Trying to Conceive after Miscarriage/Loss #2- June 2009

Hi girl's

It seem's some of us are not having a good day i myself i'm feeling really down as today i would have started my maternity leave i would have 6 week's left until our abbi was due and one of the pregnant girl's at work pulled out her 12 week ultrasound pic's and said i can't wait to get it out of me i have had enough already ,I just wanted to punch her in the mouth and say be thankful your baby is still in there safe and well i hate going to work at the moment.
I'm not feeling real good i will catch up with you all a bit later i hope everyone has a better day tomorrow sorry!

Ferrals - Honey that just sucks - we appreciate what we have so much more because we know what it likes to lose everything. People seem really insensitive but in reality they just don't have any idea of what another situation would be like.
Sunbeam darling - I am so sorry you are having a down day. The surgery is because I have fibroids that seem to have changed since I lost Charles so I have an MRI next week to see if I need major surgery - if not I just proceed straight to another stim cycle.
Tina - Darling I am sorry yesterday was so hard, we all seem to have the blues this week ooh and where is this shop...please say Brisbane???
Anila - Are you cheerier today sweetheart?

AFM - all alone as DP is in Melbourne. Having some people over tonight and having lunch with gf today. My skin looks amazing after my facial and she gave me samples ( I LOVE SAMPLES).
Love to all
Delly

Hello girls,

Hope everyone is having a better day today. I'm doing a bit better, got up and went for an hour walk this morning. Got another temp drop this morning too but I'm not going to get excited about it until I see the positive OPK, might explain my crappy, over emotional mood though. Still just feel like crying at the slightest thing. I was thinking about my friend that got pregnant in the same week I did. I haven't seen here yet and I'm begining to feel I won't be able to until I'm pregnant again as it will be too hard to see here belly bump knowing I should be looking the same.

Big big hugs to everyone seems we all need them right now.:grouphug:

good morning all

ferrals hun, i hope today is a bit brighter for you.

delly a facial sounds good, seams like it made u feel good too!

Sunbeam, glad ur feeling better today.

afm, af has gone finally, 8 days was 4 to many for me!
Now to just try and figure out when im supposed to o!!!

Hi all,

You know - I notice we seem to really be in sync with each other - we are either all doing ok or all depressed lol...
Thank God we have each other to cry to, I sometimes think this is the only place I can really say what I feel.

Sunbeam: come on - he is a guy, he probably loved every minute of the 'donations' :) Enjoy that bath tonight! glass of wine, music, good book - yippee

Anila: Sorry your having such a down day - hope things start to feel bettet tomorrow, fingers crossed you get your BFP this cycle and that so do I (all of us) and that we are all in the due thread together.

Ferrals: feel free to have a cry in here, we are definitely all here for you and to some degree know exactly where you are at

Delly: Not exactly in Brisbane, at Kalbar on the Cunningham Highway, bout 20mins from Ipswich. Katt's Emporium - Home if you want to look online. I'm still jealous of you getting to relax and get pampered.

Jules: Hope the travel is worth it...now the tww :)

Coco: Hope your feeling better :grouphug: its just so annoying when it seems so hard for those that desperately want to be preg (us) and yet so easy for those that aren't intersted in being preg. :wall:

AFM: I'm feeling better today. Am hoping for RB to hit properly so it can be over and done with then I can start to TTC. I'm kind of up one minute and down the next but its ok. I'm just trying to stay positive which is hard but I have decided I kind of need to.
I'm excited about my business and new products I am adding tonight to the website as well as the fact that I just went and bought the winning lotto ticket for tonights oz lotto :)

I :pray: we all get our BFP this cycle and move onto the next phase together, it will be easier to chat with someone who is also freaking out the whole time rather than just do it all by myself (see that positive vibe I got going - its my month!!)

I am feeling better now. I am over my little tanty on sunday lol

I have just done the unthinkable...the thing we all say we wont do but we end up doing...









I POAS... :lol: not telling you the outcome cos what else is it going to be at 8dpo??

I am sitting here drinking Rasberry Leaf Tea with honey and watching a Pink dvd from her last concert and have to say this one just gone was definately better! She is soooo gorgeous!!

Anyway, been having this feeling really low in my abdomen, well, more like in my uterus and it feels the same as last pregnancy so Im hoping something is implanting in there :)

Of course now Ive said that it will make a liar of me and be nothing..

Im hoping that Murphy's Law will uphold for me and because I have booked the endoscopy on the 16th I will get a :bfp: and wont need it...Any ideas on what I can do to help?? Maybe Ill pack a bag...of course its only day surgery so dont really need to pack much do i?? Anyone had one done before?

I am rambling yes..was hoping to provide some comic relife to everyone whos feeling crappy. :grouphug: hope you feel better soon ladies.

Anila :HoOrAy!!!! AF has flow the co-op!! :confetti:
FerralsHope you're feeling better about everything! Are you still TTC before the procedure? I think I missed the info on that one..

xxx

Hi girls. I'm using my phone so a little hard but just wanted to say hi. I think i'm now in the tww? Not feeling very optimistic though. Will explain later.

and without reading all your posts i'm also feeling crap and down today too. Maybe i just miss you all! Sending you all a big hug.

Hi ladies,

sorry no time for persies, but just wanted to say hi, and sorry that everyone is having such a downer. :grouphug:

Hi Ladies,

Sorry everyone has been having a rough time of it...hope you are all feeling better today :)

I am freaking out right now becasue last night I got a :bfp: !
Up until now I had been thinking all I want is that, and now I have it I am kinda wishing I didnt test, it sounds silly but I was suspicious that I was pg, and was wondering if I should just ignore it for a few weeks then if AF turns up I can still think it wasnt an mc just my body getting back to normal...

Anyway, sorry to sound negative about something I know we are all praying for...I am partly excited but am holding back as am sooo scared of it happening again, spesh since i didnt have normal af, am convinced its too soon.

I hope you all won't mind me lurking in here for a while...i still feel like this is part of the TTC journey, its not real unless and until I at least hear a heartbeat, and even then I'll still be worried no doubt...

Hope you all get your BFPs real soon, because everyone in here deserves it and plus then we can stress together!

oh wow KM1, congratulations!!!
I completely understand ur worries hun, and i think i speak for everyone here when i say , u dont have to go.

:leap: KM:jawdrop: That is awesome!! Congratulations - am so excited for you! Of course you are welcome to stay - hopefully we can all move with you in the next month :)

For some reason I have put myself into a good mood - although I just spent an hour uploading photos onto my website for it to crash :wall:
Im really positive about this month even though I have no idea what my cycle will do since it is already 7 days longer than normal.

Coco: Pack a day bag, plan to come home that night and get trashed...organise a party or something then you are for sure gonna get that great :bfp:

Sending wishes to everyone that this is the month and lots and lots of :stickyvibesgirl::stickyvibesboy:

CONGRATS to MrszBaby and KM1!!!!

YAY KM1 CONGRATULATIONS honey! :hooray::happyforyou::cheer::bluecheer::bfp: I know you are worried but enjoy this special time... I'm sure everything will great :dance:

While I am here lerking.... :hello: to everyone else... I MISS you all... I might be back again more regularly one day..... Until then I am enjoying some time out.... It looks like I ovulated couple of days ago.... hmmmmm can't wait to get back into ttc!

Wow... So many BFP's happening in here!!!

Congratulations KM1. That is awesome news. Wishing you all the best :cheer: Stay with us and keep us updated on your progress. I totally understand your worry. I think we will all feel that way at the start when we get out BFP's.

Its a beautiful day after the wild weather of yesterday. I hope everyone is feeling a little better today. If not... Turn some music on loud and dance out your frustration. I find it helps a little.

My sister in law gave me all her boy baby clothes yesterday. 5 bulk nappy boxes jam packed with heaps of gorgeous stuff. Heaps of Bright Bots... Just gorgeous. She is wonderfully supportive and im very lucky to have her. She has a almost 3 year old boy and a beautiful 20 week old girl and will just be the best support when we have a baby of our own. I cant wait....

Baby dust to everyone!!!

Morning all, it has only been 2 days since on here last but so many posts to catch up on.
CONGRATULATIONS KM1Thats great news and hopefully we can see more :bfp: in here very soon :)
Cherished im glad to hear that you are doing ok and taking some time out for yourself, we all miss you too and look forward to hearing your progress wheneva you pop in :)
Tina im glad to see that you are in a positive mood even after the computer crashing, they are so annoying when they do that always when your right in the middle of something important and time consuming. Hope your cycle ends soon and you can start TTC again
Jules, coco, anilla sorry to hear that you are having a bad day i hope you start to feel better soon and get that BFP that we are all after :crossfingers:
Sunbeam i know exactly what you mean about crying at the slightest thing im doing exactly the same at the moment, not a nice feeling but hopefully we can get that BFP together and start to feel alot better
Ferals hope you are feeling a bit better today some people can be so insensitive but as delly said they dont know what we aer going through because they havent been through it and i know it just doesnt seem fair at all
Delly hope you are coping ok with DP being away, its good that you have lots of people around you to keep you company. Sounds like your facial was lovely and happy your skin is glowing :)

As i was reading over the posts from the last few days i knew exactly how we were all feeling. On monday i had a very lazy day coz i had to work nightshift. When DB came home we had dinner, went to the supermarket, came home and was making a cup of milo and i was very quiet and DB asked what was wrong and i just lost it said i was feeling really down and just started crying. Hes not very good with all the emotional stuff so didnt know what to do and just told me not to cry and that everything was going to be ok. So yesterday i had an appt at the docs and she decided that we needed to do a D&C. This was 11.30 and she said right well do it at 1.30 today go to hosi at 12.30. So in a way i think it was good coz it didnt give me a chance to think about it too much.
It actually wasnt as bad as i had thought it would be, but as usual when i woke up i was bawling and shaking which is generally what anaesthetic does to me, not nice but im ok.
Had terrible pain afterwards when in the hosi but it has gone away now and is only a dull period pain feeling. Have had hardly any bleeding over night so hopefully everything went well.
Looking forward to AF now and getting my cycle back to normal so we can start TTC againg and get that :bfp: we are all after.

Sorry if i missed anyone and hope everyone starts to feel better soon :grouphug:

Hello girls :hello:


KM1Congratulations that's awesome news :happyforyou: I totally understand the worry I will be feeling exactly the same when I get a BFP so stay and get all the support you need. :stickyvibesgirl:

Coco- did you POAS again yet?

Elise- I'm so glad the d&c went okay for you lets hope it is a nice fresh start and a BFP is just around the corner.

Cherished- glad you are still checking in hope you o and bring us happy BFP news very soon.

Glad we all seem to be feeling a bit happier. I'm happier too but still worrying whether I'll o or not it kind of needs to be in the next 4 days if its going to happen at all. So :crossfingers: cos I don't know how I'll got if I can't even be in the TTW.

If bad things come in 3's good things should too so there must be another :bfp: lurking somewhere.

Sunbeam hahahahahah yes I did today :D

I didnt see a line though :( I dropped it on the floor when I was taking the bins out and I looked at it and the die had been activated for the second line on the end but not sure thats going to be anything special though I have never seen it before lol :lol:

The things we do aye??

I had a lower temp today but I was awake early so i used that temp corrector thing..it gave me the temp i though i would have gotten today anyway so i just went with it and made a mental note to ignore it lol. Hoping to not start spotting tomorrow or nxt day..not getting the niggling pulling twingy things I have gotten every other month as yet so im :pray: its a good sign but not going to be bale to tell until a :bfp: arises!

Hope you're well xxx

Everyone else hope you're going better today! I devoted my time today to the Kitties :) I bought Coco & Max some new litter *coco gets excited* and 2 bags of food, some cat bubbles for them to chase (they dont pop and blow around when the wind picks up and coco and max had them stuck on their whiskers before hahahahahah :rofl:) and some chicken jerky treats and a new toy mouse because Max destroyed the other one, and I booked them into a really AWESOME boarding place for when we go away in August for 16 days. It cost me $500 for the 2 of them but the kennels are GREAT and big, not those little pokey ones. and they have 2 beds in them, 3 teirs and play toys and a scratching pole :) Looks like a mini house, its cool!