Ok wise BB women, I need to get this out.

I LOVE breastfeeding. DD LOVES breastfeeding, but I want another baby! Like I waaannnaaa annotthheerrr bbbaaabbbyyyy!! Geez, just reading the Pg announcement section makes me green, and don't get me started on all the homebirths people are planning!

But after 17 months, still no AF! DD feeds very sporadically. Some days 4 times and then 3 times overnight. Some days twice and then sleeps through. Its all over the shop and I just go with it and offer boob whenever. I did think I felt some twinges, like ovulation twinges about a month ago, but nothing, and I did about 5 hpt.

I am so sick of poas, and praying for a miracle. I am also so sick at the very thought I might have to wean her to fall pregnant.

It wasn't meant to be like this. I thought I would be HAVING another baby by now. I want lots of kids, not two or three spread out by about 10 years!!

Arrggghhhh! Help!

Was there even a question in there? Help!?!