VENT - a nonsensical, IVF vent

[kimmi]

Hi Ladies,

I'm currently on an IVF 'break' while we plan our wedding for this June. During our cycles, we have to utilise PGD due to a genetic condition, so between IVF cycles, we can't try naturally. I'm feeling really really down at the moment just wondering if the next cycle (which won't be for another 6 months)will be worth the wait.

I REALLY hope so.

I broke down a little tonight... All I want is to be doing IVF. Life seems better when we are at least trying, you know? My younger sis just told me yesterday that she is expecting her second baby and pregnancies seem to be coming out of the woodwork lately.

There's no real point to this post, just a vent, poor me kind of story.

I hope the rest of you are doing well!

[Maruschke]

Forced waits are horrendous. Sorry to hear its rough at the moment. I hope the time passes quickly and watching those who are going through pregnancy is not too painful.

xoxo
M

[Joeve]

Oh sweetie I am so bummed for you. Enjoy planning your wedding it really is an amazing special time in your life and something to keep you occupied with before your next cycle x

[kimmi]

Thanks Girls! xx

[Loula]

Although we did not use PGD I felt the same between breaks (we can only fall pg with IVF as I am clinically infertile)

I coped better while doing a cycle (at least I thought)

Nothing but hugs for you.


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[MummaSue]

Lots of hugs.

[Lenny]

Hi kimmi,

Yes, I think we all know how it feels when you just want to be trying, because to not be trying seem like you might be 'wasting time'.
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You know there's a vent thread, aye? Just in case you feel like screaming one day! LTTTC Vent Forum.

[boobaloo]

I hope you have a great wedding, and get your bfp soon after xoxo

[JBM]

good luck for your wedding, waiting is so hard for IVF . i hope all your plans go well for wedding. it is extra hard when others announce pregnancies. that just makes it harder. sending you extra good luck vibes.

[Hollybolly]

Oh you poor thing - the wait inbetween cycles in horrid

I've been where you are as far as pausing cycles to get married.... it's a mix of feelings, because what should be the event of our lifetime, and what most girls look forward to with the planning etc, you just want it done so you can get back to the IVF again

The one thing I learnt is that it does always come around again.... I'd like to say I thought learning patience taught me a valuable lesson... but I don't think it did, really

Enjoy your wedding planning

And I second what Lenny has suggested... definately utilise the LTTTC vent thread - it's therapeutic

[mellybelly81]

Hi Kimmi

we too had a break between cycles. After trying ovulation induction for some time we moved onto IVF (with ICSI - so no natural conceiving even if we did try) and I developed hyperstimulation from the egg collection so we had to freeze all. It was heartbreaking to not be able to complete the cycle. We then decided to wait longer than the usual one cycle as we had an O/S trip planned for ages and if we had done a transfer cycle and got pg we would have gone O/S during the first 6 weeks monitoring period by the FS and we didn't want to not do that. So we ended up waiting 5 months and we did feel helpless because we have always felt that when not doing treatment we were never TTC. We were so fortunate that the first frozen transfer was successful for us, we know that we were lucky, but we also think in hindsight that the holiday probably helped us to relax and destress a little from the TTC.

I know that organising a wedding is hardly relaxing, but try to enjoy it and use it as time to focus on something other than TTC and IVF.

Good luck for your wedding and your next cycle! hugs!

[kimmi]

it's so reassuring to know I'm not alone! I just might take advantage of that vent thread too

[~TT40~]

*biggest hug* I hope your wedding is everything you dreamed it would be, and you are blessed with the best wedding pressie in the world of a BFP!! =)

[WeeMansMummy]

Aww Kimmi, sorry your bummin Hun.
As you know I had long breaks between cycles, including one to plan a wedding. All I can say is when I was ready to go again I just knew it. Trust your instincts. If you feel you need to pop in a quick one before the wedding then do it, I believe everything happens for a reason.

[Amy_jellybean]

Oh honey I know exactly how you feel. We are taking a break from IVF to go backpacking for 10 months around Europe....so we can 'find each other' again.

I am excited about our trip but I cant help but think about IVF and if I would be pregnant by now if we were doing more cycles.

I truely believe that once we get back and we have had time to relax and we try IVF again it will happen for us. Im praying your BFP is just around the corner hun xxx

[oneday86]

kimmi between breaks i feel the same also, its horrible! but in ways i think it is good for my mind and body because IVF does take alot out of us. I know 6 months seems like a long time but it will go so quickly especially with your mind being occupied with organising a wedding. My wedding day was the best day of my life and when i think about all our hard times lately i think back to that day and remember how happy i was and how special it was. I wish you all the best and i hope you feel better soon. xxxx

P.s im reading The art of happiness at the moment its an interview on the dalai lama, my DH brought it for me for chrissie and i love it so far and i think it helps me with controlling my thoughts, if you lovely ladies like reading you should give it a go xxxxx

[kimmi]

I actually bought it for a gift for someone....maybe I should look up a copy for myself!