Trying to Conceive after Miscarriage/Loss - January 2009

Sure am a Pisces ladies :D but only just! My birthday is the 23rd Feb babymiracles, so we are very close! Actually my DH is also a Pisces too LOL His birthday is the 28th Feb. Tis handy having our birthdays close together though, just have the one celebration - it will be on DH's birthday this year. So Jen, when is your birthday? Being a Pisces is soooo cool hey? ;)

babymiracles - I had a couple of follow up HCG and prog tests to see how things were rising, but TBH I ended up stopping because I just found it way too stressful :( My first HCG (15 DPO) was 184, and we did another one 4 days later and it was only 372 and my prog went from 100 to 57. So of course I panicked because the HCG had not doubled in 48 hours and the prog had dropped, even though the FS was happy with my results. Then I had another test 3 days later and the HCG was in the 900's and the prog 47, so while I was still a bit worried about the dropping prog, the HCG was reassuring and of course the FS thought everything was just peachy - he was happy as long as the prog was over 30. He was really reassuring actually, said he was only worried that I was worried :)

I'm sure the first results were affected by stopping the Pregnyl for LP support - maybe there was a little bit of Pregnyl in the first HCG result and it was also keeping the prog levels up? Then when I had the 2nd test it's effect had worn off - hope that makes sense?

Anyway, after all that we decided no more tests because I just couldn't handle it. My clinic do the same as yours, a scan at 7 weeks. But a few days before I was due for the scan, I had some spotting and panicked again :( We went in for the scan the next day (6w6d) and all was good and my BT that day showed HCG of 37000 and prog of 70.

So to cut a long story short, personally I wouldn't do the blood tests again because it stressed me out more, but I do think that it depends on your personality too. Some people just need the reassurance early on that everything is OK and are happy to deal with the added stress, or maybe it stresses them out more by not knowing how things are going KWIM? And others are like me and find that they can't deal with the extra worry. I don't know, its a difficult decision to make, all I can say is do what you are comfortable with - no testing or testing. And if you go for the testing and can't cope with the worry, ditch it.

Anyway, after the 7 week scan the clinic passed me on to my ob, who I saw at 8 weeks. He sees ladies who have had a m/c for the first appt at 8 weeks vs. 12 weeks for everyone else. If you want to see your ob earlier than 10 weeks I would just ask, I'm sure they will be happy to do whatever you want - mine was :) Then I saw him again at 10 weeks, then 12 weeks, and next time at 16 weeks. I wanted the 10 week visit (it was an extra) for reassurance because between 8 and 12 weeks was when we lost our baby :(

Sorry for the essay, but hope it helps you decide :)

Megsmum - thanks so much for that. I know what you mean that if i have blood tests and it isn't very close to what I calculate it should be it will add a whole lot of extra stress. Not sure what to do. Will probably go with the blood test next monday and then decide what to do from there. I think the key is going to be trying to take one day at a time. So appreciate you taking the time to give such a detailed response. It means a lot. Thankyou :hug:

Sounds like a good plan to me :) At least you can have the one test to reassure you and depending on how you deal with it, then decide whether or not to have more before your scan. But yep, I had to keep reminding myself to take it one day at a time, and also that there is more chance of this one working out than not. Just because the worst happened last time doesn't mean that it will happen again - well that's what I constantly told myself anyway (and still do tell myself)!

Good luck with the BT and happy to help :)

Grrr.... just lost 2 posts in a row.... one wasn't my fault, the second was a stupid error that WAS my fault! :angry: I'm giving this one last try...



babymiracles--It was rach's DH that's a Pisces! :doh: Had to go back a couple pages to figure out my confusion--it bugs me when I mix things up like that! megsmum, my b-day is Mar. 6th. Now I have a question for you girls... do you find that you're very similar to any of these Pisces traits?

"Your emblem, the Fishes, shows your duality. The contrast between the opposing sides of your personality is quite startling. One side of you is heroically romantic, wistful, imaginative, sensitive, sexually fulfilled, perceptive, creative, intuitive, even transcendental, while the other is depressive, masochistic, melancholy, frustrated, guilt-ridden, filled with self-loathing and a general doormat."

Have to :rofl: at the doormat part... that is SO me! In fact, for the most part... it's like they're watching me! How the hell do they know so much about me?!?! It's a little creepy! :lol:



Oh, and megsmum--love, love, love the ticker!!! :hug:

Jen - that is incredible - the description is me to a tee (except maybe the doormat - have got very good at saying no the older I have gotten!) I think that is the best description of a pisces that I have ever seen. Amazing :clap:

Megsmum - very nice to see your ticker and such a lovely one at that :dance:

Thanks girls, I decided that it was about time that I just bit the bullet and did the ticker. Actually I was a bit surprised when it said 12 weeks and 5 days! I can't believe I'm almost 13 weeks :doh:

As for the Pisces traits, I reckon I have a few of the first lot but mostly not! LOL Same with DH - we are actually both scientists which is so NOT Piscean LOL I would say that out of the first lot about the only 2 that fit me are creative (with my hands, craft and such, but not in any other way - writing or stuff) and sensitive (take things to heart easily :rolleyes:). Same with DH, although he is not so crafty as I am. And we are certainly not sexually fulfilled ATM!! :tmi:

As for the rest of the traits - all the negative type ones - they are me all over!! I guess I'll just have to join you in being a doormat Jen! :rofl: Hmmm, maybe I'm not masochistic though......:rofl:

I :rofl: about the masochistic part, too... DF likes to give me a hard time about it, asking me if I'm feeling particularly masochistic today, and what not.... :rolleyes: He wishes! :rofl: Yeah, I haven't got many of the favorable characteristics... the ones that are very similar are definitely perceptive, sensitive, intuitive... and yes, :redface: I'm fulfilled! ;) What do you suppose transcendental is? But the others... not so much! The negative ones are the ones that are eerily similar to me!!! :doh:

Hello everyone,
Its been over a month since i was last on here. Was busy with xmas-new year we were also away. Finally managed to get DP to agree on engagement party date so its all set for 14th Feb have been busy organising that.


HUGE CONGRATULATIONS to all those :bfp:'s. All the best the upcoming months.

Well i'm in the TWW. CD 31 and 8 DPO. I'm not getting my hopes up. I'm actually thinking on giving up. Not count days or anything. Just hope it happens liked my 1st. We weren't trying and it just happened.

Hi all, just wanted to tell you I got my progesterone blood test results. It was 41! yay so it means Ive ovulated so I will know within the week if I am preggers! Im trying not to get my hopes up but am really glad the clomid drugs made me ovulate! When I was pregnant with our angel baby my progeserone was only 23 so Im hoping cause this is higher it means something positive!!!
The next week will kill me waiting to do a test! Never thought I would be so over the moon to know I actually ovulated!

Does anyone lse know much bout progesterone levels on day 21 (well my bt was on day 20 actually) does this sound hopeful? when do you think I should do a HPT?

tutmae - Glad things are going well. LOL at Charlie kicking her dad.

meh - Good on you for seeking help. I hear good things about SANDS but have never gotten the nerve up to give them a call. I'm glad they were able to help you through a tough time.

Theresa - I hope you feel better soon. Take care. :hug:

shortcake - My doctor explained that you're lining is fairly well stripped after a D&C so it can take awhile to build back up again. Calling your doctor is a good idea though if you're concerned. I hope you get an answer soon.

Leyza - Glad you and Jelly Bean are doing well. Wow! Over halfway now.

jen - Hi :2ww: buddy. AF is due Monday (provided my cycle is 28 days). Since my last two cycles have been longer, I'm going to try to hold off until AF is 5 days late, so will be testing on Friday (6/2).

RRK - My periods have been different (heavier) since my m/c, although 5 cycles on they are starting to get more like they were before. I don't think there is such a thing as a normal period post m/c, but I'm also interested to know what some of the other ladies think. It might also be different if you had a D&C or miscarried naturally.

rach - I can't help with your FF question, but just wanted to send some :bluedust: your way. I'm :pray: you get your BFP this month.

megsmum - Thanks for getting up the courage to put up a ticker. Now I can watch your progress. As for when to tell people, only you can know when you're comfortable enough to do that. :goodluck:

babymiracles - :stickyvibesgirl: Goodluck with the test results next week.

princess - :crossfingers: that this TWW ends with a BFP for you. At least you have a party to plan to take your mind off it (hopefully).

erybery - Its seems you, jen and I are all TWW buddies! Yay for great prog levels. Hoping you get a BFP next week.

Mel - You've been quiet lately. How are you?


:hello: to smi, chappas, Ruthie, Toccara, WTH, Easha, mollycat, jenushka, krystie, adele, possums, polly, HannahS, fifi, plc, ajc, issy, mannie, buliej and anyone not mentioned.

Hey pretty ladies,

Thought I would check in and say hi. Haven't had the chnce to read through the many pages since I last logged on but if there are any BFP's then wooohoooo!!

Being preggers is still a little surreal - haven't told the family yet just one friend who I used to regularly have a few drinks with - there was no point in making up some excuse cause she knows me too well. I haven't plucked up the courage to introduce myself in the PAML thread yet...... strange I know.

I have my ultrasound on Friday and will jump on and let you know all the details... it MUST be all ok, it just MUST :pray::pray:

Anyway can't keep my eyes open past 9:30pm these days so am off to bed.

Hugs to you all

Hello everyone

Just a quick one - can I say I am not very fond of the image verification tacker at the moment - I could hardly read one of the words at all!!! Hmmm - then again could be me not them...:rolleyes:

RRK - I'm so sorry you have suffered loss - I understand - I'm 39 and when I lost my little one last year so much pours through your head and you just don't need someone piping up with your worst fears or uncertainties when you are so raw and there is so much else to process besides their judgements. With our pg now - I have not been game to do a ticker yet and we are trying to keep a low profile until our 9 wk/12 wk milestones are behind us - it is almost like I feel I might jinx our luck - silly but it seems sane at the time. I hope you find greater support than you have with some of the people in your life.

OMG - Babymiracles - :bluecheer::cheer: - this is so wonderful!!! You keep that BFP rollercoaster going - may you have a H & H pg - sorry had to stop for a minute DD has just entered with an icepack on her eye having mothed her way into a glass door :doh:

Meh - may relief come quickly with AF in her viperous mood - love that you make your own bread - that is epic - my juggling has never been refined to the point of letting that one in the door!

Jen805 - we've almost got to get an award up for your efforts!

AFM - had resolved not to let work lead me into meltdowns and totally blew it on Monday with a classic tanty over not being able to find stuff for school - how bloody sad is that?? Trying to put it down to the hot weather but even I think that's a bit lame...

Oooopppppppss - just looked at the time - better go..

Much love to everyone - may good health and warm spirits (pick what form you prefer) be with you

Karen van

princess--Welcome back, it's been a while! Congrats on setting a date for your engagement party! How romantic to have it on Valentine's Day! Hope it helps distract you from your :2ww:



erybery--Yay for Clomid! So happy for you that your BT showed you O'ed!! I'm sorry, I don't know anything about Prog. levels, but hopefully one of the other girls can help you out with that question. But Hannah's right, looks like we're all cycle buddies!! Some :pink-babydust: for us all!!!



HannahD--I'm supposed to test on the 6th, as well!! :crossfingers: and saying lots of :pray: for you, cycle bud! *hugs*



Easha--Saying lots of :pray: for a great u/s on Friday!! I'm sure it's going to be perfect, and I can't wait to hear all about that little :heartbeat: Big *hugs* for you and even more :stickyvibesgirl:



Karen van--Sending you some *hugs* and bucket loads of :stickyvibesboy:

Hey all just thought I'd check in ... Don't want to offend anyone by coming on here to say Hello.
Just to let you know that at christmas we found out that we are having a little boy... I am now 25 weeks and 3 days pregnant. Wishing you all to get your BFPs!!!

Rach and baby Joshua (in utero)
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Ok, girls, some of you will recognize this list.... for the newbies, just thought you could use a laugh!! This is a list we made up several months ago--we all had an input, so let me know if you think of anything else that can be added!!


You know you're addicted to BB when:



1. You sign a 2-year contract and pay $60 more per month just to have wireless internet service for a 5 day camping trip!

2. Your significant other walks in on you checking the position of your cervix, and actually gets turned on from it! :rofl:

3. You resort to becoming an adult film industry advocate in order to "keep things alive" during those fertile times! :bd:

4. You read, post, and then refresh to read again in case you missed a post while posting!

5. You dream of being the first to post in the new thread!

6. You feel like you are wasting urine when you don't pee on a stick!

7. You see abbreviations in everyday life and try to work out what they mean in the TTC world (eg. DVD must stand for something like "Doing the vjay vjay dance"...)

8. When you get excited about choosing a new ticker....oh the choices!!!!!

9. You actually think in emoticons and abbreviations...and occasionally call your husband DH....and he says, "what the hell did you call me????".

10. And the biggest one of all....DH actually asks if it was a light or dark "BFP" and whether or not you used "FMU" to test!!!! (all in abbreviations...)

11. When getting a coverline makes you so happy, you feel as though you won the lottery! :hooray:

12. When you look forward to going to bed just so you can wake up in the morning and add a new temp!

13. You say you are taking a break from bb and then spend 24 hours trying to do anything but log on, including cleaning, washing, ironing, shopping, all the while saying to yourself don't do it don't do it don't do it before finally breaking down and getting your bb fix...

14. You drag yourself out of bed at 6 am every morning even though you're still tired, just to have "quiet alone time" on BB while the kids are still sleeping!

15. You get the butterflies while logging on to read posts! :leap:

16. You keep your computer on all day long so you know as soon as someone has made a post!

17. You know you are addicted to BB when you go to put the date on something and you end up writing 9 DPO! lol...

18. You're whole day is ruined just because you can't log onto BB, and you feel like you're going to go insane without it! :computer:

19. You climb a slide and drive up the tallest hills at your camp spot trying to find a signal so your laptop will work! lol...

20. You bring your laptop to the drive-in with you so you can check on posts in between shows!

21. You check your chart at least every half hour, because what if somehow it changed?

22. You wake up at 2:30 in the morning to use the toilet, and contemplate logging on to see if there's any good news that can't wait until morning!

23. You wake up at 3 a.m. and have to pee so bad, but you know you'll wake up at 6, so you hold it for three more hours so that you don't ruin your temp!

24. You toss and turn every morning waiting for it to be time to take your temp!

25. When DH comments that he's your family, not the girls on BB! (What does he know, anyway? lol...) :rolleyes:

26. You sign on from your mobile phone to let off some steam!

27. You post 3 times in a row, and twice was just because you ran out of smilies!!!

28. When you're reading and typing posts in your dreams! :asleep:

29. When sitting on the couch watching TV, you position yourself so that you can see the computer screen so you know as soon as a message pops up! Not only that, but you end up watching the computer screen more than the TV!

30. You run to check posts during an ad break of a show you're watching, then an hour later you realize you missed the end of your show!

31. When new smilies make you smilie!!

32. When you stop a movie during the sex scene because it reminds you to check BB!

33. When you burn your dinner because you're too busy checking your posts! D'oh!

34. When you begin stalking people's charts and keeping up with their BD stats!

35. When you've got more than one (3) fertility charts--just to make sure you really know what's going on with your cycle!

36. When you feel jealous that your kids are on your computer taking up your BB time!!

37. When class is about to start and you're quickly typing away at the back on the computer, hoping the kids don't see what you are typing!!

38. When the chat room makes you feel like a kid in a candy store! *moo*, *meow*, *evil* lol...

39. When you wish the week away, not so the weekend comes, but so you can catch up with all your fav girlies in Friday Chat! :dance:

To all my girls.. thank you for your well wishes with my mum. I spoke to her last night and she is trying to work something out with the doc so she doesn't have to go under the knife... the doc said there is a med that can dissolve the calcium buildup but it has a process... my mom made it clear she would be willing to do anything to avoid the knife.. and I don't blame her. when she had her first surgery on her breast it was awful and she was in much pain and very miserable. :(
SOoooo.... so far all looks like she doesn't need the surgery. Just praying those meds really get rid of the "mass".

AFM:.. I'm trying so hard to keep up with the positiveness.. but today I think I cracked. Seeing that AF has NOT shown up since my D&C on 9/12/08 kinda pulls down my hopes.. because that only indicates that Everything is wrong inside of me.:redface:
My BBS hurt on and off.. and for what?.. cuz I know it's not AF, not even PMS, not even a chance of ovulation. so what's the point of them hurting??..To make me feel all worse???!!
I'm still literally running after the mailman in hopes those HI cards get here and they STILL haven't. It all makes me nervous and more anxious in a bad way.. because if this doesn't happen... if anything turns out that I don't get those.. then it will really burst my bubble and my chances of conceiving w/o a FS are slim to none.
that scares me.

Oh yeah.. remember how I told you gals about my friend who had an abortion around what October last year??.. She is pregnant again and considering the same thing again!!!!!:wall:
I have no comment on that one.. as I was so upset last time..this time around??..GO FIGURE!:rolleyes:

**sssssssssssssssiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigggggggg gggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh**

I'm desperate.. not depressed yet.. just worried, anxious, nervous, paranoid, drained.. yeah I like the last one.. DRAINED.

The day I walk into that FS office and sit down..let it all out... see what the plans are for me??..that's the day I will be brighter than the sun. that and of course the day I'm way over 12 weeks (my "walking on thin ice" 1st trimester) and with a healthy LIVE baby.
That's when I think I will believe it will happen. (daydreaming .....)

**POP** woke up! REALITY HITS ME AGAIN!:doh:

***siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiighhhhhhhhhhhh**... Please pray the HI gets here this week... I never knew I was ever going to say this.. but FOR THE LOVE OF GOD AF PLEASE COME!!!!!!!!:wall:


That's it for now..

RRK: Welcome.. and no you are not in the wrong post.Don't be ashamed to talk about your miscarriage... your angel is nothing to be ashamed about.. in fact our angels are quite precious. You are among friends. I hope you find comfort and love like I have with the awesome girlies here! My heart goes out to you. I'm so sorry for your losses. I wish you the very best on your TTC journey.

Karen: Congrats on your BFP!!! Well done hun!! Wishing you a H& H 9 months and baba!

Jackjack:... hugs to you love. It's ok to let it all out hun. Otherwise we would lose our sanity!

AJC: OMG.... your baba was born 2 days from my little Erick.(born on 12/16/04) AND AT 34 WEEKS!!.. how about that??
that's so weird/cool.

Chappas, shortcake: (hugs) thank you for your sweet comments ♥


Rach: good luck hun CATCH THAT EGGIE!!!!

Jen: crossing my fingers for ya ♥ I simply love you girl..thank you for cheering us all on...and even if we are both fighting the same demos... it really feels good that someone like you radiates sunshine of positiveness to us all. God bless you mama! ♥

Megsmum: That is WONDERFUL sweet mama!! I too will hold my breath till I'm 12 weeks since I've lost all my babies before that.
My best wishes going your way!! To a H&H 9 months and baby!


SMi: Good luck hun..glad your results aren't that bad. Hoping things go well for ya.

Erybery: I know JUST how you feel hun..many of us if not all know how that feels.
I hope you have to wait no more and get your BFP! CLomid has been my miracle pill.. if the docs monitor your prog. levels and aid you when needed.. I'm pretty positive you will have your little bean in no time!



baby miracles!!! CONGRATS HUN!! Here's to a H&H 9 months and baby!!!!

Tut: Hugs

Meh: Hang in there girly... I'm crossing my fingers for you.

leyza: hi sweets..long time. HUGE Hugs 4 ya.

Princess85: welcome back hun.I'm wishing you the best of luck this month!!!

Easha: I'm praying your scan will bring nothing but GOOD NEWS!!


To my preggo girlies: :bellyrubs:

TO my TTC buddies: :bluedust:

Ruthie

Hey Rachel!! Long time no talk to! Congrats on your progressing pg'cy, and YAY, :itsaboy: Big :bellyrubs: for little Joshua!! :stickyvibesboy: Thanks for popping in and letting us know how you're doing!! *hugs*

Jen I have another one for your list!

When you wish the week away, not so the weekend comes, but so you can catch up with all your fav girlies in Friday Chat! :dance: (even tho i'm at work most weeks, but still manage it ;))

I'm sure i can think of some more - give me time, baby brain in full gear!

Hope everyone ok. Have my 28 week midwife app tomorrow so hopefully all should be ok. Bub is a little active thing. it feels like it's trying to escape!