Well as some of you know we have been ttc for a while now I don't ovulate clomid didn't work I ovulated with injections but was hyper-stim in hospital for 2 weeks with a drain and had a surprise of my little miracle baby ..
At 6w3d - Everything was 100% perfect heartbeat fluid was perfect and just soo happy
At 8w3d - Bubby was good measured correctly and a nice stron heartbeat though not enough fluid was there only half what it should be
Today 10w First Ob appointment all was going well he said well you can say you are definately out of that danger period and lets see how much more fluid bub has produced for you so I am up there lying down and you see bub arms legs body and head soo amazing I couldn't see that flicker though so I was saying wake up bubby wake up in my head and he said I am soo sorry he doesn't have a heartbeat ..
I am booked on thursday to have my little angel removed from me its soo hard all I can see is my angel with arms and legs head and body clear as clear can be and no heartbeat
I am soo scared of whats going to happen on Thursday...
Tears are falling reading your post - and knowing so well how painful it is to go through the loss of a baby. I too have those indellible images in my heart - and that willing to see the reassuring flicker.
It will be difficult but you will get through this.
Usually my love when you get to the hospy they will put a pessary into your vagina to press up against your cervix to help soften your cervix. You need to have someone you love there to hold your hand.
An hour or two later you will go down to theatre where they will put a bung in your hand. Then they will sedate you and you will go to sleep.
When you wake up it will all be over. You won't have too much pain and you will have some bleeding for up to 2 weeks afterward. Most times you can go home the same day.
Just know that you will get through. You will smile again and someday the pain will not be as raw and horrible as it is today.
Im so sorry to hear about the loss of your much loved and wanted little angel . You will get through this with so much support and understanding from BB.
I wish you all the luck in the world in falling pg and bubba sticking
I don't know what to say to make you feel better...I don't think there is anything that could. I just wanted to give you giant hugs and let you know that I'm thinking of you during this hard time.
Miss K- OMG hun! I'm so sorry this has happened to you you have been on such a ruff rollercoaster, I have you in my prayers darling. I'm soo sorry I really am, I wish I could find better words to help support you.
My little miracle angel
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I'm so sorry.
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. You will get through this with so much support and understanding from BB. 
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