i had a long drawn out birth with dd1. drugs etc. 1200ml bleed, torn cervix, rushed to theatre to fix it etc was horrible. DD2 much quicker, not drugs, made the midwife check i was fully dilated before i did any pushing, turns out my cervix needed a little help at 91/2 cms. probably got 'stuck' the first time. normal loss the second time. its scary and i did freak out a bit the second time, but i had done so much to try and prevent PPH that it helped to know id done everything i could.