Ianto's story (extremely long, and may be distressing)

[lilima]

I am so very sorry that you had such a brief time with your little man.

[~Kaz~]

I am so very sorry for your loss

[BekZ]

Teni - Thank you for sharing your story. I have no words just tears and hugs.

Fly free little angel Lanto

[Mrs Jak]

Teni - Thankyou for sharing your story and so beautifully written..

Ianto is such a beautiful boy in his pictures and I'm sure he is in spirit as well.

Sending you and your family love, support and prayers xoxo

[thepixie]

was thinking of you and your gorgeous boy today Teni... You are an amazing mummy to give your son such a beautiful farewell when you had to say goodbye to him so soon.
sending you love xx

[Marlene]

Thank you for sharing your beautiful little boy with us. Such totally heartbreaking, yet beautiful moments.

[Trillian]

Teni, I am so sorry that little Ianto left you too soon I feel so honoured that you have shared your precious photos of him with us. He was such a dear little boy and absolutely perfect in every way.

[Visitor8]

Tani and Scotty I am so sorry for your loss I can not imagine how hard that would be I looked at your photos, he was a beautiful little angel

Go slowly hun. I found this poem recently, thought it was beautiful and you might like to hear it.

What kind of place would heaven be with all its streets of gold,
if all the souls, that dwell up there like yours and mine, were old?
How strange would heaven’s music sound when harps begin to ring,
if children were not gathered ‘round to help the angels sing.

The children that God sends to us are only just a loan,
He knows we need their sunshine to make the house a home.
We need the inspiration of a baby’s blessed smile.
He doesn’t say they’ve come to stay, just lends them for a while.

Sometimes it takes them years to do the work for which they come.
Sometimes in just a month or two our Father calls them home.
I like to think some souls up there bear not one sinful scar.
I love to think of heaven as a place where children are.

[Carrie]

Tenibear- i am so so sorry for the loss of your beautiful baby boy Ianto.

[sirenz]

I'm lost for words. I'm so sorry for your loss.

I can't even begin to imagine what it was like for you and dh to have to leave that little angel there
My heart goes out to you both and pray that you can find the strength to get thru this in one piece.

[Snacks]

Teni, I am sorry I hadn't caught up with this earlier. I am so incredibly sorry for the loss of your precious Ianto. Thinking of you. xx

[dory]

Tenibear - thanks so much for sharing about your beautiful Ianto. Your blog and pictures are just a wonderfully touching and beautiful and show so much love, and of course heartache.

Hope you're travelling ok today. One day at a time.

[Starfish]

TeniBear - thank you for sharing the beautiful story of your precious baby boy. RIP little angel. You and your family are in my prayers.

[dizzyangel]

so sorry for your loss. thank you so much for sharing your story, i have been in tears reading it.
floaty kisses for your angel
xx

[dory]

Teni - I was just thinking about you today. Just like I have done ever since I read about Ianto. How are you doing?

I too am a big fan of the Australian Community of Child Photographers. They provide the most amazing and generous gift to bereaved parents and parents of sick children. I have the local coorindinators number in my mobile. I didn't get to use them but I decided that DH and I needed some nice photos taken of us, so used one of the ACCOP photographers for that.

[TeniBear]

Teni - I was just thinking about you today. Just like I have done ever since I read about Ianto. How are you doing?

I too am a big fan of the Australian Community of Child Photographers. They provide the most amazing and generous gift to bereaved parents and parents of sick children. I have the local coorindinators number in my mobile. I didn't get to use them but I decided that DH and I needed some nice photos taken of us, so used one of the ACCOP photographers for that.

I'm doing alright today (to clarify - Monday, since it's just past midnight). Had you asked yesterday though... Very different story. I spent most of the day crying, or just walking around in a daze. It really hit home that I'd never get to hold him again, or see him grow up... I went a bit weird at one point and made up my mind that I was going to go to the cemetery and insist they dig up his grave so I could take him home. Needless to say, that didn't happen and I'm quite embarrassed that I thought it to begin with. I didn't sleep or eat all day or night, and when it came time for Scott to leave for work, I completely broke down and started howling hysterically that he couldn't leave me. I couldn't breathe for ages, I was crying so hard. Sleep ended up hitting me out of nowhere - one second I was crying, the next I was dreaming about visiting Ianto's grave (it was very nice, and some new "neighbours" were being lowered in - but they were adults. So, strange.)

Today, on the other hand, I've been okay. Aside from sleeping most of the day to make up for not sleeping I've been packing up the "house" and watching DVDs.

On your other point, I think for any other babies we have, we'll be using an ACOCP photographer for their newborn photos too. Jessie (the President and the one who came out to us) was great, and has the same sense of humour as we do, so I think we'll be using her... I can't say how much I love that organisation right now. I just wish we'd known about them beforehand. Or maybe not - strange as it sounds, the room we were in at the funeral home did look fantastic in the photos Especially the black-and-white ones, very gothic looking.

PS - I think this may be the most-read thread on BB lately, it seems I can't come on without seeing it

[~Trish~]

Big hugs Teni . I'm glad you were able to sleep and dream. Just keep taking each day at a time.

You are in my thoughts and prayers .

[Jennifer13]

Teni. I think of you, Scott and Ianto often. I think it's completely understandable to want to have Ianto home with you and you should certainly not be embarrassed. How did Scott go back at work?