Trying to Conceive after Miscarriage/Loss - December 2009

Sunbeam so sorry that your HCG levels are falling X If there is anything we can do...:(

Thopes me doin ok, tender tummy is all I can report on!! No hissyfits at work yet, so I think I'm doing alright!!!! (wouldnt be able to jog or run, feel like my ovaries would wobble to much!!!)

Ferrals did your tummy get very tender??? Sounds horrible but I have knocked back poor DH 2 nights in a row, I couldn't bare the thaught!!! :lol: You gals are doin enough for all of us ATM anyway!!!!
TMI WARNING!!!!! I know I will have to :bd: sooner rather than later because I think the tenderness is only going to get worse!!!!!!! I will have to fake it!!!:lol:

TTCLovechild I'm sure your going to fit in with us just fine XXX Feel free to post wheneva, being in a different hemisphere and all!!!!;) (theres a few girls from the U.S. of .A. here)XX

Sunbeam - :grouphug: my thoughts are with you...you were always such an inspiration to me while I was in here on my journey and I am praying that you get wonderful news so very very soon after your loss of this little angel ~ you deserve to have some luck and to hold your own bub. xo
Take care...you are in my thoughts.

TTCLoveC: Take heart - my DH and I have been together 8yrs - no birth control and only now are we in the process of making our own little human (we have 3 angels)...it can be the most heart wrenching journey and the girls in this forum kept me sane. Fingers crossed for you that with the hormones now surging your body you get a new BFP, a H&H 9mths and your precious bundle at the end of it.

To everyone else...my fingers are crossed for you all, I hope 2010 gives each of you the two lines we have all craved so badly. I don't know most of you ladies but there are some who were here for my journey and I keep checking in on you ~ sending fertile and sticky vibes :lol:

Murrycod-yes it did the bigger the follicles get and the more you have in there the more bloated and uncomfortable you will get but we were still able to do the wild thing just had to be a little gentle and as with the big O i still went no problem and not painful at all i wouldnt say i was in any pain leading up to EPU just bloated and tight but after EPU yes there was cramping and pain for a couple of days the more water i drank and went to the loo heaps the better i felt it was like i had done 200 sit ups and been riding a horse i felt tender bruised and battered but panadole and rest heaps and you will be fine the more you walk around the worse you feel so stay still.

Sunbeam- i am so sorry i dont know what to say but i am thinking of you.

TTCAlovechild-sorry to here you have had such a long and tough ttc journey i hope we can help support your until your next BFP.

TinaR-hey thanks for checking in on us.

AFM-still no AF what is going on 4 days late i have only ever been 3 days late in my life could it have been the ivf i had in november i was on time with AF last month and that was straight after the ivf and i dont feel like they are going to turn up i am so h###y aswell DH doesnt mind but when AF is due i am normally bloated and feel like crap i did another opk test it is still a strong positive check out the test line is darker than the control line.
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Sunbeam - Big hugs to you. Sorry to hear such a bad, heartbreaking news. Thinking of you today.
Alovechild - Sorry that you are here, read about your tough ttc journey, be positive, good things will knock your door soon. BB ladies are really good and we all keep each other motivated thru out ttc journey and in ups and downs. will hear from you again.
Ferrals - whats going on? positive OPK, no AF, that is strange, did you do FMU yet?? I dont know what type of test we all are in....Hope pur prayers get answered soon and we can hold our bundle of joy soon.
THopes - AF is due on friday or saturday. I am thinking of doing a test on Saturday or sunday. I know i wont be able to hold on till friday itself. I already did the test this morning with negative with first response, i knew it was too early, but still....hard to control. I had positive OPK on 24th Dec, so if I "O"ted on 26th, then today is 9 DPO, too early according to babymed. My fingers are crossed this time, otherwise there is always next time...hahaaa
MurrayCod - How are you? All the very best for BD this time, Hope that magic happens this month and you get that BFP without any trouble. You know 2ww is a pretty long wait. I am on my holidays and i want them to be over quickly so that i can test. Waiting is hard. so I am killing time by playing wii, walking, shopping and thinking about all the good things and eating.

To everyone else - SPK, Matthew's mum, Snugglybean, Emmy, Craftymummy, Dory, and everyone else. Hope to hear from you gals soon.

ric - we are killing time the same way! ive been hooked on the wii - mario bros has done me wonders! and i am also wishing away my holidays! its terrible!!! 1 week left and i want them gone! never thought id be saying that!!! ah well, i work at a school so at least it will still be quite there until the kids come back!!! good luck with you testing! i wont be too far behind you!! xx

ferrals - that line is strong as!! when are you doing another test??

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Thank you all for your kind thoughts and words.

I just don't know what to think my head feels so full. On the one hand I know I should be glad to know at that IUI can work for us and that at least I was not further along so I am expecting the loss will just be like a heavier period. On the other hand I am just totally heart broken and in awe of women who go through this time and again and keep on trying. When I feel like this it is so hard to dredge up enough hope to believe I will one day have a baby.

Ferrals-I have no idea but I think it might be worth seeing a FS for some guidance if you can.

Good luck to all in the TTW.

hi everyone, sunbeam-so sorry to read about your loss,your signature is right-they'll be in your heart forever,we fall in love with them from the very start,sadly being your 3rd loss will they do test for recurrent losses?...ttcalovechild-sorry to hear about your loss,hope you get another bfp real soon,it is scary ttc again after a loss,our innocence is taken away from us as well i think.we'll all get there together....t-hope&ric-fingers still crossed for you...murraycod-glad things are going well,look forward to your updates...tinar-all well with you?...ferrals-sorry to hear about your friend.I'm thinking it's the ivf meds,hope youv'e been able to get busy in the bedroom....dory-you would be in the tww too?

T-Hopes-i went out and brought a real sensitive one today says you can test 5 days before AF due and it was still a BFN so i am definately not i wont waste anymore money i will wait for AF and if my cycle is still out of whack i will go see someone i dont know if i can see my FS as she is with SIVF and i am not doing ivf anymore i might give her a ring and see what she says good luck with your testing hope you get 2 nice dark lines.

Ric-Ive tried FMU mid Morning Urine afternoon urine night urine the is no trace of HCG in me so god only knows what is happening anyway i hope you get your wish and get those two line aswell.

Matthew's Mum how are you doing? have you booked any appts yet?

Sunbeam not sure what i can say, i hope you are doing ok, please let us know how things go x

T-hopes and ric (welcome back), i wished my holiday away too. today was my first day back and now i wish i had more holidays!!! the things i would do if i had more time off... good luck in your twws! (ric - i think our cycles are pretty much the same, so we should try and hold out together :) )

ferrals i am all out of ideas. especially as your body is giving out mixed signals. you need to make an appointment with the docs or fs. i think that's what i would be doing.

murraycod maybe you will have to brave it now, as it looks like there will be more bloating and tenderness to come! how are your injections going? are you still looking forward to them?

TTCALoveChild sorry you have had to join us. hopefully your body knows what it needs to do now next time will all turn out well x

afm, i caved!!!!!!! this morning i poas and well of course i got a bfn :( i am only 28 days and my last cycle was 34 days, so i'm :pray: i tested too early. i'm still feeling really bloated and getting pains so i am not giving up hope just yet.

T-Hopes and SPF - do you have any prepregnancy symptoms, i am overanalysing things at the moment, this 2ww is killing me. I only know that i have wait till saturday. after my m/c, i have noticed a change, after ovulation, i get sore boobies & slight niggling feeling in my tummy....i dont know why..???
But i kinda desperate now for those 2 lines...lol
T-Hopes - when are you testing for those magical lines?
Ferrals - it is so annoying, when you don't know whats going on inside your own body...i know that feeling, october was horrible one for me when i faced the longest ever cycle.
Hun, it would be good to talk to your doc, ask her whats going on? may be she can do something, afterall doc's know alot thn us. Hope things get better and clear asap. Hugs to you xxx
Murraycod - dont do any physical work. take rest and take it easy.

Ferrals honey go to your Doc tomorrow and request a progestrone level check to see how far off base line you are. As you know once it hits bottom Af will show. It will atleast give you an estimate how far Af is, if it is going to show at all ;)
As we both discussed previouse opk's can be used as pregnancy tests, but if you are still showing a negative on an actual HCG test, that my dear is baffling to me!!
After the 3 stimmed IUI's in a row, I never got a natural AF for 40days (sure we can all remember that hey!:rolleyes:)
Mabey it is to do with the strong stim cycle you had....dunno, but progestrone levels won't lie, get Doc to throw in a HCG test while your at it.....just to be sure :hug:

Girls what's with wishing your well earned holidays away!!!! Gooses!!!!!! WII sounds like heaps of fun, my GF has the singing one, I suck at it!!!:tmi:

Thopes almost there X

Ric yeah will take it easy....bugger the BD!!!! He can keep tha away from me!:lol:
I am also desperate for you to see those 2 lines, hang in there honey XXX

SPF hope you just tested WAY too early :crossfingers: At least I'm not the only one feeling bloated and sore!!!!!!

What is it...with this TWW thing......:lol: do we know of anyone who has actually lasted the TWW without testing?? LMAO!!!!! Seriouse girls, the TWW needs a change of name... WAABW (week and a bit wait)
I myself, will be the first on our official list, to put my hand up and admit I HAVE NEVER WAITED TWO WEEKS!!!! EVER!!!

TinaR wishing you all the very best vibes XXX Take care XXX

Sunbeam, I love what you wrote on your signature :comfort:

Coco are you lurking?? How are you, I hope that you are doing okay XX
Thinking of you, miss you around X

Matthew'sMum how far into the WAABW are you?? Hope you are well X

Sorry to miss anyone in persies XX Will catch you next time take care XX

I just had my first crying session after my FSH injection thisevening, have no idea why, they seem to be hurting a bit more than normal last 2 days. Felt better after it though!!!!!
As of tomorrow I have 2 inj each night. 1) FSH 150iu puregon and 2) 250ug Ogalgutran which looks way more scary, I am not looking forward to the needles anymore...they are worth it, but my tummy is bruised and so so tender now.

MurrayCod - there is a saying - "Patience pays, sooner or later it pays"
To harvest the best crop, farmer has to work hard, sweat in the sun, wait for days, and then he enjoys the fruit, he worked for....I guess we all are doing that. In saying so, you are very patient, i am very sure you will have the best fruit (your bub) very soon. i will pray for you as well... i soo want to hug you :hug:
take care xoxo

ric - i will be testing next Thursday (10dpo) i wish i had the patience to wait until missed AF.... but thats not how i roll! and ive only just started my 2WW so dont think i have any symptoms yet... but i was having that twingy feeling in my ovary yesterday and today but maybe it is just ovulation?? who knows, i wish my tummy was see-thru sometimes so i could see whats going on in there! oh and im feeling very randy! DH is wrapped! :dance:
scary - hang in there a few more days till another test (not that i can talk).... fingers crossed for your BFN - so AF is due Saturday for you??
ferrals - bugger to the BFN! cause that OPK is ridiculously dark!!! Ive never had a dark one! though i showed ferns (fertile period) on my Maybe Baby saliva test! its all so confusing! very glad to see you back in here too! hang in there! xx

night all! xx :asleep:

Thanks all for the warm welcome!!
It sure does make a newbie feel much better....

Ferrals4: Best of luck with you im excitd to know the outcome for you..

Ric: Thansk sweetie im keeping Positive ;)

Scarypinkfairy: thanks sweetie im hoping my body does to..

TinaR: Thanks to you aswell, were hoping to conceive again b4 the 2010 is up.. :dance:

Much love and hugs and lots of :bluedust:
Anita

Morning ladies

ric-yes i know i feel pregnant my boob's have an ache but not sore like when AF is due i keep gettiging period cramping off and on i get that when i am pregnant i am tired more than normal and want sex all the time also a pregnancy symptom for me but i know that i am not because my hpt's always show pos so i guess at the moment my body is throwing out false symptoms.

Murrycod-i rang my FS this morning she is going to ring me somtime tomorrow morning as today she is busy i have a few questions about my FSH levels and LH levels and my fertility and age so i hope she has some answers and the positive opk is worrying me a high LH is as bad as a high FSH but can be a sign of an ovarian cyst i thought as my AF was on time after my ivf then this month would be fine to.
I found my injections hurt more after a few days but what helped was to pinch the skin fairly hard where you inject and the orgalutran isnt as had as it looks because it is a blunt needle you have to push a bit harder and my first one stung like buggery afterwards but the others were ok i had 9 orgalutran in total very expensive $100 a pop

T-hope fingers crossed for you.

Lovechild-when you posted at 12:14am our time when we are all asleep what time is it over there i guessing as i having my morning cuppa you are sound alseep.

AFM-Still no sign of AF lots of period cramping but have had that for almost 2 weeks now as i said to murrycod i will speak to my FS tomorrow i dont have a regular doctor the 2 i have had up and moved country so now i go to a practice where there is 6 south african Dr's all nice but i dont have a regular one for baby making.

Ferrals4 : Lately i haven't been able to sleep...so i play online and surf around..
Right now its 6:45 PM.. Eastern time..U.S.A

Hello all! It's been a while since I was here last - although I've been keeping an eye on you. Too many details to catch up on. You don't post for a while, then you put off posting because there's too much and it's too hard. And then you don't know what to say.
I actually feel a bit of a fraud posting here, considering I can't even ttc until my hcg goes back to >5. And it is taking it's sweet time. 73 days after Peanut died, my HCG was still 96. I'm sick of blood tests. I'm sick of sitting around not knowing what I'm waiting for, or how long I will be waiting. Atleast with the TWW you know it's just 14 more days, just 13 more days.
And on that note, I have ALWAYS waited until the end of the TWW to test. ALWAYS! (I still over analyse every little niggle though - my female pooch peed more when I was UTD, so I would even watch that!)
Love to everyone out there - the old, the new and the inbetween. Here's to 2010, the year of the "better than 2009"! :hug: to all!

Hello Cookie36
I hope things get better for you...
I go tomorrow to get my blood work for the doctor on Jan7th.. Then i will know more about what i can do next even though we are TTC now. and its only been 6 days since we lost our tinyangel.. im not sure if i feel lost and wanting to do this so soon cause i want to fill that emptiness in me.or if im actually ready... little confused i guess... which made me think that maybe my hcg are still little high to even ttc,since we just lost the baby...:shakehead:
So i will let you all know tomorrow the numbers cause im calling the Hospital to ask..lol i gotta know b4 the 7th..

:bluedust: to all TTC and praying for the ones that lost a :angel:

Hey guys,
im so sorry i havent been posting, just having a couple of "moments" and didnt feel up to it but after some kind words from one of the lovely ladies in here ( you know who you are!!!) i remembered that we are all going through the same thing!
I have been silently reading just never posted.. I will attempt these persies but so much has happened so i am not sure if i will get to every one lol:redface:

Firstly Congrats on the BFP's ladies!!! well done
Sunbeam- i am so sorry to hear of your loss

TTCALC- welcome to the group, i am really sorry taht you have found you way here but all the ladies on here are super supportive, I hope your stay is short!

Ferrals- I have no idea what to say to you! I hope that the FS has something helpful to say and that this is short lived and your BFP shows up soon

Murraycod- im so glad you have all your sruff and you are well underway in your cycle!
i hope the injections are not treating you too bad, think of the outcome!!! and by the way i luv ya!!! lol

SPF- i have my fingers crossed that you just teasted too early... good luck!!!
to everyone else in the WAABW or TWW for the patient ones how are you going???

Cookie- i hope thoes levels drop really soon for you. dont feel like a fraud... for the first month i was in here i wasnt even DTD ROFL ROLF least you have a reason you cant activly TTC yet lol

AFM- I am not doing too bad...i finaly got myself a ticker!! Life has been pretty hectic around here but in a way that is good cause you dont have much time to think about things. we have been DTD every second day... figured taht will keep DH happy then i didnt have to keep track of my cycle so much lol I do have a question tho... i am3 day Before O and i have spotting... is that normal? will i still O? its not so much spotting i guess, more like bron CM sorry TMI.. it is really weird... Anyways i better go i have some sick kids here today!

~Mummyof4~ thanks sweetie im sure i'll stick be around if we do get another chance of conceiving :dance:

Goodluck with you Big "O" in 3 days i'll be :pray: for ya and the rest of ya!!

TTCALC - Good luck with the blood draw - are you having any testing done on your angel? You and I will have to invent a "return to normal" dance. I think the fact that you're questioning your motives is a positive sign that you're dealing with reality, which is the main thing.
Mummyof4 - I've read there are a lot of women who spot before ovulation - probably just a little something that didn't get packed in AF's suitcase when she left town, getting washed away with the usual o flood. Or it could be a little tearing from all that dancing!
AFM - I'm glad Christmas has passed - dealing with the fact that I should have being pushing and screaming was pretty tough - especially with everyone pushing pushing pushing me to "chin up" and celebrate Christmas. I got through it by thinking '2010 will be my year, I will have a baby in 2010'. But, with how slowly my hcg's are dropping, they wont hit 0 in time for me to conceive in time. :shakehead:

Cookie
Thanks....&& I'm not sure how they are going to do that now..:(
See this is actually the first time something like this has happen to me since we been TTC for 9 yrs.. and they are calling it a Blighted Ovum.. but deep down i think they misdiagnosed me wrong cause when i passed everything on Dec 29th it looked like something that was trying to form.. so i called and she[doctor] said to let it go that it wasn't nothing.. I even told her i only bleed for 4days after the fact that i was told on Dec 22/09 it all started on Dec 26,27,28, and then passed on Dec 29th.. then no bleeding on Jan 30 or 31st.. then bleed on Jan 1st the nothing since then..

I have alot of questions to ask on Jan 7th... its all confusing at times when i read about others since im new to losing a child and even TTC for a very long time...

Like you said you think 2010 is your year im thinking that to ,isnt that crazy..lol
anita

Hey everyone!

wow, it's only been about a week, and i'm lost!! so much catching up to do!

Hello and welcome to all the new names I haven't had the pleasure to meet yet. sorry that you are joining us here after loss, but it's always great to have other wonderful ladies to share our experience with.

AFM - i'm over halfway in the 2ww now. I'm trying to wait til Saturday at least until i test (AF is due Monday).. but i'm feeling really positive about this cycle! My boobies are soooooo sore, heavy and growing! Loads of veins appearing on my bbs too. TMI warning - my IBS is now at severe (which happens when i fall pregnant), and i've had AF-style cramping for about 4 days now. So yeah, I'm trying to wait til Saturday... but i'm just feeling really good about this one and i'm excited to see a BFP. Ok, I could be getting my hopes up... and i don't wanna do that... but if i'm not pregnant, my boobs are trying to tell me something else! cos this isn't normal AF soreness.

I hope you are all well.. sorry i don't have much time to make personal comments just now, i was just too excited at my symptoms that i wanted to share it with someone. I can't wait to test.

Talk soon my lovelies!

Ciara my Darling I have my fingers and toes crossed for you, those symptoms sound very promising!!!!! Good luck with the rest of your Week And A Bit Wait :lol:
(thanks for sharing X)!!!XXX

TTCALChild best of luck for tomorrow babe, I hope and pray that you get some positive feedback and answers to what is going on with that body of yours!X

Cookie geez the HCG in your system is certainly taking it's time getting back to base line, sorry it is such a long wait. Is there a reason it is taking so much time to get down?? Or is it meant to be normal?? When I MC I only had the one BT to confirm my little one had gone, it was at 280. I never got another BT after that.

Mummyof4 the spotting does seem weird if you have not O yet, no answers from me sorry! All I know is that there are a few bodies lurking around here that are not doing as they are told, and should start!!!!

Speaking of which, Ferrals how's it going hun?? Glad that FS will ring you tomorrow, hopefully they can order some bloods or something!!!
Can I ask you a TMI question???? Thanks:D Anyways, I have been so constipated for 4 days, like can do a tiny bit, but it's like hard and like rabbit poo :redface: Is this normal??
It's so hard to push properly, and I recon if I did push any harder, i'd burst the blood vessels in my cheeks!!!!:redface: OMG how embarrased am I now!X

Ric, I feel like I have a bunch of grapes on each overy!!!! But I am trying to be patient, but only kidding myself!! XX
Hope you are well honey XX

Be back later girls, had best go cook DH tea XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

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