Since Ruby died in February I have been struggling to get my life back on track. Everyday is a battle. I am going to a counsellor and I tried anti depressants for a little while but nothing helps. Everything is just so hard - seeing people with babies, having people in the family have babies - even my other kids birthdays.

Does it ever get better? I just want to sleep again and eat again and be able to feel like I can cope again.