In short, I feel like crap Emotional, sad, longing for my babies, angry that I'll soon be going through my 3rd Easter without them. Sad that I would rather work on Easter because it's too painful to do anything else. Sad that Mothers day is following soon after. I thought it would get easier. It has on a day to day basis, but events are still so hard! I'm angry with myself that I haven't closed my wardrobe door for days do the 1st thing I see when I wake up is a box of unused baby stuff (might go close that door now!)
Angry that (unrelated to baby loss) I'm broke and because I am working C'link has cut my payments, so between work and TAFE I'm doing 6 days and it's hardly worth it, but I don't want to quit work. Angry that my neck is in pain, so every day I wake up with a headache. I just don't want to feel like this for the rest of my life, but nothing will ever bring my babies back. There are always going to be periods where I feel like this. I just hate it and it's unfair!
oh sweetie been there done that I had 3 easters 3 bdays 4 xmas 2 fathers day after we lost Katy till we had Jack and yep each and everyone of them sucked .. even today when I look at my boys and thinking of things to odo for easter that little part of me wants to curl and up and forget it cause Katy isn't here
I pray this is you last easter without a babe in arms many many many
Riding another wave of grief..
Emotional, sad, longing for my babies, angry that I'll soon be going through my 3rd Easter without them. Sad that I would rather work on Easter because it's too painful to do anything else. Sad that Mothers day is following soon after. I thought it would get easier. It has on a day to day basis, but events are still so hard! I'm angry with myself that I haven't closed my wardrobe door for days do the 1st thing I see when I wake up is a box of unused baby stuff
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