Wow....I want to say powerful enlightening things but they all seem so cliche!
My heart goes out to you and I truly believe that although all seems lost day by day with their ups and downs things to get clearer! I am finding that now! Its only been 6 weeks and I cry like bloody hell thinking what have I done and knowing that I am so far from perfect ......However you have the right to feel your feelings and the right to do as you see fit. You are acknowleging your feelings and fears and that counts for so much! Its ok to love someone and not be with them! I
You have options I found once you reach out doors open...LOL another cliche!
Its true and you are true!
Much love to you and your cherubs!