Trying to Conceive After Miscarriage or Loss March 2010

hello chickens!

goodness, its only been 12 hrs since i was last on and im still behind! I need to quit my job!!! Wishful thinking! :lol:
Dory - beautiful Dory, its so good to hear from and im thrilled to hear that your procedure went well and bubs is good! And just as importantly - your doing good too:hug:!!! Im feeling good atm, had my meltdown and now Im coping again! Just needed a good cry i think! and yes, your right - Alice said some beauitiful words and she truly helped me that day! Yes - Alice - you really did!! :hug:
rose - welcome - im sorry for your loss and i pray that your time here is short. look after yourself, its a tough road to be on but please know that you are not walking it alone, we are right behind you xx
ferrals - im remaining positive for you! :pray:
spf - how are you going sweetness? Must be getting close to you 12 wk scan right??
kit - whats news with the kitty-cam??? anything to report down your end?? ;)
matthewsmum - good luck tomorrow - you'll be in my thoughts! I hope it really is a Good Friday for you!
wouldloveabubba- excellent news about the follies! all the best for monday! keep us posted!
loops - hope your bt goes well today and is back to 0!!
crafty - hows the knitting going??

afm - im good, last day of work for 10days :hooray: I cant wait to get ouotta here today! New 5y/old nephew is coming over tonight for a sleep over! He's so excited! Very cute! But I know deep down he really only wants to come over and play Super Mario on the Wii! Because I am soooo ace at it! :dance: Im his hero! hehehe! I clocked the game a while ago and we was so excited, he wanted to take me in for show n tell! He was so proud of his aunty!

a close g/f of mine emailed me today, she asked how I was going... forgotting where i was i wrote bac -
"Yeah im ok, unfortunatly is was another BFN for us but at least AF arrived on time and has been kind! Going to buy some OPK's tonight (they give me my POAS fix), getting ready for O'time! DH and I are gunna get it this month and BD like crazy! BFP, ready or not, here I come!!!"
She wote back - "WTF??? your seriously weirding me out!"
hehehehhehe! I forgot she doesnt speak our language!!! :rofl: Gosh it made me giggle! Least you guys can crack my code!?!

xx

Ferals i am keeping everything crossed for you hunny, and checking in twice a day to see if youve tested and got those 2 beautiful lines. I understand your fear of getting a BFP so late after your experience with abbie but just remember that every pregnancy is different, I had BFN right up untill the day AF was due and then even the day she was due the 2nd line was so so faint that i didnt even know whether to believe it or not. I am hoping and praying that you will be moving over to a pg thread very very soon
All my love hun xoxoxo
Hello to everyone else, im also praying that you all receive BFP's very soon :)

Thanks for the welcome guys.

Hi Rose ~ its great to have another newbie in here but sorry you are and not in Pg threads. GL on your journey, FX for you.

T-hopes ~ LOL, that is so funny. I start doing that to people and then I go hang on a min they will have no clues what Im on about.

Ferrals ~ I understand what you mean but I really hope even if it is faint line, that the little emby is a fighter, all the best.

GL everyone

Wow im sooo behind .. So sorry ladies i been soooooo Busy and then im soo exhausted..
5 kiddos in the house and then going to school, and doing everything a child needs.. DF is back to work ( thank gawd ) he was stressing...LOL

My Lil neice Alyse is having surgery tomorrow above her eye on her eyebrow she has a cyst big as a pea so they want to remove it since its close to her optical..
So keep us in yoru prayers on that please.. she is only 7 and been thru alot.
last surgery was Ear tubes, first one was her teeth this one is her 3 rd time under..
I dont like the idea she is so young and had 3 already...

Im still going for my Surgery on the 29th it got changed since we got court of the 22nd for custody of my step son and his lil sister..

Its been crazy around here...lol I do designs online,and run a support site that i created and founded ..Been having alot of meetings and court hearings for the 2 kids we have alot been going on so you can say i been soo busy.. I been :Juggle: you can say...LOL
no personals tonite :( sorry all
T-Hopes I wanted to say to you though that you cracked me up reading your post about sending a reply back to your friend..LOL that would of made me giggle like you ..glad to see that it put a smile on your face..

Best wishes to you all TTC...and Stickyvibes for you all..
Sorry for anyone's loss my heart goes out to you!

Much love to all and BIG HUGS FOR ALL!
Anita

Hi guys, I fingured it was about time I joined you guys. I've been putting it off for months since my chem in Jan (I've actually been dreading joining this thread... My stupid pride kept getting in the way...), but after losing Angel #6 in early march I started thinking that maybe I should join as I'm struggling a bit (pride again has gotten in the way).

DH & I are trying for #2 together, we have a DS, and I have 4 angels from before meeting DH and we now have 2 angels together, so my history isn't the best.

We haven't had any real tests so far, just an internal u/s after the chem to check for any retained product as I was cramping constantly, and a progesterone test on CD 26 last cycle which came back at 12.1 when it was supposed to be 15 or higher, so I have to start thinking about looking into that.

This cycle, the first after the mc has been really weird. I O'd on cd16, which is my average O day, but other than a sharp rise on cd17 my temps have been really low.
I started taking B-Vitamins early last week too, and I've read that they can cause lower temps, but I haven't heard about temps being as low as mine post O (36.2, 36.3 is very very low), so it's really odd.

Sending baby dust and sticky vibes to everyone else!

Rose - welcome and good luck. Hope you get your BFP soon.

T-hopes - hilarious. I know what you mean though, I have almost done that, but caught myself. We do speak our own little language huh? Glad you rock at SuperMario. I was ROTFl about the thought of you being taken to show and tell with a bunch of 5yo's. Actually, I think its very cool and I am a wee bit jealous. I loved those times with my neice and nephew. Live it up it doesn't last.

Jenna - hey there. Look at you courageous girl. In no time you'll be sharing TMI about CM and BDing efforts, days of cycle, etc etc! What the?... you already are. Good to see you here. You'll feel very welcome here, I always do. Sorry to hear you are doing it so tough, but you honestly will find women always willing to listen, give you their support and share some of the crazy aspects of this journey. Hope you're not in here too long. Take care.

Ferals - Deep breaths girl. Have to say I am excited........

Bons - thanks!

AFM - here is some really good news - I have some medical opinion that chocolate is good for you. So enjoy yourselves over the weekend and take care.

afternoon all & happy easter to everyone, jennajayen-sorry for your losses,glad you decided to chat with us,hope you get your next bfp soon..ttalovechild-hope all goes well with your & your nieces surgerys..loops-how did the bt go?yes the synarel is part of the meds fs put me on for my 1st cycle of ivf...eliselouise-hope all moving along nicely...t-hopes-i've had to stop myself using bb talk when speaking to others...wouldloveabubba-sounds like a great number of follicles,wishing you the best of luck for Monday...mildez-i'll still cross my fingers for you..rose123-sorry for your loss,hope you get another bfp sooner than later...possummagic-how are you?was the opk positive?..alice-glad af has finished,hope the pathology results are in some way a help to you,i know part of me should of been strong enough to request/demand testing to be done on matthew's body,i think it may of helped me in the long term...thank you ladies for the reassurance & support in regard to ivf ?'s i've had the last few days.You have so much knowledge,i wish it had not had to be learned though.

Rose: Ack the first time trying again is tough! Best of luck sweetheart, you'll soon feel at home here!

Loops: Thank you for the good wishes, mwa! How did your blood test go?

Dory: LMAO! I can just imagine your DH walking in and being pounced on by you, love it! I hope cadbury creme eggs are included in that chocolate is good for you opinion! BD marathon was fun, except that *whispers* by the end, if I wanted to get to sleep at 11 we practically had to start BD at 8! It was insane! And it turns out saying ''Hurry up!" was not helpful.

Possum Magic: I love bad jokes! Keep em coming!

Mildez: Eep! Sometimes the pain can be referred? So even if it feels like it's from one side it's actually from the other? I hope your in the TWW for real real babe.

Ferrals: Still no AF? *cautious perhaps mildly excited dance maybe?*

Bons: Nom nom chocolate! Have a brilliant easter with lots of relaxing and yummy food!

Wouldloveabubba: Yay for 13! Let us know how they progress, fingers crossed!

T-hopes: LOL! I do that too! Or I assume that everyone who's TTC knows the lingo, turns out no.

EliseLouise: Hey! Glad your going well xo

TTCALC: Oh your poor lil niece! Gosh you guys must be having a super busy easter! 5 kids + chocolate! GL for the surgery, we'll be thinking of you xo

JennaJayen: Oh sweetheart it sounds like you've had such a heartbreaking path. Sounds like some tests might give you a few answers, hopefully. In the meantime, fingers crossed for a very sticky bubba xo

AFM: Still nothing. Some cramping that felt quite deep down, boobs aren't really sore, no matter how much i prod them :redface: and I dont have the creamy CM that's meant to start happening. I figure if I can make it to Monday with no AF, then I'll test. I think once the pressure of the 2010 baby is off (I'm the one that created that pressure though!) then hopefully I'll relax a bit and let it happen. DH still thinks we're in with a shot, which makes me nervous, cos I think he's gonna be disappointed.

kitfaerie-some people get a bfp when they're least expecting it,so i'm keeping my fingers crossed for you still

Kit, good luck holding out until Monday, and dont think that you are letting DH down at all, we all feel that way some months, but deep down we know it isn't true XX Anyways, try stay positive, you just never know X

Dory, I will be taking your advice and chowing down plenty of chocolate, then will have to give the treadmill a seriouse work out!!

JennaJ, sorry for your loss honey, I am glad that you have finally decided to come introduce yourself, there as you can see, is plenty of us here to help you get through this, and you don't need to feel alone X
I think I can speak for all when I say, our bodies don't seem to play fair for a while after MC, takes some getting used to beleive me, but eventually things will smooth out, and you will get that healthy baby you dream of X
Welcome XX

TTCALC, have a lovely easter with all of the kiddies, you are such a giving person to look after so many souls, so I hope yours is getting looked after too XX

Eliselouise, lovely to see you poke in every now and then, and is a comfort to know you are checking up on us girls, thank you XX I hope you are well X (and getting a pot belly)

Thopes, LMAO at you girl!!! Yay for getting 10days off, but really, you should share them around to us!!!! Lucky girl!!!!
Enjoy your little sleep over man tonight, I think it is so cute that you play the Wii together, I'm sure he is super excited XX

Wlabubba, fingers crossed for Monday, good luck sweetheart!!!!! Wow that is a HUGE number of follies you got there, enough for en EPU for IVF!!!!! Actually, more than I got!!!! Go catch those follies girl!!XX

Oh Bons how romantic!!!! I wish my Darling DH could go away sometimes, so I could appreciate him all over again!! Oh thats sooo sweet!!
Have a great time away XXXX

Ferrals darling thanks for the email back XXXXX (meltdown moment I had was a beuty girls!!) Have a Happy Birthday, don't dare go and get AF tomorrow!!!!
Oh, I think my body is copyingm yours this month, I still don't have AF, had a few cramps the other day, but have felt only niggles these past couple days, don't know where she is. Sigh.

Mildaz, at least you will be up for a chance next month then if your body decides to behave itslef XXX Or hopefully for you, it was the working side XX

MillyD huggs to you babe X

Ric, if you are lurking, come say hi, I miss you!!!!XXXXX

Sunbeam and Jahzara, missing you girls tooXX Hope you are well XX

Rose Darling welcome, I am sorry for your loss, I hope all of us crazy girls can ease some of that anxiety for you XX Glad you joined us, you will make some great friendships here, and get loads of support, I'm sure we can make your journey a little happier XX

Loops.....wow........I was holding my breath for you for so long, what an agonising time you have had. Honey I am so sorry things didn't work out XX I am sorry too deeply for your loss.
Honey if there is anything we can do, we will, so take it easy, rest up, and we can start getting mentally and physically prepared for our next shot at it. Rough road hey, the hardest ever.


Girls, I had my phone consult with FS last night, we are doing a HEAP of test this month, including a truckload of immunology testing, and NK cell testing, which involves a biopsy of my uterus...it is to test to see if I have Natural Killer Cells in the uterus, which will prevent implantation, of growth of an embryo. Normally they like you to have at least 3 unsuccessfull tries of IVF to test for this, but I sort of insisted!!
So then I will start a fresh Stim Cycle in May, with a few more questions in my head answered, and hopefully in a beter headspace by then!! XXXX
Still no AF here, but tested to BFN thismorning, so just a matter of time, I just thaught she'd be here by now because of the trigger shot I had 2 weeks ago from my cancelled FET.
Dunno, my body doesn't play fair at all.

Happy Easter everyone XXXXX

MurrayCod: You, my dear, are a wonder. I hope you know how loved you are. Best of luck with the testing, and with AF showing up promptly. May is a fabulous, fabulous month. I really hope it's yours. I hope your head is a much nicer place to be in than it was last week, be kind to yourself my dear, you have a hard path and your walking it with such grace; and your baby better be jolly grateful!

Oh guys i am so sorry to burst in here like this but i am just doing very well today
I tried to book my scan to make sure bub is ok but i cant do it. i have sat here crying all day because i am too scared to see this baby. The last scan i had was the one we found out Kyarna didnt have a heart beat and to add insult to injury the only place i can have the scan is that same place... ARGHHH i cant seem to pull myself together....
will be back soon for persies! Missing you girls heaps XXXX

one day at work and i have had a heap to catch up on.

Jennajayen-Hi sorry to you have had such a rough time there is a lot of us here now but we are a great bunch of girls and the support is great.

Dory-thanks for the confidence but i am 99% sure there is no bub in my oven.

Kitfaerie-No dancing for me nice thought hope you have some better luck.

Murrycod-I dont want my AF to turn up tomorrow and the way i feel i don't think she will show i have no period pain no nothing i feel good i even feel like jumping DH bones so not sure what is going on with my body i am over it.
Sorry you got a BFN but good news about all the tests and bring on May i will join you in a BFP thanks.
I hope you are feeling better today it's a bummer we live so far apart emails help but having a good D&M in person is so much better.

Mummyof4-you have to try and think positive that this baby will be ok Kyarna was a terrible accident there was no cause and nothing you did caused it unfortunetly nature and us humans are fragile and some things are out of our control but that does not mean for one minute that it will happen again you have 3 healthy children and i am sure this one will be to i know it is scarey i can imagine how i will be when it's my turn for my 11 week u/s and cvs i will be a mess but i have to believe what will be will be and i can't change a thing just be strong and you will get through this we are here for you.

AFM-I am still waiting for AF tomorrow is my 36th Bday one year older:cry: one year less of fertility:cry: one year closer to the big M:o and my eggs are one year older :( i am not feeling the best today DH is taking me to the easter show tomorrow if the weather is good knowing my luck AF will show and it will be pouring down with rain gee! i am real positive today these dam hormones.

Hi guys,
You are all so lovely to make me feel so welcome. Thank you. I am 6dpo now and i was so silly and pos today because i have sore boobs. I'd sware i could see a line but i know it's impossible. I bought 20 over the internet. Such a nut i know but at least i can test every day and see. I can't wait till tomorrow already. Really hopefull about the symptoms. So far i have blocked nose, stretching feeling in belly and now sore boobs.
Please please please let us all have some good news.

Chat to you all later or maybe after my next poas tomorrow. Obsessed!

Hey everyone!

Me & DF have decided to start TTC again after we lost our first lil angel last june. I'm scared and nervous but hoping for the best! will be nice to talk to all you ladies :D hope you are all well...

Hi,
I am so worried i have had chills but no fever all day. It is not like me at all i am freezing. would anyone know if this can be a pregnancy symptom or am i getting sick. I am so worried about getting ill and it effecting my cycle.
Hope you are all well and am really getting knowledge and enjoyment reading all your posts.




:pray:

Happy Birthday Ferrals - :birthday2: I hope you have a wonderful day today, or at least try to! xx

Murraycod - im thinking of you gorgeous, you are so brave! May isnt so far away, April already! Im on the countdown for may myself because of our family holiday so we will count down together!! x

rose - sounds like you may be getting sick darlin, get lots of rest, stay warm and get some vegetable juice in to you! V8 is a good one!!!

jellylove - welcome to BB, im sorry for your loss, wishing you all the best for your new journey of TTC. i can understand your fears of TTC again, im petrified myself! Although my own personal journey has been torturous, i have learnt a lot, become a better person and I am starting to master the fine art of 'patience'. I truly believe that it is better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved it all. Having said that, i wish my road had have lead to a healthy baby but am still so grateful for the 12 wks i got to carry my angel baby for! I was blessed and we all will be again. My best advice for you is try (i know its hard) to stay positive! Your body wont believe if your head doesnt! Stress is the devil and the sooner you can break free from it, the better! Look after yourself sweetheart, we have your back xx

mummyof4 - darlin, try to stay calm, breath and make that call. Go and see your baby on that screen cause the longer you delay it, the longer you torture yourself for! Everything will be ok, there is no reason why it wouldnt be! Your levels are fab so go and say hi to bubba and you'll sleep easy again! xx

matthewsmum - thinking of you today on your Great Friday!!! x

jennajayen - welcome! push that pride aside and let yourself go! We all have to leave it at the door, along with our dignity - we have lots of TMI conversations in here! lol my cycles were pretty messy after d & c too! I found chinese herbs and acupunture have helped that and i cant preach them enough! good luck with your TTC xx

TTCAlovechild - hope your nieces op went ok, poor little possum! sending you lots of love.

Bons - hope you have a nice time away at DH's parents place! xx

Hello to all that I have missed today!!!!

AFM - well day 5 for me so i start my new batch of herbs today until ovulation! Yay! Feeling excited and positive about this month! We will get it this month, im sure of it :D I had a lovely night playing Mario with my nephew! He woke up at sparrows fart this morning but we are still having a lovely time!
well i had a good dream last night... I dreamt I was pregnant and we were at out 8wk scan, i was so nervous and all of a sudden our baby was up on the screen wiggling around! It was such a great dream, i hope that its my reality very soon!
Anyway then i had another weird dream - i was in the shower with DH and Jacob (From Twilight) came bursting in and started pashing DH and told him that he was in love with him!!! WTF?? Needless to say when I woke and told DH of my dream, well lets just say I copped a stink eye and he wasnt into it!!! And that I cant tell anyone about it! hehehehe - he just wishes it was Edward!!!!! :rofl:

Have a lovely day everyone!!!! xx

Thopes, what a dream!! Whew!!! Am still an Edward girl myself!!! Oh I am addicted!!
I have ordered the new movie I can't wait to get it!!!!
I also dream that I am pregnant, and when I wake up it felt so real, can't wait for it to happen in real life.

Rose, well....girls looks like we go another POAS addict on our hands!!:lol: I am one myself LOL, the Queen actually!!!
But as easy as it is for me to give advice and not take it myself, give the Bejayjay a rest for a few days and stay away from the sticks, WAY too early girl!!!:lol:
Just enjotyany symptom you have, relax with it and go with the flow, our bodies are naughty to us remember!! And you are encouraging it by POAS every morning!!!
Dunno about the chills, hope you are not getting a cold XX

JellyLove,.........love the name!!! Welcome to BB, I am sorry for your loss darling, I hope you have taken it easy on yourself XX
Good luck TTC your healthy bundle, and hope we can ride the journey with you XX

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FERRALS WOOT WOOT!!!

afm, AF arrived thismorning and she is being kind XXX