So tomorrow is Mother's Day, and I feel a bit lost.... I am supposed to be a mother this year

but I feel a bit like it compounded, as any one of my embryo transfers would have made me a mother this year.... Or at the very least UTD with twins

so one 'real' baby started to grow... But I feel a bit like there were six others there, giving it a go....

I feel like people have forgotten I am supposed to be a mum now, even DH.... I thought that the anniversary of 'blobs' birth would kind of bring an 'end' of sorts... I guess I knew better though... I just hoped... I feel like its still there, and won't go away...

I feel like miscarriage defines me... Infertility follows me...

I want it to be recognised, but at the same time I just want to hide from days like these and ignore them.