2 years, 7 days... and we are done

And part of me is proud. Part of me is relieved. Part of me is totally gutted.

The past week and a bit, she's only been feeding really quick, less than a minute each side, and only once or twice a day. We've been away, so I thought maybe it was just the excitement, but it's dwindled since we got back.

Instead of feeding her, she's wanted cuddles in the rocking chair. It's like she transitioned herself really.

Today was one feed, less than 30 seconds each side. She pulled off and just looked up at me, and I knew. We sat in the rocking chair, just hugging and rocking and looking at each other, and her eyes closed, and she fell asleep within minutes.

I'm so proud of us. I'm proud that this is her decision and that it wasn't traumatic for her. I'm relieved that it was her, and that it has happened. I'm also gutted and a little heartbroken that she no longer needs me to breastfeed her. But so so so proud that she is comfortable enough to make this such an easy transition.

I need some hugs though. This is tough for me. I knew it was coming. And still think she'll probably have a feed tomorrow and the next day, but it won't be a 'feed' really. Just a snuggle I'm sure, and we'll end up in the rocking chair.

*sigh* Hard to believe the emotions. It's like finishing a book and being really satisfied in the ending but disappointed that it had to end. Sort of like when I read Harry Potter :think: :lol:

:hug: well done Leasha - you've achieved so much, and I am in deep admiration for you to not only feed your baby but to keep going until she is ready to move on herself. :hug:

Congrats Hun on giving your little lady such a great start to life. If that is to be one of your last feeds, what a beautiful special moment. :comfort:

awwwww darl :hug:

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That is a beautifully written post Leash, about a beautiful memory.

A huge congratulations and the warmest of hugs to you. :hug: I know that bittersweet feeling too. But it really is wonderful to end with a whimper rather than a bang. More hugs. :hug:

Well done hun! :clap:

You've both done a bloody amazing job!

Congratulations!
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You've done an amazing job, you are an amazing mother, Jazz is blessed to have a mother who has let her set her own pace with feeding.

well done :hug: you have done a brilliant job :)

I know just how you feel - I'm there right now :hug:

:hug: and :dance:

What a wonderful thing you have done for your daughter by following her lead all the way :clap: congragulations on doing so wonderfuly well :D

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* Hard to believe the emotions. It's like finishing a book and being really satisfied in the ending but disappointed that it had to end. Sort of like when I read Harry Potter :think: :lol:

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I know exactly what you mean here Leash. Well done on your fantastic job. I felt the exact same when DD weaned herself. :hug: :hug: :hug:

Well done. :hug: What an achievement! And an inspiration. xo

:hug: That's beautiful, bought a tear to my eye :hug: Well done.

Congratulations on giving your little girl a great start in life and thank you for sharing. xxx

:cheer: Yay for you both!

It is really bittersweet isn't it. :hug: You have both done such an amazing job and congratulations on reaching the end! xox

:cheer: Well done. :D

What a gorgeous post, and a great achievement for the two of you.

If you have a journal or album or something you write stories in for Jas, please copy your words in. An amazing memory to pass on.

Congratulations Leasha! What a beautiful end to your adventure (trying not to use "journey" lol), your really are an inspiration.

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Congrats to both of you :hug:

Beautiful post leash, I can only hope that DS and mine breastfeeding adventure comes to as gentle a close as yours has. Congratulations on such a wonderful time you have both shared. xx

Wow what an achievement!

Awww big hugs sweetie :hug:

Although bittersweet, what a beautiful moment you shared together. And i hope there are plenty more just like them.

Congrats also on making it beyond 2 years, you have both done a fantastic job x

Well done Leasha that is an amazing thing you've done for your DD!!! :cheer:

(I bet you would feel really sad!! :()

Well done hun, you have done a great job. She is a lucky girl to have been able to choose her own time, and in time I think you will feel more peace with it :hug:

n'aw :hug: you made me teary too!!

Well done

Thanks everyone :grouphug:

She had a 'feed' just then, a hop-on, hop-off kind of feed. Nothing this morning, and we'll just rock and hug to sleep tonight, which is nice.

:hug: Well done beautiful. x

Awww Leash :hug: you have come SUCH a long way hun and what you have achieved for your gorgeous girl is amazing and something you can always look back on with pride. xoxox (Had to giggle at the HP comment - I agree...reading Deathly Hallows sucked!)

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She pulled off and just looked up at me, and I knew. We sat in the rocking chair, just hugging and rocking and looking at each other, and her eyes closed, and she fell asleep within minutes.

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I know how emotional it is when you know it's over...but what a perfect way for the end to come around. Well done Leash and Jazzy Jazz.

So why do I feel like crying now? That was just beautiful. You should frame that and keep it in her bedroom as a special little keepsake.

Well ... still going ... sort of. She's just started cutting her two-year-old molars, all four at once! ARGH my poor little mite! She's feeding more and feeding to sleep at the moment as well. Was feeling better about her weaning but am also mostly ok that she is still going LOL. As long as she still needs me, I'm here for her :D

The way you have written your story is just beautiful!!! Its sounds so peaceful, calm and time appropriate. It honestly reads like a booby-fed fairytale! Well done to both of you for raising such a decisive and knowing young lady!
Good luck for October too!
I agree with Cass72...what a lovely piece to frame and look back on in the future :)

Congratulations Leesha, you are an inspiration and should be so proud of yourself!