Today I had an amazing experience which was out of the ordinary for me. I have had a very strong feeling of late that I need to "make space" for our child(ren) and that I'm not ready to welcome them at heart, although consciously I think about it all the time. I have been having acupuncture to help out and my acupuncturist suggested that I might like to go and see her friend who is a spiritual healer. Well, basically I told her of my PCOS diagnosis and the IVF stuff we'd done and then she asked her spirits to treat me.
While I was lying on the couch, my legs and abdomen got incredibly warm and my shoulders twitched and got hot and cold. I think I fell asleep for a bit too, it was very relaxing (and the music she had on was quiet too). At one stage I could see (although my eyes were shut) a man with longish grey hair lean over and kiss me, so don't know if I was dreaming or not, but who knows?!
When the treatment was over, she told me what the spirits had said to her about what was wrong and it was very interesting. She told me that she was feeling that my uterus was "desolate and empty" because there was an "entity" ensconced there that was sucking the energy out and was very happy to stay, thanks very much! She also said that I had doubts in my heart which I think relate to DH (he's a lot older than me, an only child and I'm worried how he'll "share" me) and mentioned that some of the spirits had worked on my neck and shoulders.
While she was telling me this, my uterus felt almost burning hot on the inside and still feels "weird" about 4.5 hours later! She said that the spirits had begun to move the "entity" on, but they said it would take about four treatments.
I guess I'm just wondering if anyone else has had experience with a spiritual healer and if it helped them? I get the feeling that this lady knows her stuff and I'm finally open to letting myself follow this path of healing, which I think I've known for a while is what I really need. I felt really comfortable talking with her on the phone when I made the appointment and we clicked when I arrived today, so I hope that I can benefit from this meeting. She's also confirmed that we need to take a break from IVF until next year (which we were planning to do if this cycle we're in now doesn't work).
Also, when I got home I talked with DH about it all and told him about my "secret" concerns, which gave him the opportunity to point out the good bits about only children - like how self sufficient they are and how they don't need looking after all the time, which of course I knew, but was still worried about him!
If you made it this far, thanks for reading, I guess I'm still just processing the whole experience. I'd love to hear if anyone else has a similar one to share.
Hey, I just PM'd you about the Retreat and then found this post.
This experience sounds very cool. I've also felt a bit out of touch with myself, and wondered whether there was some fear around conception/pregnancy/motherhood that was holding me back. You'll have to give me the Spiritual Healer's details, cause I wanna get me some of this!
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