Trying to Conceive after Miscarriage or Los ~ December 08

Jen - sorry you are feeling so grumpy and down. It is sooo frustrating isn't it and sometimes hard to stay hopeful. But hang in there lovely - I am sure your time is just around the corner :hug:

WTH: I feel for you sweetie. Same thing happened to me day before christmas - hcg was 21 but progesterone 96 so I was hopeful - but then sure enough AF showed up 5 days later - 5 days of hoping/stressing! It is so disappointing but all we can do is keep trying and keep our hopes and dreams alive. Good luck wih next IVF cycle - me having egg collection tomorrow so right in the thick of it all. Hopefully this is the cycle for both of us to get a BFP :pray:

Theresa: Wow a wedding in fiji sounds fabulous! In my experience men just handle things so differently from us and sometimes they say things that are really not helpful - my guess is your DH is suffering too and wishes he could make things better for you but doesn't know how. I know a lot of people say worrying/stressing is going to make it harder to get pregnant - well my obstetrician (bless him) said 'Don't worry about worrying' - he thinks it makes no difference what so ever. That really helped me as it is easy to blame oneself for stressing/obsessing. I think it is sooo natural that you are thinking about it all the time - you have not long ago lost your beautiful baby - so be kind to yourself and grieve/obsess/laugh/cry - whatever you need to do to keep going. My best friend lost her beautiful first baby daughter when she was 40 weeks pregnant - it has taken her many years to come to terms with that loss - fortunately she has gone on to have two beautiful healthy boys. I am sure you will also get to hold a beautiful healthy forever baby in your arms soon. :hug:

Firstbub :welcome: sorry for your loss and hopefully you won't have to stay in this thread very long

Hannah, Acria - thanks for your best wishes for my egg collection tomorrow - will keep you posted

AFM: just still nervous about egg collection. Praying for lots of healthy eggs that ferlilize and give me a BFP in a couple of weeks time. its all happening about 9 am tomorrow :pray: Besides that still wedding planning - have got heaps done - already have my dress, bridesmaids dress/shoes, celebrant, ceremony and reception booked, music for ceremony and reception, car, photographer. Going to look/taste wedding cakes on saturday - definately looking forward to that part :p

Jen - so sorry you're down today :hug: WTH is right, you're always there pepping all of us up, you're an absolute star. You deserve the very best, so take good care of yourself. This year will be a big mama belly year for us all! We've seen each other through this part of the journey, and we'll all see one another through the rest, pregnancy, babies and onward!

WTH: I'm sorry sweetpea...yet you are right (again!) Every cycle is a new chance, absolutely..and it sounds like a few of us atm are letting go of the last cycle's chance and getting ready to embrace the fresh chance. You're a star!

babymiracles: will be thinking of you at about 9 tomorrow. Sending all the positive vibes I can muster your way! :babydust:

Firstbub: I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. You're certainly among friends, this is the best bunch of women I've ever had the pleasure to be in contact with. Here's hoping we all shift along to the PAML forum very soon!

erbery - let us know how it goes, got you in my thoughts :kiss:

AJC: Kisses to yourself and Samuel!

AFM - taking it easy today, cruising along and feeling generally positive. Have two days off ahead of me, and going to just potter about the house and relax, can't wait!

Lisa xx

Thankyou for the welcome girls! Thought I would let you know my AF arrived this morning (as well as a huge pimple on my chin!). Trying to stay positive but it is hard to stay strong month after month.

Good luck to all of you on your TTC journey xx

ME 29
DH 28
DD Born 29 May, 2007
Angel baby 7 weeks Aug 08

Oh Jen - sounds like you need another hug. I'm a real fan of the B6, hard to know what to do though isn't it. I had a uterine polyp but Ob removed it during a hysteroscopy in Nov 07.

erybery - thanks for your experience with endo. Am not worrying myself about it but am just curious. Ob did say that sometimes pregnancy can make it flare up too & that it wasn't a huge amount. Anyway - I feel so blessed to have little Sam - if he is the only child we are every able to have then I will consider myself more than lucky.

Ruthie - big Hugs. You certainly have had quite a journey so far, I hope things change for you for the better soon.

WTH - sorry to hear about your chemical pg. As you say your new cycle is on the Horizon so the only direction to go is forward. Good luck.

Big Hugs to everyone else - some of you I haven't met but sending you all a big hug & best wishes.

Jen - some days life just gets you down and today is one of those days for you, so take some you time tonight and relax in a bath tub listen to your favourite songs, eat chocolate and know that you are loved and in a lovely safe home. I think we all don't take that moment to really be in the moment, if you know what I mean, we are so busy with our lives and what we are going to do tommororw and what we are missing out on that life just passes us by, believe me Im soooo guilty of doing this, so big hugs to you luvvie and know that the sun will shine tommorrow and all will be well once more. God wants us to be happy and he is preparing your special little person and only he knows when you will have him, but it will happen, you've just got to keep believing. My FS specialist said that to me, don't worry Mannie (smiling a very kind smile) it will happen, you will have the baby you soo desire, so try to relax and prepare for that day.

by the way no goiter....but everything else you mentioned I have.

WTH - So sorry hun :hug: Wish there was something more I could say.

Jen - Sorry you are feeling down today but I think we all need days to feel sad, frustrated, angry, cheated (I could go on!). You are always so positive and lifting everyone else's spirits, I'm glad you have taken time out for yourself.I hope having a cry made you feel better :hug:

firstbub - :hello: Nice to meet you, although I wish it could be on the PAML thread. Hopefully one day soon..Best of luck on your journey.

Theresa - My DH gets crabby sometimes and tells me not to talk about it all the time (he thinks we might jinx it!). He is the most wonderful, supportive husband but guys have a different way of dealing with things. I think they are much better at not obsessing about it!

AJC - I was debating on whether to have the lap op in Feb (was going to wait a little longer) but after reading your posts I want to have it as soon as possible. I may not have endo but I want some answers!

Lisa - Enjoy your days off, it is so nice just to potter around home sometimes. :)

babymiracles - Wishing you all the luck in the world for your egg collection. :crossfingers:

Mannie - So glad you have some answers. April is not that far away (although it probably feel like forever to you!) and hopefully you will fall pg straight away. :)

erybery - Best of luck with the Clomid!

Kezzabird - Yah for your scan! :happyforyou:

Hi to Hannah, Ruthie, toccara, smi, issy, indy, fifi, krystielove and anyone else I have missed.

AFM - Well, as I said I think my 'zen' is slowly slipping away. AF arrived today, at least she isn't late. I guess that is something. I haven't had any pain yet either which is strange for me, usually I have quite painful periods. I'm sure it will come! I am so angry and frustrated. I haven't been too upset as I knew it was coming but as I write this the tears are welling up. Damn it! It's not fair. I just don't know what we are doing wrong. I feel bad for feeling like this as I know there are a lot of couples who have been TTC a lot longer than us. I am just finding it very frustrating as we know we can fall pg but it has now been 14 months since the m/c and nothing has happened. Surely we haven't missed every single month???

I honestly thought if I stopped taking my temp and tried to not stress so much about it it would happen. It's impossible though, I am obsessed and I can't help it.

I read my stars for 2009 (not that I take them as gospel or anything) but the first line was about this year being the year to welcome new babies into your home. I so hope it is right. It also said I was going to have a family responsibility that was financially restricting and time consuming!

DH and a big talk last night (as I thought AF was coming) and have decided on the next course of action. Anyway back to the FS next Thursday and I am going to ask for the lap op to be arranged. Hopefully for Feb, it will have to be just after my period to make sure I am not pg. If endo is found then we will deal with that and keep TTC for a few more months. If nothing is found and everything seems all ok with the both of us then we are going to see if we can start IVF in April. We go away a few times in March so it wouldn't really work. Going to Melbourne in 3 weeks for a wedding so I guess that gives us something to look forward to (I was so hoping I would have a wonderful excuse as to why I couldn't drink).

Why is this journey so hard for us when we would all make wonderful parents???

Hi Ladies,

First I would like to say happy new year (late I know) and second would just like to apologise for not posting the last two weeks or maybe a bit more. I have been visiting my parents in QLD and they dont believe in keeping up with technology so I had no internet.

Jen Saying lots of :pray: and protesting like crazy :protest: :noaf: Sorry I cant help with the B6 maybe just take 1/2a tablet and see if that stops the spotting or maybe a acupuncturist may be able to give you some herbal medicine instead?

Mel79 Have you spoken to you dr about maybe taking some meds to bring on AF?

I had a lap and a hyster to see if we could find out why I had 2 m/c and I am so glad I had it done as they found a problem with my uterus which was corrected by surgery. If you chose to have it done I think you will get some answers. I will keep you in my :pray:

AJC Welcome back sweetie. And a huge congratson beautiful samuel :bfeedblue: Hope you had a wonderful christmas and new year.

firstbub Hi nice to met you. Sorry to hear that AF showed up I hope she takes it easy on you and they this month has some great news for you and dh.

WTH :comfort: Sorry to hear that AF showed up. I wish I could be there to comfort you however sorry but a cyber hug will have to do. I pray that you will get some wonderful news soon.

Well will have to go DH is calling sorry only just got home at 2am after a 12hr drive home from qld

AFM: Have my NT scan tomorrow. I am so nervous and worried that the baby has died and I didn't know it. I will let you know how it goe.s

Theresa - My DH gets frustrated with me during each TWW, telling me to try not to think about it too much (although he does do it very diplomatically). I think, in some ways, its harder on men because they're not really going through it, but are hearing about it. For us, even if we get out of our own head for a while, there is no getting out of our bodies, so there isn't much to do but try to read them and every symptom. But for our partners, its us putting it into their heads by talking things over with them. Am I making sense? I think what I'm trying to say is that its very difficult to silence an internal voice, but an external voice can be told. I hope you feel better soon. Sending you lots of :SAAF: vibes.

chappas = I hope AF stays away.

mannie - I'm so glad you finally have an answer. I hope the treatment works soon, but just because time is ticking doesn't mean there isn't plenty of it. And you're right, we could all do with taking time out for ourselves.

jen - I'm sorry you're feeling down. :hug: I hope AF stays away. :noaf:

WTH - You're absolutely right. Every month is a new chance. :goodluck: with the next IVF cycle.

babymiracles - Wow! I can't believe how much you've gotten ready for your wedding. You have been busy. I'll be thinking of you tomorrow.

Lisa - Enjoy your time off!

firstbub - I'm sorry AF arrived. :hug:

Mel - Big, big :hug: hun. I'm sorry AF arrived. Again. Your stars do sound promising. I hope the lap gives you some answers. "Why is this journey so hard for us when we would all make wonderful parents???" I wonder what sort of parent I would be if I hadn't miscarried. Maybe its the journey itself, hard though it is, that will make us really, really wonderful parents.

tam - Hi stranger! Goodluck for the NT scan tomorrow. Be sure to tell us how it went. I'm sure all is as it should be.

:hello: to ruthie, tocarra, krystie, jenushka, fifi, mollycat, megsmum, easha, plc, issy, smi, indy, mo3b, adele, tutmae, princess, buliej, TY, HannahS, polly, erybery, possums and anyone I've missed.

AFM - Mel, looking up your stars for the year reminded me that I did a Tarot reading for 2009 the other night. I dabbled as a teenager, but haven't gotten my cards out in ages. I got the Empress and 2 page cards which, together, indicate pregnancy. The empress card showed up in August. Then I got the World card in September which is a card for happiness and lasting success (:crossfingers: Maybe there's a birth that month which would mean a BFP this cycle). Also, for February, I got the 4 of Swords which is a card for retreat and to think things over. DH and I have already planned to take some time off and go away for a few days together since my EDD is 22/2. Thats about all I can remember off the top of my head. It was fun if nothing else.

I've been really teary today. Have found it hard to concentrate at work and just felt like crying all the time. AF is easing - no more cramps or headaches, but I just feel so damn sad.

Jen - just wanted to pop in here and give you a big :hug:. Please remember to take some time for you, you spend so much of yourself on others, you forget yourself.

AJC - Don't worry too much about the endo. Yes, it can cause problems TTC but many have fallen pg with it. I have a friend who has severe endo and now has two little boys 14mths apart. Hugs for you and Sam. He's one cute little boy.

Tam - All the best with your scan for tomorrow.

WTH - Thinking of you :hug:

Ruthie - Just want to say I'm thinking of you and hoping and praying that everything will come out just fine for you.

Mel - I know exactly where you're coming from. I fell pg with no problems with DS1, with DS2 it took 3 years of TTC and ended up with 3 cycles of clomid. I then had 10 years before I fell pg again, which was my angel. It's now 14mths for me too, and no sign that another miracle may happen. Sadly, I don't have another 10 years in me to wait, which is one reason why I have stepped back to concentrate on myself and the problems that PCOS brings along with it and if a miracle happens on the way, then it was meant to be.

For everybody else - I pop in all the time to keep an eye on you all. Welcome to the newbies, I really wish you didn't have to join this thread, but the wonderful bunch of women here will support you every step of the way. I don't know what I would have done without them during the first twelve months after losing my bub.

I really hope that you will all get your sticky BFP's soon and you can all move over to the PAML thread, where many of my friends are.

:pink-babydust::bluedust::stickyvibesgirl::stickyvibesbo y:

Mel1979 - good for you wanting answers. I felt so much better after I did a heap of tests when I had the second m/c. I think that is what gave me confidence that I could carry my next pg to term (well didn't quite get there but still ended up with the same result ;)).

Tam - Good luck. I remember feeling exactly the same way and everything turned out fine. I cried my eyes out with relief when I could see the hb and a little person moving around. Now that little person is 3 weeks old - big hugs, it's scary but I'm sure everything is going to be fine.

Mollycat - yeah, I figure if we've just discovered it now (after a healthy bub) then hopefully all should be ok. Hoping your miracle happens soon.

Thanks everyone, once again you have all given me the strength to keep going. I know the emotional roller coaster we are all on will be worth it when we are holding our beautiful babies.

Mollycat - So nice to hear from you. I can't imagine what you must have been through to TTC for 10 years and then having your angel. My heart goes out to you and I hope having time away helps you to fall pg and have your 'miracle baby'. :hug:

HannahD - Wow, you do tarot card readings? I have to admit reading my stars got me excited and gave me hope so I am happy with that just for the moment. 6 years ago my mother in law read DH's stars and it said he would meet 'the one' in June and that is the exact month and year he met me! Hoping there is something in it. Your tarot reading sounds promising too! Coming up to your EDD is really hard so it is no wonder you feel so sad. I had mine back in July and it was incredibly hard leading up to the day and also for many weeks past it. Sending you a cyber hug :hug:. Wish there was something more I could do. Going away with your DH sounds like a really good idea.
So true what you said about the journey making us truly wonderful parents, maybe that is why we need to travel this long, hard road.

Tam - Good luck for your scan tomorrow! :stickyvibesgirl::stickyvibesboy:That 12 weeks went fast although you probably don't think so :) I don't have any problems with AF coming (I am pretty regular and average about a 30 day cycle). Thanks for the info about your lap, there may not be anything wrong but at least we will know for sure and it won't be in the back of my mind all the time.

DH is really worried about me having the lap (very sweet). I know I need to have it done for peace of mind if nothing else. He is concerned something will go wrong and it will damage something and make me infertile. We know of some friends and my sister where things went wrong (I won't go into it as I don't want to share awful stories on this thread) during operations in that area. I have had a lap before to have my gall bladder removed so I have explained to him that it is not an evasive procedure and it is only day surgery. Anyway hopefully the FS can make him feel a little better.

Thanks again, not sure what I would without all you wonderful ladies to talk to. I am feeling a little more positive and ready to begin a new month :D

Thanks AJC. I have to say the tests I have had done so far will (I think & hope) make me far less anxious when I do get that BFP!

I am so happy you have your gorgeous little boy. Whenever I start to feel like giving up (not that I ever would or could) I just think of the inspirational ladies on this thread who kept going and have had their precious miracle baby. It keeps me going :)

Mel - I should emphasise that I am very amateur when it comes to tarot (I still need to use a reference book for some cards). Its something a friend and I used to do in high school. I only read for myself since I'm not confident enough to do them for other people. DH doesn't really like it which is why I don't do it much any more. It just seemed fitting since its a new year. I believe that tarot, astrology etc are ways we can gain insight into our lives. And its a little bit of fun. I would never make big decisions based on my interpretations.

Thanks for all your kind words of comfort. At least I know it is a common reaction in men! I was blessed the day I found this website and all you girls. It is funny how total strangers can have such an important impact on your life - in a positive way at that :D

I am sitting here with tears in my eyes from all your responses and smiling too.

I know I have said it before but I will say it again - you girls have been my tower of strength (as well as DF) through this whole journey and I can't thank you all enough. I can only pray that you all get the BFP's you so deserve and the beautiful babies you all long for. That is my wish for 2009. :bluedust::pink-babydust:

Theresa xxxx

Just popping in for :grouphug: and a quick hey gurlies!

Busy day today so no time for perssies...just know I'm thinking of you all

:bluedust::pink-babydust:
:stickyvibesgirl::stickyvibesboy:

Hi ladies,

hope you are all keeping well.

I'm sorry for being a big lurker still but i still cant shift this illness, starting to get me down now which prob isnt helping!

I had 25 week midwife app yesterday, and all is good, she had a listen to bub and a poke and a prod and all is fine, i just need to get myself better now.

DF and i are going to start work on the babies room this weekend which i'm so excited. its a long way off being decorated but at least its a start.

Sorry this is a bit of a "ME" post but got to go and get some grub ready for df and myself.

i am dropping in from time to time to catch up on all that is going on so you are all in my thoughts!

speak to u friday night girlies tomorrow

xxx

Hannah - I wouldn't make big decisions based on astrology either but if what we read or see makes us feel a little better than what's the harm :)

I think I spoke too soon. AF has come on strong and I am in so much pain. I have been awake since 4.30 am in agony :(

Hi everyone, im Racheal.

We lost our little Lilli 2mths ago now :( She was 5mths and 1wk old. Sadly it was SIDS, well we think, the ortopsy report isn't back as yet, which apparently can take another several mths. The police still have all Lilli's bedding, which i want back so much. I just want to make her bed up, ifkwim. I also have a little boy, who is 4yrs old. He keeps me going everyday, and now goes and plays in Lilli's room. Which i really really love. He currently is still confused, he calls the hospital heaven, cause that was the last place he saw her.
Currently im in the TWW. Though in saying that, im 2 days late. I tested a few days ago and got BFN, so am now waiting till they are at least 1wk late.
OK better get moving,
Rach

Oh Racheal, I'm so so sorry for your loss of Lilli. That is beyond devastating and you are so strong. I hope and pray :pray: that you get a positive soon so as to have some happiness in such a difficult situation.

babymiracles--Thinking of you during your appt, and saying lots of :pray: for lots of healthy eggs!!



Acria--Thanks, hon.... I appreciate your kind words and your optimism! :hug: Hope you enjoy your 2 days off from work!



firstbub--So sorry to hear about AF. *hugs* It's so hard to stay optimistic, I seem to be having the same problem myself this month. Wishing you the best of luck with your next cycle!



Mannie--Thanks so much for your sweet sentiments! *hugs* This just has to be our year!



Mel--Sorry to hear AF is being so rough on you! *hugs* Hope you're feeling better soon! Sending lots of un-crampiness vibes your way!



Tam--Keeping you in my prayers that all goes well with your u/s and you get to see that little :heartbeat: beating away!!



Big :hug: and hello's to AJC, Theresa, and smi! Thinking of you all, and hoping you're all well!



HannahD--Glad to hear AF is easing down. Sorry to hear you're feeling so down....I'm feeling you! :hug: Hope things are a little better today!



mollycat--Wow! 11.1 kg's! So what's that again in lbs? lol... sorry, you know me and converting! One of these days I'm going to surprise you by actually knowing the answer to my own questions!



fifi--Glad to hear all went well with your 25 week appt! Now we just have to get you better!! *hugs* for you and some :bellyrubs: too!!



Rach--Oh, honey... I just don't even have the words at the moment to tell you how truly sorry I am for the loss of your precious little Lilly! :comfort: My DS was 6 when I had my m/c, and I was only about 8 weeks, and it was so tough and confusing for him to understand what was going on. I just can't even imagine poor Ethan, and what he's thinking and feeling! You and your family are in my thoughts and :pray:

Hello all,

OK first attempt at personals for the new year. Love to all at the outset in case I miss anyone!! :loveshower:

Jen- I hope you are feeling better sweetie. You are always so positive and supportive of everyone I was really worried when I heard you weren?t feeling great. Sorry about BFN, right there with you. Despite a distinct absence of AF still (where is she?!?! D15 PO) I POAS this morning (one of the super sensitive ones) and BFN. Rats! Heres hoping next months egg will be the one for both of us. :crossfingers:

HannahD, firstbub polly, ?Doh! Rotten AF! Good luck with the next cycle, sure you will catch the elusive eggie next time. Hang in there, my thoughts are with you on your next cycles.


Mel?good luck with your tests this week, DH and I are still waiting to hear about ours.


Ruthie- hello dear- talk about rollercoaster- You poor thing, think you body needs a bit of a talking to!- hope things are clearer after the weekend.

babymiracles?hope you have lots of healthy happy little eggs for growing! :egg:

Mannie?I?m sure all the positive vibes that float around this tread help support the bubs that grow- I?m sure you are right- this year will be it for us!

Mel?Hope you are feeling better- down with AF and her nasty behavior I say!

Tam- thinking of you and your scan. Lots of positive vibes for your little bub.

Belly rubs for Kezzabird, smi, fifi and tutmae:bellyrubs:


erybery?hope you are feeling ok and the clomid gets you a bub very soon!

Theresa- I completely understand, my DH also gets frustrated with me sometimes for ?over thinking?. I think boys really want to ?fix? things- if we can?t we should just ?not worry?? hmm, while academically I understand this, emotionally I?m not quite there;)

Rach?I?m so sorry for your loss Rach. My prayers are with you and your family, good luck on you TTC journey.

AJC, Easha, mollycat, WTH, toccara, Acria, kristlove, HannahS, megsmum, issa, smi, possums, Ty and everyone else, big :grouphug:

AFM- well, as I said BFN but no AF. Have no idea what my body is doing. A little worried as I?m still waiting for my first ?full? cycle since the mc. Was sure we caught the O this month (CM and OPT, about 2 ?- 3 wk after mc), but now an 15PO and no AF- this is very strange for me (always AF at D14PO). But as I sit here can feel building headache, so maybe AF is just around the corner. Very much looking forward to hearing from FS, hopefully next week.

OK, better do some work, even though it is Friday.

Have a lovely weekend all,

Indy

Hi everyone. Going to have to skip personals today as in a bit of pain and probably need to get back to bed and lie down, although just one for Rachel

Rach- I am so sorry you hear about your beautiful baby Lily. I cannot imagine what you are going through. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family at this devastating time in your lives. I have no more words but know you are in a supportive forum of women who care and where you can express any thoughts/feelings/anger/grief and say whatever you need to. :comfort:

Thanks all for you best wishes for my egg collection today. I am very pleased to say that it was a success and I got more eggs than I could of hoped for (from scan the other day and what radiologist said I got double what I thought I might get). :dance: Now just praying for lots to fertilize and grow and then a BFP in a few weeks time :pray: Got a few more eggs than last time and last time I got mild hyperstimulation syndrome so a bit nervous as to how I am going to go this time. Pretty sore at the moment so am trying to rest as much as possible. Thanks again for your thoughts and support - you are such a wonderful group of ladies :grouphug:

Rachel - I am so, so sorry for your loss of your little baby girl Lilli. I can't even imagine what you must be going through. :comfort: You are in my thoughts and :pray: and I wish you luck on your TTC journey.

babymiracles - Yah for your eggs! :dance: :crossfingers: you get your BFP in a couple of weeks time.

Indy - Sending :noaf: vibes your way!

Fifi - Hope you feel better soon. :)

Hi to everyone else. :hello:

Sorry for lack of personals but I am not feeling that well. AF is kicking my butt this month! You would think if she is going to turn up she could at least go easy on us!

:grouphug: Sending my love to you all - it must seem I have forgotten you all but the ladies here are never far from my thoughts. I feel like I am in another time zone at the moment so forgive my lack of personals. Just know that I check up on you all at least once a day.
:bluedust::pink-babydust::stickyvibesgirl::stickyvibesboy:

Hi ladies

To answer most of you - I am now 3 days late but I am too scared to test as I don't want to see a BFN!!! I was thinking of waiting until next week if AF hasn't shown up?!?!?

Rach - I am so sorry for your loss. I was devastated when I lost Zachary and I know it must be agonizing for you. This is the best forum you can be in! I wish you all the luck in the world.

Mel - hope you are feeling better soon. :hug: to you.

babymiracles - Excellent news :crossfingers:

Indy - After losing Zachary I have found that my cycles are out of sync! They have fluctuated between 28 and 32 days over the last 5 months and it looks like it will be another weird month for me again wondering if AF is going to arrive or not! I am sending you all the positive vibes in the world!

Sending you all love and :hug:

Hello all. I am currently TTC. My husband and I lost our first child due to miscarriage on December 15, 2008. Our little angel was a girl and I was 3 1/2 months along. I am still recovering emotionally. We have since started ttc again and are hoping for a BFP this month. :pray:Wish me luck and all the baby dust this way please. Sending lots of Baby Dust everyones way and hoping for alot of BFP!

Hi Ladys, and thank you!!!

Zachary's mum - Im 3days late to, maybe we are on similar cycle??

Babymiracles - Sending you lots of growing eggs vives, and hope you get a BFP very soon.

Indy - Hope af stays away for you!!!

Shortcake - Hi, sorry about your loss. Hope you get a BFP ASAP to.

Ok, so heres my bizzare mth. Im now 3days late. Ive did a few tests BFN. My cervix has been really low to so thought yep, AF is coming. Ive got this feelin in my boob. Its kinda similar to what you get when your brestfeeding, when your filling up your milk, iykwim. So i was really sad about yesterdays BFN, but this morning, i awake, and still no AF, but my cervix has gone really high now. Honestly yesterday, it was right there, and now, pop, gone. So i have my fingers crossed and will test again on wednesday i think, that way AF will be a wk late then. If AF hasn't come that is. Ive even been looking at nursery stuff, but looking at little girls stuff mainly. Hopeful wishing i think.

Hi all,

Im so so so sorry for this short post (which is also going to lack persies :redface: please forgive me?) i need to get my skates on and clean the house for inspection later today...

But.....I had my first scan yesterday and I am pleased (no...over the moon) to announce that our little bean was there up on the screen, wiggling and even moving its arms (or tiny stumps I should say ;)) Baby is looking great and measured 8w3d, so a little out from what we had calculated. Bubs is 19mm long...a tiny bean! We are feeling a little more relaxed but of course are still not telling anyone until 12wks....come on 12wks!

A huge hello to everyone in here, im sorry I havent posted very much in here lately..I certainly have not forgotten anyone, you are all very much in my thought and prayers and I thankyou all for giving me the ultimate support on my my ttc journey last year...:grouphug:

Love and hugs to all,

Issy

Issy - Congratulations on your scan! It must have been just amazing to watch your little one moving around! :happyforyou: :stickyvibesgirl: :stickyvibesboy:

Rachel - Sending you some :noaf: vibes and :bluedust::pink-babydust: to help you on your journey. I hope this is your month. :crossfingers:

issy - Congrats on the great scan results. C'mon 12 weeks!!!

Theresa - I'm hoping AF doesn't show. Big :hug: and I hope your feeling a little better today.

fifi - Glad bubs is okay but I hope you feel better soon. Yay for getting started on the nursery.

Mel - I'm sorry the b!tch showed and that she's being so hard on you.:protest: Take it easy sweetheart.

Racheal - I am so very, very sorry for your loss of Lilli. I can't even begin to imagine how devastating that must be. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. It seems you have one sweet little boy in Ethan though. Gooluck on your TTC journey. I hope AF stays away.

jen - I hope you are feeling a little better today. :pray: the witch doesn't show.

Indy - Great to see you back. :crossfingers: that it happens for you this month.

babymiracles - Yay for lots and lots of eggies. :dance: I hope you get your BFP soon. Rest up darlin'.

shortcake - Welcome. I am so sorry for your loss. You have found a forum of great women who will support you on your TTC journey. Goodluck.

issy - Yay for a great scan and little waves from bean.

HI to everyone i've not mentioned. Have a great weekend all.

:bluedust::noaf::pink-babydust:

Babymiracles - :clap: Great news about your egg collection. I hope you get lots fertilised and are not too uncomfortable after the procedure. Looking forward to hearing how things go this week

Issy - so glad to hear your scan went well. Keep up the good work :D

Rach - I am sorry for what you have had to endure. I can't imagine it. You are a very strong woman and I admire you so much for moving forward. Here's hoping that AF stays away - perhaps you have had late implantation? Are you temping?? Good luck :crossfingers:

Shortcake - :welcome: I am sorry for your recent loss. You will find great support on this thread. Good luck with TTC this month.

Zachary's mum - OOOOOOH. Sounds so promising. Good luck when you POAS !!

Indy - sorry if it is not your month. I get that same darned headache, too!

:hello: to Jen, Mollycat, Megsmum, HannahD, Smi, KrystieLove, Mel, Ruthie, Tam, Fifi AND EVERYONE ELSE

AFM - AF is in full swing (a bit painful, probably due to my 5 minute PG earlier this week). But the good news is I am allowed to start jabbing tonight for my next IVF cycle so already something new and positive to focus on.

Have a great weekend
WTH x

Issy - great to hear that you had such a reassuring scan! Hope 12 weeks gets to you before you know it :)

WTH - Sorry to hear about AF being painful ... and I am a bit behind, but just wanted to say I am sorry to hear you had another loss over the new year :hug: You sound like you are being very positive though, and def sound like you have the storm-trooper boots on! Good luck with this IVF cycle :crossfingers:

(The lovely) Jen - how are you doing hun?


and to all the newcomers - I am sorry your journey has brought you sadness, you will find all of the support,understanding and encouragement you could wish for here...

AFM - hanging out for my big 2nd tri scan on 30 Jan (20 more sleeps!).... just want to know that all continues to go well for Bub ... using the doppler regularly for a bit of reassurance - think I would have definitely been a complete basketcase without it. This way I can maintain a bit of zen ;)


Positive vibes for 2009 ladies, and masses of :bluedust::pink-babydust::bluedust::pink-babydust: for you all

xx

Hi Ladies

WTH - I am going to wait until next week - Wed or Thurs if F hasn't arrived by then. I will let you all know what happens. I am keeping you in my thoughts with your next IVF.

Hannah - thanks! I think I might have a small cold as I have a really sore throat (which is why I have probably been feeling sorry for myself). Nothing serious I just need to rest! I have tomorrow off so I am going to try and do as little as possible - even though I say that and then get into a cleaning bug mood lol

Issy - Congrats on your excellent scan results! :leap:

Rach - Maybe we should compare charts! two heads might be better than one! I am looking at testing next Wed or Thurs if AF hasn't shown up.

Shortcake - Welcome! This is a great forum and the girls are wonderful. They have certainly been my lifeline. All the best for TTC.

AFM - AF is still no show but I have been 5 days late before so I am not getting excited yet. Still having some minor cramping but then it goes away?!?! I have decided I am going to tidy my shoes up tomorrow as they are lying in 2 layers on my cupboard floor - and I seriously don't think I need that many shoes!!!

I did buy some wedding shoes yesterday - there was a 50% off sale - so who could resist!! At least when it comes to setting a date I will already have one thing off the list :clap:

I am nursing a sore throat at the moment so I am going to take it pretty easy as I have a hectic work schedule for the next 2 weeks.

Other than that DF and I are going to DTD 2 to 3 times a week and see if that gets us any closer to our goal! That is if AF shows up.

I hope you all enjoy the rest of your weekend! xxxx

Thank you to everyone for the positive messages. My husband and I are trying our best to stay positive. The doctor said to test on the 15th if AF doesn't come! Five more days! =):pray: :pink-babydust:For everyone and

Rach & Shortcake::welcome: I'm so sorry for the loss of your little ones. My heart goes out to you. We all know that kind of pain and I want to let you know you are among loving and caring AMAZING women ♥

To all my girlies: Thank you for thinking of me.... I POASed today with 3 HPTs I even put my hubby to see and the ALL were snow white BFNs.:redface::crying: I'm sad.. but I know it's best. Maybe in the summer.

I spoke to my Mom ... she had surgery on one of her breasts a few years ago to remove a "lump"..which THANK GOD it was not harmful.( the doc said that since she never had kids.. (I'm adopted) she never breastfed and her milk glands became calcified (with calcium accumulations from old milk of an unsuccessful pregnancy she once had followed by a hysterectomy) She went for her regular checkup and the mammogram came out with "something" again...we are SCARED outta our wits... I hope it's the same thing as the last time.. but regardless she will need surgery again on that breast and it's scary. She is in Dominican Republic and right now I have no way of flying down there to be with her. All I can do is pray and talk to her on the phone. :(
Right now I don't even want to be upset about the BFN... I'm upset about my mom and I'm just praying it is harmless. She will need surgery. But what I pray for is that it's NOT CANCER!!!!!!!!!:pray::crying:
I wish you all met her she is amazing... My biological mom just gave birth to me.. I was placed in my mothers arms minutes after birth.. SHE is AMAZING and I'm ever so grateful that of all women it was HER the one to be my mother!!!! Please pray for my mother. I love her so much and it will KILL me if anything happens to her. She gave me her all and someone once told me... Anyone can have children.. but NOT everyone is a MOTHER!!! she is on of those... .. I'm crying right now. I'm so sorry.
Please.. Please pray for my mom. :(
If you want to see who this amazing woman is.. ( I don't know how to post pics here I can e-mail you her pic) here is my e-mail if you want so I can reply with a pic of her.. :(
makunga21@hotmail.com
Ruthie

Hi Girls
Im new to this thread. We had a mc chrissie day at 7w (you might have seen my other post) not really sure where im at now with my cycle but ive read that the day you stop bleeding is day one so that makes me on day 6. It was our first and very much planned pregnancy we were temping, OPKs etc etc.
I think now while we very much want to try again (I miss being pregnant even though it was only for a little bit) Im not up to temping etc so we are just going to see what happens for the next couple of months. I will then prob start obsessing again if nothing happens.
DH is taking me to Sydney for a week which will be nice to get away from it all and have some us time.

Baby dust to all :)

Sorry for the short post, will come back and do persies later. I just wanted to say...

Ruthie - I am so sorry about your BFN hun :hug: My mother also had a scare (which thankfully turned out to be nothing, it was so scary though as her sister has had breast cancer). I am :pray: for your mum and wish you and your family all the best. Take care xx

Shortcake - Sorry, I don't think I said hi in my last post. Sorry for your loss and the fact you have to be here, best of luck on your TTC journey. :crossfingers: for the 15th!

Sorry have to go now, will be back later..........

Ruthie - :pray: for your Mum. My Mum had a lump a few years ago (was not cancerous thankfully) and that was very scary. Sending you & your Mum a big hug and :pray: that it's benign.

jenushka - yay, so excited to see your post and your ticker. Wow - almost half way, am so happy for you.

Big Hugs and babydust for everyone.