring - have some fun.

Try to stay strong today Sweetcheeks. I'm with Lulu on this one: I officially BAN you from doing anything even remotely boring or unfun today. Is there any way you and DP can sneak away for a bit of some quality 'alone' time? cough, cough

That's one of the only things that is always guaranteed to take my mind off of anything upsetting. Well, unless it was with my ex and then it WAS the upsetting thing. You'd think I'd put a 'pmsl' there to show that I'm joking. But I'm not.

Much love today our beautiful Em.

S xo

Hugs hun Good luck for today!!!

how u travelling hun?
its very good of u to allow her to go with her dad considering he doesnt have much to do with u guys, i dont know if i'd be able to do the same!!.

Why not make today all about you? do things that you cant do with DD home. i was going to suggest heading out and buying some christmas things for her, but everythings shut so that wont work!
Go for a stroll and grab a coffee, find somewhere nice to sit and relax, and just be. You'll be suprised how quickly the day will pass.

Thinking of you xxx

Thx everyone so much means so so much !

i dont know what im going to do know dp has to work at 12 now.. abit upset but theres not much i can do.. might call up a friend hmm
they havent come their picking her up at 10.30 ..
i had a little cry but trying to cheer up so grace doesnt pick up on it !! ill be ok !

How sad for your little girl. Hope that you and your DD have a wonderful easter day together.

So how's your day going? It's starting to get latish, guess they'll be on the way back now?

Anything special for tea tonight?

Hope today went ok, it's a lovely thing to want your DD to get to know her father despite the pain it's causing you. You're amazing woman!

I hope you had a fun-filled & busy day to take your mind of missing your DD. I just want to say what a wonderful thing you've done for her....really leading by example and demonstrating how courageous you truly are.

Hugs, babe xx you have such a strong bond with her, it will all be ok.

Aww hun how did you go... been thinking of you today!

I'm sure she had fun and i hope you had a chance to relax and do your own thing... if i lived closer we could have caught up ;)

hope today went ok for you sweet! xx

Hoping all went well. I'm sure it did.

Hugs and thinking of you.

hope it went well hunxxxxxxxxxxxx You did an awesome unselfish thing

Howd it go lovely? x

Sorry i haven't written back about how it went sooner..

she had a great time.. they took her to their place and to the beach and out to lunch.
it was pretty hard the first hour after she left but i just tryed not to think about it.. watching her be carried out the front door was the hardest thing I've ever had to do..but i kept telling myself that i was doing the right thing.. xp's mum and sister brought her back home, xp didn't come to bring her back..his mum and sister were really appreciative of the time they got with dd.. i wont go into details about xp. but overall it was a positive experience for dd !

thanks so much everyone for your love and support in helping me get through this truly means everything xx

It is fantastic that DD had a great time!

Sounds like your daughter has a very special mum, grandmother and aunt. You're very brave and what you did was a tough thing to put yourself through, but your daughter will appreciate it. My parents are long long divorced, I was about 10 when it happened and my mum always tried to keep the relationship solid with my dad and us. Even though he's very self-absorbed and forgets about us most of the time, I am forever grateful to my mum for not pushing her reasons onto us and letting us make our own. Grace is a very lucky girl to have you for her mum.

Corelly x