Hi tashy,
I only just found this thread and you know my whole story.

1st of all i will say it is terrible that they can not test for your disorder but even if they could look at my situation the whole thing was a complete stuff up and i still had to wait until 17 weeks to be sure if bub was ok and they had the test available for me and it just didnt go to plan and as you know we took the risk the 1 in 4 scared the hell out of me but what scared me more was living the rest of my life regretting not trying again i tried to look at the odds in my favour and it paid off.

And yes i would not bring a baby into this world with a serious genetic disorder i just dont believe it is fair to subject a child to a life time of suffering no matter how short their life would be so i would end the pregnancy like i did with our sweet Abbi.

I will not be completely happy until i see Ella and know for sure she is ok
I dont want to give birth to another baby that i will never take home but life is so uncertain you just dont know what hand you will be dealt there are women here who have lost babies perfectly healthy babies at full term for no reason so i really dont think any women will relax until they hold a bub safe and sound in their arms a genetic or chromosonal disorder is just one part of worrying about becoming pregnant and you have to look at the positives the odds are on your side.
Like me age is a factor in your choice which makes it harder because you dont have the luxury of time to weigh up all the pros and cons with me i went straight for the pros and worried about the cons once pregnant and dealt with each step as it came.

And i wont say it was easy far from it and would i do it again proberbly not but in saying that i have children already and i am nearly 37 if i were younger and had no kids i would do it again as being a mum is my dream come true.

I hope it all works out for you and you have your dream come true i will be here for you when and if you decide to take the step and get pregnant again i will help you through it and see you come out the other side with a healthy baby.