Hi Sje,
I know exactly how you feel. I finally moved out from the house I had with my partner on new years eve. It is difficult as I always say I never knew who I was coming home to. Sometimes he could be lovely and he was great at fixing things but then the next second he'd be yelling, throwing things, breaking things and drinking very heavily infront of my 2 year old.
I kept saying I could wait for my freedom, to come home, feel safe and be happy but on the other side of things I get lonely.
Hang in there
We'll all be here with you
Mel