hopefully this rainbow will stick

**MumtoA** · May 18th, 2013, 08:52 PM

i found out this week that i am four weeks pg with our rainbow...i am excited and i think in shock to be honest! we lost our DD at 39 weeks late last year, i then miscarried twins (well suspected twins - mc at 4.5 and 6.5 weeks in same pg and from my levels after the bleed i had at 4.5 weeks, they assume i probably lost a twin the first time) in Feb this year. I said to DH that i keep expecting to go to the toilet and see blood - i guess i am just expecting that something bad will go wrong again so if i just expect it to happen, the blow wont be so bad? i feel so numb to it. i have no desire to tell family or friends, even though i do feel excited from time to time. its a very strange feeling! my DD1 said to me today - you have a baby sister in your tummy - wt! we havent mentioned a word to her and havent been even talking about it in front of her! woah! anyway there is no purpose to this post, just need to get the feelings out - thanks for listening

**feeb** · May 18th, 2013, 09:04 PM

Hugs I hope this bubba sticks for you, what a beautiful and intuitive little girl you have there.

Fingers crossed and good luck for a happy and healthy 9 months xoxo

**Peace** · May 18th, 2013, 09:07 PM

Congratulations MumtoA! Wishing you a happy healthy sticky pregnancy and I hope the fear passes for you soon so you can really enjoy it

How incredible is your DD! Kids can be so intuitive.

**nickle730** · May 18th, 2013, 09:17 PM

Congratulations MumtoA! I hope this rainbow is sticky and full of joy.

**TickToc** · May 18th, 2013, 09:46 PM

Congratulations! I hope your rainbow shines brightly & the next 9 months are happy & healthy.

**Joeve** · May 18th, 2013, 10:26 PM

Congrats and as many sticky vibes as possible coming your way x

**ladybirdflies** · May 18th, 2013, 11:27 PM

Blessings to you mumtoA I hope this little one comes to earth safe and sound x

**little_O** · May 18th, 2013, 11:47 PM

mumtoA

I hope this is a sticky bubs for you.

Always feel free to write down your feelings here. There is always an ear to listen x

**Mum2twoBoys** · May 19th, 2013, 01:54 AM

Hugs mumtoa, really hoping for a sticky bub for you and family. Wishing you a h&h 9 months. Hope your dd knows something you don't, idk like kids intuition.

**MumtoA** · May 19th, 2013, 09:59 AM

Thanks so much everyone. I hope in a few weeks reality will set in and I can enjoy it. I said to dh that as hard as it is, this baby should get all the excitement and fun that my other two did even if it is scary - I am really going to try xo