very confused......

Hi girls,
yes it's me again. You guys must be getting sick of me by now. But I need advice. Af is late (AF cycle changed with IUD insertion and removal and I am going by past cycles, she is only one day late), I did a HTP this morning (which I am wondering if it is invalid as I didn't sleep last night, I worked a night shift, only had an hrs nap once I got home before I tested?). Anyway, it came up with the test line almost right away, but that soon faded and looked to be gone. Well when I checked it later, it's def there, very fine, thin pink/purple line and I have been staring at it off and on for the last few hrs. I immediately retested, but using a new sample and that is negative. After my 2hr nap this afternoon, I retested....once again BFN. With me, I usually don't get BFP's untill AF is WAY overdue (with Jess 10wks was 1st BFP HPT).
I don't know whether to take it as a BFP, a BFN, should I let DH know about it? or should I wait till I know for sure? I so wanna call my sister, but I also feel DH should know before she does..... I can't just drop everything and go get a BT as I'd have to drag two babies up there..... HELP! I don't know what to do and I am going crazy with this heartburn! (had it non stop for 2wks even rennie isn't helping!).

Kerrie - you poor thing...it sounds very confusing! I'd give it a couple more days and then test again. But if you have the heartburn concern as well maybe just go to the dr to see about that and get a BT done at the same time. Can you get someone to mind the girls for you?

Maybe you can tell DH that you would feel better seeing the dr as you've had enough of the heartburn and then tell him that you are also a bit late, AF wise, and so you'll get that checked out too. Hope you get it sorted...and no we're not getting at all sick of u - that's what bb is for :)

thinking I might duck into coles on the way to work tonight and pick up an early PG Test and test with FMU Tmw morning when I wake up (from my sleepover part). If I pick up a multiple pack I can retest the next few days if I need to....

Oh, I forgot to add, I had spotting two weeks ago, which I questioned in the post pregnancy thread.... I went to the Dr then as I was thinking it was breakthru bleeding from minipill. Dr suggested it wasn't strong enough for me but confirmed I have no real options other than hoping it is strong enough. Am once again wondering if it was implantation or similar.... Usually I know my body, but first the IUD stuffed my cycles around and now the minipill is making it hard for me to work out...


I know. Wait and see. But I'm impatient! I wanna know now (stamping foot like a 3y.o child)!

Maybe you should try one of those digital HPT's with FMU? Let us know how you go!!!

well, still no af and getting all BFN's. But this morning I have been crying non stop over nothing really. I feel like I don't know my body anymore and I hate not knowing what is going on. Before the IUD and the mini pill, I knew when I O'd and I knew when I was pg with Jess. I knew when something was up. Now I am just confused all the time and I hate it. I hate that if I am pg, it will mean our plans change and I basically stuff things up for us. Even is my new employer will let me keep the job and work untill I am 38wks! I hate that I feel like such a failure atm.... I keep thinking I am going to lose DH as I am sure he doesn't want a depressed wife, but atm I can't help it! I hate myself.

God Kerrie, your poor darl.:hug: .
You sound exhausted to me. I do know where your coming from though as youve been in my posts. I hated the mini pill as i didnt feel signs of ovulating with it either. The month i went off it though i fell. (not what you want to hear atm, sorry). I think the pill plays havoc with your body.
I think you should go and talk to Dh and release it off your chest. It is his problem to so as they say 'a problem shared is a problem halved'. Im sure he will be very supportive and it may even be a relief to know whats been going in the last couple of days.

Those digital tests that bliss suggested more accurate? I didnt even know they existed. But maybe if they are spot on it would be worth trying one of those. Unless you have already.
Good luck and try not to stress. Have a glass of wine or something.

I wish I could have a glass of wine or something. But I don't drink. Besides which I have been feeling sick all morning (I usually get evening sickness when pg so prob just emotions etc) and have two babies to look after, add to that that I work evenings 4 days a week, including tonight, a drink is pretty much out of the question..... I avoided playgroup today as I couldn't stop crying. I rang my sis to explain I wouldn't be going and was crying on the phone to her. I just feel so useless and stupid atm....like even my body is clueless and misbehaving....

gee you need some support at the moment. Is talking to your DH not an option? Do you think that would make things worse.
I know you arent ttc#3 again so is that the reason your so upset, apart from the fact that your hormones are running rampart.

Kerrie i think you have already answered your own questions about your body though. And the fact that you had spotting a few weeks ago. It all sounds like you are pg again. Can your sister look after the kids while you go get a blood test. Even though its a huge pain in the rear to do you will have peace of mind once its done and you have the results. If it is indeed postive then you and DH can start dealing with it.
I dont know what else to say to help you out. Sounds to me like you need a break to me.

Chin up.

My sister lives over an hr away and has two little ones to look after herself so I don't want to put her out and ask her to come over (also the house is a mess as I have been too tired to vac and mop after working and keeping up with the washing up and clothes washing etc).....

but thank you so much for ur support......I think I will have a nap once the kids are in bed.....ho9pefully I will fell better after that....

Hey thats what family is for, to lean on if you need help. I know id do it in a flash if mine asked.
And i dont think the state of your house is going to faize her one bit, id say she will totatlly understand actually.

Hope the nap does revamp you a bit, a long hot lavender bath would be great to. Lol i know i know, its nice to fantasize though isnt it.:rolleyes:

*LOL* Yep, I'm actually going to wake up my little bub now, and go to my old dr (at least he understood me a bit better, even if he is now 30mins away). The new place I go to (since we moved) the Drs seem to be all "I just want to get thru as many patients as possible" they just don't seem to care about people as individuals. Makes me feel uncomfortable going there.... I think my old Dr would ring me with results too so....

Ok....better get off my ass and go. Will let Dh know I am going too.

Well done!.Let me know how you go. And good luck.:)

Kerrie - Just want to say good luck - I can imagine how overwhelmed your feeling and hope the results come in quickly so you know whats happening.
I think talking to your dh would be a great idea just to take some of the pressure off you!
and
DON'T WORRY ABOUT THE HOUSEWORK!!!!!!!

get results tmw lunchtime....thanks soooo much for your support. I feel a little better now, just knowing my Dr is on my side...

Hi!

Let us know how you go!! Sometimes a supportive dr can make sooo much difference. Have you talked to dh?

I had already talked to Dh about it when I got the faint +ve, but I had told him it's probably a false one my cycles are screwy so he didn't think anything more of it. He didn't put two and two together, the fact I've not wanted to eat at dinner time cause I am feeling off nor the boobs being twingy nor the spotting.....heck I still don't know. I honestly can't tell you if I feel pg or not as the last few cycles, my cycles have been 25days, 31, 20, now I'm sitting on 30 again (not including the spotting two weeks ago). When my 31 day cycle happened, I had all the pgcy symptoms too. So maybe it's just my body atm. But I want to know for sure IYKWIM? I want to know what is going on. What is causing these whacky cycles!
Anyway, Dh went mad at me for not talking to him about what was bothering me. Now he knows and I find out in a few hrs and have talked to a dr, he see's how much better I feel because I have support. Yes our plans will be stuffed up for a while if I am. It will mean having to have a serious talk with my new boss and saying I'm willing to work to 37 weeks, and go back to work once bub is 5 months.....if I can keep my shifts.... and hopefully that will mean we don't fall too far behind and can keep on track renovation wise...I don't know. I should just leave it and try not to think about it till I have the results. It's probably just my body screwing with me.....

Kerrie - I think it was definitely a good idea to get a blood test - I agree you need to know for sure. I'm sure you guys will manage if your p/g again - your going to be a very busy mummy thats for sure! I'm sure you'll get all your reno's done eventually - just think you'll get the baby bonus - hehehehe.
OK - Good luck today! Thinking of you!

*LOL* Yeah, the baby bonus will help with the kitchen *LOL* But we'll have to get Kat moved into a bed soon then. I don't think we could handle 3 cots in one house *LMAO*

ok, well results came back negative so I have NFi what is going on except my body is playing hell with me. Don't know what to think about why my body is doing this....

Oh Kerrie - It must be so confusing...Have you thought of maybe going to a naturopath or something that may be able to give you something naturally to help your hormones etc. Otherwise I don't know what to say....Big hugs!

Kerrie, thats great, dont know where ive been to miss your news. Must of been a bit of a relief for you. Told you talking to DH was a must. Thats why you married him, so you can talk about ANYTHING.
I think after the second bub our bodys must take longer to work them selves out. I had all the signs of being pg and did 3 tests in 3 weeks but kept coming back neg. Now i know why my body has been so all over the place. AF came back. Yay.
Now though im thinking, gee we can really fall now so its really crunch time to really be sure. I think if DS wasnt so young i would go for it but he is still really young.

Hope you start feeling back to normal soon, whatever that feeling like. Im happy for you that you have an answer anyway, takes away the stress hey.

certainly does take away some of it. However, Kat fell and hit her head on friday, then friday night started vomitting constantly. So off to hosp we trot. Turns out she picked up gastro when I dragged them up to Dr with me. Jess has it now and so does John so YAY. Back to stressland. Add to that we sent Jess to mums place (with sis and her kids too) when Kat was in hosp, now jess has it it looks like they'll all get it too. Seems the whole of sydney has it as Westmead was packed to the rafters when we left yesterday....

Oh god how great for you. DD started vomitting yesterday to. Hopefully DS doesnt get it. Fingers crossed the B/Fng keeps it away. Hope you ALL get better and feel good soon. Gee what else hey, you arent haveing the best of times lately hey.
Get a lotto ticket, you may actually win, LOL.

we had one in last night's draw. Obviously didn't win as we'd have been notified by now. Kat's brighter now and Jess is starting to keep fluids down so..... I'm feeling like crap but having to do the washing etc or else we'll run out of clothes *LOL*. Oh and still no AF.....crazy old coot.