My little miracle angel

Well as some of you know we have been ttc for a while now I don't ovulate clomid didn't work I ovulated with injections but was hyper-stim in hospital for 2 weeks with a drain and had a surprise of my little miracle baby ..

At 6w3d - Everything was 100% perfect heartbeat fluid was perfect and just soo happy

At 8w3d - Bubby was good measured correctly and a nice stron heartbeat though not enough fluid was there only half what it should be

Today 10w First Ob appointment all was going well he said well you can say you are definately out of that danger period and lets see how much more fluid bub has produced for you so I am up there lying down and you see bub arms legs body and head soo amazing I couldn't see that flicker though so I was saying wake up bubby wake up in my head and he said I am soo sorry he doesn't have a heartbeat ..

I am booked on thursday to have my little angel removed from me its soo hard all I can see is my angel with arms and legs head and body clear as clear can be and no heartbeat

I am soo scared of whats going to happen on Thursday...

Thanks for listening xx

:comfort:I'm so sorry.
I hope everything goes OK on Thursday.

Oh no, I'm so sorry for you loss :hug:.

I'll be praying that all goes smoothly for you on Thursday :hug:.

I am so sorry...will be thinking of you on Thursday xxx

Oh my darling I am so sorry... :hug:

Tears are falling reading your post - and knowing so well how painful it is to go through the loss of a baby. I too have those indellible images in my heart - and that willing to see the reassuring flicker. :hug:

It will be difficult but you will get through this.

Usually my love when you get to the hospy they will put a pessary into your vagina to press up against your cervix to help soften your cervix. You need to have someone you love there to hold your hand.

An hour or two later you will go down to theatre where they will put a bung in your hand. Then they will sedate you and you will go to sleep.

When you wake up it will all be over. You won't have too much pain and you will have some bleeding for up to 2 weeks afterward. Most times you can go home the same day.

Just know that you will get through. You will smile again and someday the pain will not be as raw and horrible as it is today.

Fly safely little baby... :hug:

:hug: I am so sorry
I to know that image and I understand how you feel :hug: :hug:

I don't know what to say to make you feel better...I don't think there is anything that could. I just wanted to give you giant hugs :hug: and let you know that I'm thinking of you during this hard time.

:hug: hun

Im so sorry to hear about the loss of your much loved and wanted little angel :(. You will get through this with so much support and understanding from BB.
:hug::hug:
I wish you all the luck in the world in falling pg and bubba sticking :hug:

Miss K I am so sorry for your loss...

My thoughts are with you

MissK my heart is breaking for you. Look after yourself.

Janie xxx

Oh hun, there really arent words to offer comfort, there just arent.

We will be here to help you get through this - and I will be thinking of you on Thursday.

:hug:

Miss K- OMG hun! I'm so sorry this has happened to you :hug: you have been on such a ruff rollercoaster, I have you in my prayers darling. I'm soo sorry I really am, I wish I could find better words to help support you.

Flowerchild - Thankyou for letting me know what to expect on thursday its better having a rough idea then not knowing anything at all!

Thanks everyone for you comments it does really mean alot...

im sorry for your loss and i hope that thursday goes the best it can for you

I`m so sorry hun :hug:

All the best for Thursday

So sorry to hear of your loss. Thinking of you for Thursday.
:hug:

Oh my gosh hun im so very sorry ....my heart is truely breaking for you

sending you huge :hug:

xox

Miss K i am truly sorry to hear of your sad news! its just not fair!

:pray: Miss K...Im also so sorry for your loss..take all the time you need to grieve you angel and know that we're all here for you on BB. Take Care x

I'm so, so sorry to hear your bad news MissK. Take care of your self. Be sure to have lots of time off work to recover if you can.

I am so sorry to read that you have lost your precious baby. Take care of yourself and and like Flowerchild said, make sure you have someone at the hospital to hold your hand. Take the time to grieve and be kind to yourself. :hug:

Oh sweetie I am so sorry and lost for words :hug: will be here for you you are in my :pray:

I am so sorry

Oh Miss K - I'm so so so sorry! I posted on your profile :hug::hug:

Oh MissK - so sorry to hear of your loss :hug:. Take care hun and know that we are all here to support you. I am teary posting this and really want to reach out and give you the biggest :hug: - your going to get through this it's just going to take time. xxxxxx

oh hunny i am so very sorry my heart is breaking for you massive hugs to you and if you need anything i'm here

MissK. You poor thing. My heart is aching for you. Words seem so inadequate in times like this. But please know that i am thinking of you and praying you have the strength to cope with the trials ahead of you.

Your little one tried so hard to hang on, I am sorry your little miracle didnt continue for you.

You are all just wonderful people with the biggest hearts thankyou soo soo much for your support it does help soo much xx

DF will be coming with me on Thursday so he will be able to hold my hand...

I just don't understand if bub doesn't have a heartbeat and there is something wrong why have I had no cramping or signs of spotting or anything maybe my body just thinks I have a healthy baby still growing?

sorry I don't know the answer to your question, when I lost my Angel baby, my first indication was spotting.
just wanted to say that I am sorry for your loss:hug:, take time to grieve together and I will be thinkng of you on Thursday

I am so sorry for your loss :hug:

A loss like you have experienced, with no other signs is often referred to as a 'missed miscarriage'. Basically your body has not registered that your little one has passed :( I too had a loss like this at 12 weeks. I just wanted to reassure you that although I know you must be scared about Thursday, physically it really isn't too bad. I didn't experience any physical pain.

Praying that all goes well for you :hug:

:hug: I am so very sorry for the loss of your precious angel. Take the time you need to grieve. Will be thinking of you on Thursday and I hope everything goes smoothly for you.

Miss K,
My heart is breaking for you. None of us should have to go through this pain. I know that scan image all to well and i truly hope you never, ever have to see that image again
I hope in the coming weeks, you may be able to get some answers as to why your baby passed.
Hope you have some great support around you on Thurs and all the days before and after

Missk - I am so very sorry to read this. Sounds exactly how my little angel flew to heaven last year (missed m/c), I can empathise with the shock and disbelief you must have felt when you looked up at that screen. I will never forget that feeling, nor will I forget that little bub for the precious 9 weeks she was growing in my tummy.

Sending you lots of :hug:

I'm so sorry for your loss.
Hugs to you

Miss K, my heart goes out to you. I too lost a miracle bub concieved when the Dr's thought my DH had very very few motile sperm just prior to starting IVF. It's just too bitter that a miracle has ended this way. My heart goes out to you and your DP... We lost our miracle at only 5 weeks 1 day and I can only imagine how much greater and deeper your pain is than ours.

I wish I could say something more helpful... You are in my prayers.

Oh Miss K, I am truly sorry for your loss. Please take care of yourself :hug:

Honey. I know what you are going through. Been there, done that and so has many other women here.

I wish i could reach in this screen and give you a hug as it brings back memories of my loss.

We will all be thinking of you.. and good luck.

Thankyou soo much ladies!! I am finding it a bit hard this afternoon I am by myself atm and DF had to g o to work today so I have till 6 before he comes home .. And I am stressing myself because of tomorrow I more scared of going under than anything else because it makes my really sick when I wake up and I keep passing out but I am hoping I won't be under for that long.. Does anybody know how long the surgery takes?

Huge :hug: Miss K, I'm so very sorry for your loss :(

I had a D&C with my last m/c and the actual surgery does not take long at all. They only give you a light anaesthetic and most of your time in hospy will be in Recovery. I was worried about the general too because I have had one before and had lots of vomiting after that one. But I had none after the D&C, I was just really tired for the rest of the day. Don't really know though if that was because of the general or just being really really sad :(

Take care of yourself xx