BFP? BFN? Find out tomorrow!!

**Veronica24** · November 15th, 2011, 04:02 PM

Well, its the night before my DH and I find out our result.
This two week wait has been tricky. I think its has helped staying really busy with work though and taking time out to just do fun stuff - walking my gorgeous dog, meeting up with friends, reading a good book! I've had days where I could swear that I have felt pregnant, and then days when I am sure it hasn't worked! Up and down, hopeful and then hopeless, excited and then scared, consumed with thinking about it and then totally detached from it all.
I'm really surprised with myself. I thought, this week for sure, I would have been buying home pregnancy tests so anxious to know. But I haven't. I think I'm at this point where I almost don't want to know. Its as if its easier to be waiting because there's hope. There's a "maybe it did work".
I feel so selfish because when I think about it not working, I think about how we have one more chance (one more embryo) before I havto go through it all again. All the injections and egg collection, transfer. I didn't find any of it particularly easy or comfortable and I went on such an emotional journey. I didn't feel myself for a good fortnight. I had a week off between the egg collectiona nd the transfer partly because I was in pain, I had terrible cramping. And partly because I just wasn't functioning. I couldn't have a single thought without bursting into tears.
I havn't fully allowed myself to really think about either result. I just haven't been able to go there. I don't know how to prepare for something like this. Regardless of that, I know that if we don't gte our BFP then its ok. Thing's will be ok. I'll be ok and my DH, we'll be ok. We will try again with our little embie on ice and do what we have done from the very beginning of this journey - stay hopeful!
Veronica 24

**Joeve** · November 15th, 2011, 04:15 PM

Goodluck I am crossing everything for you

**ladybirdflies** · November 15th, 2011, 04:19 PM

Proud of you for getting through without getting tests and stressing out. May the results be 'joy' filled for you both. Fingers Crossed for you

**Maruschke** · November 15th, 2011, 04:26 PM

Sounds very promising if AF hasn't arrived yet! Hope it is a bfp for you.

**Janie71** · November 15th, 2011, 04:39 PM

Will have my fingers crossed for you tomorrow.

Janie xxx

**nothing2lose** · November 15th, 2011, 04:44 PM

Good luck! Wishing you the very best outcome

***beannaithe*** · November 15th, 2011, 04:57 PM

Good luck to you hon - everything is very tightly crossed for you that you get that beautiful BFP

**buffy1** · November 15th, 2011, 05:00 PM

Oh, good luck Veronica!

**krysalyss** · November 15th, 2011, 06:20 PM

Good luck for tomorrow. Fingers and toes crossed for a BFP.

**Bex** · November 15th, 2011, 06:28 PM

Wow well done for not testing, sounds like you have mastered the TWW

I wish you & DH the best for tomorrow x

**MummyNaomi** · November 15th, 2011, 06:30 PM

Good luck, and be sure to come back and let us know

Well done for getting this far without POAS. When we had DS I didn't either, even though AF was late, so when our Fert clinic rang I was amazed - Hope your news tomorrow is just as amazing - and that you get some sleep tonight!

**Janie71** · November 15th, 2011, 07:26 PM

I also didn't POAS on the cycle I fell pregnant with my DD. Well not until I had the confirmation call saying my BT was positive. I had a feeling I was pregnant but was too scared to POAS in case I was wrong! But once I had it confirmed I was desperate to see those 2 lines come up. Oh boy does that logic sound crazy!

Will be waiting to see your news tomorrow.

Janie xxx