I have resigned.

[butterfly_warrior]

I feel like it's time to actually let people know what's going on. It's been hard to talk about it, but there really was nothing else to do.

Going back to work this year was a huge struggle. Not just the fact that it felt like I was leaving my gorgeous little boy to go yell at feral teenagers, it's the fact that my health has been particularly sucky since that gorgeous little boy was born.

We're now into our third week of rain in Sydney and I have been going through the worst flare of my strange arthritis condition that I can ever remember. However, today was the first day that I got out of bed and actually felt like I could cope with what I had to do around the house today. Which was good as today was the first day that my DH went to work leaving me at home with Sam.

On top of all that, things at school have been rough - I've had some crappy classes that my health has meant I could never really get on top of them, so it's just been hard work. Not getting the rest time I needed when I came home because Sam wanted attention has seen both my physical and mental health deteriorate badly.

I stopped going to work two weeks ago, but had been taking random sick days before then. Today... I went to work to put my signature on the piece of paper to make it all official. And then late this afternoon I finally got the guts to send the email to my principal to make it all permanent.

I have no idea what we'll do now. Financially things will be very tight on just DH's income. I'm applying for a disability support pension but I'm not sure I'll get it. We will just have to trust that we'll be able to scrape together enough money to keep a roof over our head, food on the table and clothes on our backs.

So... back to being a full-time SAHM.

BW

[Inanna]

Wow that was a big decision but it sounds like it was the right one for you my love. Sending you a big cuddle. xxx

[tk1999]

BW - that would have been a tough thing to do but for your physical and mental health I think it is the best thing. Things may be tough but I am sure you all will be looked after xox

[maz]

the weight must me lifted off your shoulders with work. I know how much it has been hitting your gutt so to speak.
Things have a way of working out....so you many not have as much $$$ but you'll have your health, sanity and lving husband and darling little man more

[Jennifer13]

BW. I hope the $$ are sorted out, but on the up-side - yay, you get to stay home with Sam!!! I know this can't have been an easy decision for you.

[onthefly]

Wow, that's huge BW. I'm glad for you though (money struggles aside) - you really seemed to be struggling with work.
Really hope this works out well for you

[feeb]

Hugs that cant have been an easy decision for you.

You will find a way to cope money wise, at least your health and sanity will improve.

xoxo

[Trillian]

That would have been a huge step for you to take, even in spite of everything that has gone on, but I know that you will be happier in yourself now you've left I hope that it does all work out for you all.

[Mak]

Wow - congratulations for making such a brave decision. I hope that your health improves quickly. Remember to look forward. xxxx

[BekZ]

Just wanted to give you a huge hug. Your health is the most important thing to have and you've made a great choice in looking after yourself. All the best with your recovery

[Caramello]

I know that this was a huge decision and a scary one at that. I agree that the weather has been awful in Sydney at the moment - can't imagine the pain it would be bringing for you. I hope you feel much better physically and mentally. I also hope that they grant you the pension, or something even better comes along. All the best!

[~Hestia~]

What a big decision but sounds like it was the right one. I hope you start to feel well again ASAP.

[CeCe]

Wow. That sounds like a huge decision that you have thought about for some time. I hope it all works our for you, DH and Sam.

[luna moth]

Wow. That is massive.

You'll find a way to make it work. It's the best choice for you.

[Kazbah]

Away from the ferals, and with your family. I know you've been thinking about this for a little while and hope that your health improves without the unnecessary stresses.

[*Beema*]

OH BW that must have been a huge decision for you to have to make, but it certainly seems like the right time to do it, no one should have to suffer like you are every single day, I don't know what it is like to walk in your shoes for even a minute let alone a day, but I hope that the weight that has now lifted will enable you to regain your mental strength very soon and show improvements in your physical health as well .

I hope that you can get the support to receive the Disability support pension

[~Kim~]

Big BW.
Life changing decisions are both scary and empowering.
Well done.
Always your gut instinct is th right one.

[Frangipani]

My first thought was to say but also want to give you a .

What a decision to make- i so want to do that too- if i can work it out financially over the next 6months I'll be doing it too. I love being a SAHM- and i don't have the health issues. I just love spending time with my boys.

I agree with Kim that your gut instincts usually the right one- so is sound like you've made a good decision. I hope it all works out for you- as somehow it usually does.