I had a little cry this morning....

***Infinity*** · December 11th, 2010, 09:04 PM

I thawed my last pot of frozen EBM today. I took the last three little pots out of our chest freezer, came and told DP they were the last ones and was just overcome with emotion.

This is the milk that I expressed while my darling DD spent her first 4 months of life in hospital. The milk that I expressed from the very day she was born to the day she came home. This was the milk that filled my freezer at home and filled shelves in the freezers at the hospital. The milk that had me tied to a pump, reading my DS books while I pumped, poking in food while I pumped, trying to keep myself distracted at hospital during the very hard times. Expressing was one of the most important things I could do, for her and for myself.

The milk that now sustains my baby girl who was so defiantly meant to be with us.

I never thought these little pots of milk would have such an effect on me, but they are so symbolic really in so many ways. A reflection on everything we got through together as a family and the wonderful support DP and others provided so I could fit expressing around everything else. A reflection of the power of positive action. And thawing these last few pots is probably very symbolic of the step home and back to 'normal' life too.

I just needed to share. And also say thank you again to all the wonderful ladies here on BB who provided such wonderful support for us through the journey.

**OceanPrincess** · December 11th, 2010, 09:06 PM

What a beautiful post. And what a great job you have done!!

**tellytubby** · December 11th, 2010, 09:13 PM

:yeahthat:

Beautiful post. Enjoy the memories, and welcome back to "normal" life

**onthefly** · December 12th, 2010, 03:36 AM

Aw, that's so beautiful

**beckoes** · December 12th, 2010, 04:25 AM

thats lovely! you did such an amazing thing for your little girl. hugs

**MummaSue** · December 12th, 2010, 04:41 AM

Awww, that's gorgeous xxxx

**thepixie** · December 12th, 2010, 04:49 AM

**Catastrophic** · December 12th, 2010, 07:26 AM

thats lovely what an awesome job you have done

**dusty** · December 12th, 2010, 07:38 AM

Thank you for sharing Infinity. I was only thinking of you this morning and hoping you would update how things are going for your beautiful girl and family. Its lovely to take the time to reflect how far you have all come and be excited about what is to come after so much stress and drama. I'm so glad life is returning to a normal pace and that you are enjoying BFing your daughter and sharing this special time with her.

xx