In short, I feel like crap Emotional, sad, longing for my babies, angry that I'll soon be going through my 3rd Easter without them. Sad that I would rather work on Easter because it's too painful to do anything else. Sad that Mothers day is following soon after. I thought it would get easier. It has on a day to day basis, but events are still so hard! I'm angry with myself that I haven't closed my wardrobe door for days do the 1st thing I see when I wake up is a box of unused baby stuff (might go close that door now!)

Angry that (unrelated to baby loss) I'm broke and because I am working C'link has cut my payments, so between work and TAFE I'm doing 6 days and it's hardly worth it, but I don't want to quit work. Angry that my neck is in pain, so every day I wake up with a headache. I just don't want to feel like this for the rest of my life, but nothing will ever bring my babies back. There are always going to be periods where I feel like this. I just hate it and it's unfair!

Whinge over for now..