My little girls going off for the day with xp and his mum/family ..for the first time!
it will be the first time me leaving her with anyone else other than my family in which she and i live with.. so its pretty big..well for me anyway.
Im feeling a tad emotional atm, ive been trying to keep myself busy and keep myself distracted..but know my mind is racing..
Im going to make this a positive experience, i actually instigated it and asked if they(his mum) wanted to take her for a few hours as they thought that i would be coming with her .. but i thought to myself i need to do this if not for me but for the precious little girl who needs to get to know her dad and other family without me their..
its hard! i can't describe it..especially as xp doesnt contact us much at all, all contact that has taken place for this is through his mum.. xp doesnt visit her much as he lives a few hours away..his mum visits most weeks for an hour or so (where we go out to coffe etc) I mean when xp and i do talk its civil and friendly but its a rare occurence and he doesnt think to call or see how shes going..
i just have to pray and believe that she'll be ok/ i mean i know she will i trust his mum.. (sorry im babbling now)
Ok sorry girls what im meaning to get out of this post is i just need to hear im doing the right thing and that i can get through it..
ive organised with Dp for him to come around and we are going to do something to keep my mind occupied..
She will be fine, you'll have a break from her and that will help you be a better mum to her. You'll fret the first day, but hopefully it will help him realise what he's supporting when he gives you $$$ - a well-adjusted little angel who loves her mumma and wants to know her papa more.
Enjoy your day, do something special for yourself...
That is going to be hard for you - for tomorrow. Have you got something to keep you busy for the day? The first day DD went to childcare (not the same but YKWIM) I went to the hairdressers and cried and cried and cried. Thank god my hairdresser knew exactly what I was going through.
Thx your understanding and support means the world to me.. its hard because some people close to me(which is a bit of a shock haven't been as understanding thinking that its not a big deal etc)
but i know that im doing the right thing and that it will get easier (hopefully with time)
Big hugs hun. I know it's hard and your heart will break a bit tomorrow but Div's right - if nothing elses, his Mum will be there to make sure all goes well.
You're a strong, courageous Mummy for putting what's best for DD first and allowing her the opportunity to get to know them better on her own. I just hope I have half your courage when it finally comes time for me to be in the same position.
You will be fine and so will Grace. It will be hard but you are doing such a good thing ! I hope the day flies by and she's back in your arms before you know it !
Tomorrow's the day.. I really need support !
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for tomorrow. Have you got something to keep you busy for the day? The first day DD went to childcare (not the same but YKWIM) I went to the hairdressers and cried and cried and cried. Thank god my hairdresser knew exactly what I was going through.
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