i have a problem not sure what it is or even why, but i cant bring myself to make an appointment at either place.
im sick of the constsnt dull ache in my mouth that intensifies with every drink/bite but would rather that then the thought of having my teeth out.
dont get me started on the doctors!

just the thought makes my chest tighten and breathing to hurt, i cant even make an appointment for myself. the kids, no problem at all, just aslong as i dont have to be seen.

i can count the times ive been to thedoctors for myself in the last 5 years. i know theres alot i need "fixed" so to speak, but unless it causes me a huge amount of pain, i just deal with it.

my best reasoning is im not physicaly that sick or anything so i cant take a appointment away from someone who needs it more..

yes i know im a moron, but i just cant do it if there is anything wrong id rather not know then look like a idiot for going over nothing. and i know they will find numerouse things for me to be checked out for/have done, and i just cant do it.

sorry, one of those "need to get it out, hoping im not the only one thing"

(secretly looking for a foot up the bum to just do it already)