Time to get my MoJo back...

**TaRhLi.** · July 17th, 2012, 03:24 PM

So after 4 yrs of TTC, IVF, Pregnancy and 2 births - resulting in 3 babies - and being a SAHM and being everyones slave I need to get back ME..

I am currently carrying extra weight - ideally I would love to lose 15kg's but to be honest if I could lose 5kg's to 10kg's at the max I would be more than happy - and am starting to feel FAT, lethargic and very short tempered and really feel like I need to do something that is just for me without having to be concerned about everyone else.

DH is a member of our local Anytime Fitness and I'm waiting to hear back from them if they do discounted family memberships as I think if I can get to the gym 3 nights a week - after everyone has had dinner, baths and are all tucked up in bed - this will help me to feeling better about myself and hopefully bring about a new me.

Biggest thing I lack is motivation but maybe by doing it in the evenings when the gym would be quite - I would be there about 9pm at night - and take it as being some me time I'm hoping that this might be a positive thing for me moving forward. For me the gym is my best option as walking or running is not really an option where I live (and if I did it during the day I would have all 3 kids with me which then makes the time about them and not about me).

I have really lost myself, I used to take pride in my apperance and would always make an effort when I left the house to look nice and wear make up and hair done but now I will leave the house in trackies (sometimes with dried food from dirty hands) no make up, I still do my hair everyday but I don't feel clean and washed if my hair isn't done. I think half the problem is that I don't feel comfortable in my clothes anymore so I need to get my butt into gear and get things moving.

I'll be 40 in 7 mths time so what more motivation do I need than to make my 40's about me - my 20's were about fun and frivolity - my 30's about responsibility and family - so my 40's are going to be about ME.

So hopefully I'll have the BB community behind me and when I lack motivation I can jump on here for some people to give me a kick back into gear