Well firstly let me say I am truly blessed to have 2 IVF/ICSI miracles. In my head I know that our family is complete but it is taking my heart a little longer to catch up.
So I have made a first step towards this by reducing our PHI hospital cover so it no longer includes IVF/ pregnancy. BUT in the same breath I have extended the storage of our 4 remaining embryos as they are now over 5 years old... Confused much! Like I said my heart is just not ready to let our embies go yet, especially as I look at our beautiful girls and know the potential each of those embies hold. I have a lot of emotions to sort through before I will be ready to let go.
Big hugs! Yup in a similar position (well I will be once these twinnies arrive!)
I know my body is done, we have used up all our savings and investments funding IVF so financially we can't go there again and DH has made it clear he really doesn't want to go again. And 3 has always been out lucky number.
But something in me looks at those two little embies and goes "what if"...
We've decided no more IVF. We still have 2 on ice, and I'm not sure I'm quite ready to let them go, but we're getting rid of all the baby/kid stuff I've been keeping just in case.
I sort of feel ok about it, mostly. We'd love more kids, but I just don't think it's going to happen.
To be honest at this stage I dont want to go there again, I'm too old ( well feel too old to cope with a newborn and a toddler), I have my perfect baby and I feel like thats enough. I know DH will want to try it though and I also don't think I could 'not' try it either so we will have to work all that out eventually.
It definately complicated. Hope you come to some understanding within yourself xx
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