Trying to Conceive after Miscarriage or Loss ~ February 2011

Shan - has the bleeding stopped yet or does it take a few days for the tabletss to kick in?
MM - Good luck getting your levels just right!
MummyDeb - fingers xd for an impantation dip & good news in a few days time.
phebee - wow what does it all mean???? you must be driving yourself mad wondering am I/ aren't I? Lets hope you are! I never get symptoms early on so I try not to over analyse too much. I would love to be one of these people whose bodies scream PG as soon as conception occurs :)
WBM - hang around in here as long as you like - we TOTALLY understand.
Well I got a faint BFP yesterday & then maybe a slightly darker one today with FMU BUT I am not counting my chickens yet cos I'm scared what happened last month will happen again. For 2 days after af was due I tought the line might be darker. Last month I got several faint BFPs & then a week after af was due she turned up - chemical pg/ early m/c. Needing sticky vibes gals if you've got any to spare. Anyway, can't be happy or excited yet till I see a line I am happy with.
Anyway, Melzi & anyone else I have missed - a BIG hi to you & bbl for your news x

well i must not be sitting on the right toilet yet lol congrats on all the BFP
As for me, the tablets worked last night and so hope to it and BD lol Then off to work at 6am and still no bleeding but i always keep pads in my bag and lucky I did as I was BLEEDING AGAIN!~!!!!!! so i almost ran to work crying and took some more tablets and now its going again. Im very frustrated.

Oooooh Mummytotwo!!! (In my head that sounds a little bit like Upsy Daisy...) :crossfingers: are you going to hang out to test in another week? Are you going to get a BT to see what your levels are? Can't wait til you're sure! Sooooo exciting :)

Pheebee - I hope your test gets better results in the next couple of days, but the perfect baby's out there waiting for you!

Shan, you poor bugger - so glad you had pads in your handbag! I hope it stops again soon, what a right pain in the butt. Glad you got a BD in anyway...

MummyDeb - that looks exciting! You had a drop on 8DPO last pg cycle too I see... :crossfingers:

Melz and MM I hope everything's going ok for you two.

I had a nice temp rise this morning :) so happy with that!! Fingers crossed temps stay high from now on as well!!

Yep had that dip on 8DPO last time as well which is good!!

Hope everyone is good today, got a kindy and daycare run to do soon, although I'm staying with Harley at daycare as its his last visit with me and then next Wednesday he is on his own, my baby boy is growing up sniff sniff!!

Just got another BFN. I haven't had any cramps yet but I expect AF will show up sometime today. Either that or she's a little late.

GL MummyDeb! FX for you

Shan: I always bring pads too - just in case! Hope your bleeding stops soon.

Mummytotwo: woohoo on your BFP! How's the line looking now?

Sorry everyone! I'm on my iPod & can't remember much else! Hope you all have a great day :)


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hi ladies, just called my gyno/ob and their great! Getting me in to see him tomorrow first thing before school which is wonderful. Hope to get rid of this AF. I will be throwing the provera tablets in the bin!! ill let you all know how i go

Phew.... I didn't think it would be so hard to actually join this thread... well anyway, here I am. It's exciting and scary to be here. I am looking forward to getting to know you and share your journey's.

Here's a really quick summary of my TTC journey - diagnosed PCOS in 1999, but not real efforts to TTC until our first BFP May 2008 turned to heartbreak at 8 weeks in July 2008, when sac empty on u/s - a blighted ovum, second BFP September 2008 turned to heartbreak in February 2009 when our daughter Amelia was born alive at 22 weeks gestation following a spontaneous labour, but died soon after, third BFP in May 2009 and turned to pure elation and terror when we discovered we were having twins, but heartache again, when our son Nicholas kind of just fell on out, alive, at 14 weeks, in July 2009 and absolute heartache when his twin sister, Sophie was born alive at 19 weeks gestation in August 2009, again following spontaneous labour, and then just pure wonder at our fourth BPF in January 2010 and after an overwhelming 9 months, our daughter Hannah was born safely and healthy after an emergency c section under general due to pre eclampsia and HELLP syndrome ( pregnancy induced maternal high blood pressure and its complications) in September 2010.

I am blessed, and as exciting as the though of TTC can be, I am also petrified. Whilst Hannah is here now, there was a lot of heartache to bring her here safely. Whilst I have some confidence now that I can do it, if I am honest the fear that I will be facing even more heartache is quite real and a lot scary. Well totally petrifying actually.

I have been surprised at how much I have been wanting to TTC again..... and by joining in here I am actually admitting it, to myself and others which also means I am willing to embrace the fear.

My cycle hasn't come back yet, but that's not stopping us. That little eggie could be dropping any ole time and we might just catch it. Will have to start charting and stuff again.

I am not sure how often I'll drop in, but I just wanted to admit to myself that I am actually TTC and to drop in and say hi. Does anyone have any recommendations for HPT's from the internet? I get the feeling I'll be testing a lot..... no cycle and pretty much constantly thinking things like " oh a little surge of nausea, seet I could be UTD, so I'll test".

Mathew's Mum, hope all goes well at the accupuncture. I must get back into that. I am a firm believer. Might go make an appointment now.

MummytoTwo - congrats sweetie.

Toodles for now.

Dory, welcome and so sorry for the losses of your angel babies. They are all watching over you and protecting you and Hannah and your DH.

In regards to Internet cheapy tests there is a seller on eBay (inpregnancy) who sells like 40 ovulation tests and you get 10 hpts with it for like 20 dollars. These are the cheapest most sensitive tests I've ever had. Otherwise there is lullaby conceptions... (they have their own web page) and they sell for more and not as sensitive.

Good luck and I hope you get a nice sticky bfp very Soon xxx


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Melzi - Thanks for the welcome and heads up on the OPK's and HPT's.... going to send me broke going to the chemist.... LOL.

Welcome dory and first of all... ENORMOUS HUGS for you. I am so so sorry to hear of all your precious losses :( I've only had one but that was bad enough. I can't imagine going through it so many times!! GL for your current TTC and I pray you have a lovely sticky BFP soon :)

AFM: Well the witch has arrived! So now I will be officially TTC. That one wasn't really official, though I was still obsessing by the end (lol). But now I can obsess even harder! I've made up my mind not to test until AF is late though. It's hard when you think it may be happening and you have no idea, but in not waiting, I have now wasted 2 HPTs. I have 2 left so I will try to save them for a REAL BFP. Hopefully the end of this cycle!

dory, you welcomed me to the pregnancy after m/c thread, so now I'll do the same here - the girls know I've kinda got a foot in each camp at the moment because I'm still so nervous! I hope this journey to ttc your second earthside baby is a simple, happy and healthy one with only a sticky pregnancy. :hug:

Phee - it's a bit disappointing even when you're not "officially" ttc - but at least now you get the chance to get your diet back in order so this bubs can get the best chance - and so can you!

I think the website I found is the same one Melzi's talking about for opks and preg tests. I think it was pregnancy.com or something - I just googled and bought a pack of 10opks and 5hpts. Lol, I've still got some opks, but no more hpts!

Good luck with the gyno Shan - so glad they could get you in so quickly!

Yes WBM, that's another good thing, since I STILL wasn't sticking to my diet properly! Now I have another 11 days to get it right before trying again, lol.

I'm looking forward to a nice glass of wine tonight too ;)

Thanks ladies for the congrats on the bfp - I am trying to be quietly optimistic!
WBM - yep will go to the docs in a week or so if the bfps stick around! How have you been feeling the last few days?
Dory - holy cow matey - you have been to hell & back & I can only admire your faith in the future & your desire to have another littlie. All the very best on the tough journey ahead - even if you get your bfp first go we all know about the agonising months ahead!
shan - how did you go at your obs? What did he say/ do about the bleeding?
phebee - all the best for the next cycle - lets hope it is the one for you!! Good luck getting your diet on track too.
Melzi/ Dory - lol about going broke. Between last month & this month I have spent a FORTUNE on chemist/ supermarket pg tests. I really meant to order some internet cheapies but it didn't happen.....Fertility Friend was one online co. I think I used.
MummyDeb - temps still looking good? Hope things are still on track for a BFP this cycle.
MM - whats happening with your levels? Hope it's all coming together for you!
Well I think I am starting to get few little tell tale symptoms (.)(.) starting to feel larger & I have had a tiny bit of reflux. Still not counting my chickens though for at least a few weeks & certainly not until that dreaded 12wk scan is over with. How I will get through it this time I have no idea. I will be going with the 3rd time lucky Mantra BIG TIME!
All the best to everyone else & hoping this thread is about to explode with super glue sticky BFPs. BBL all x

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All the best to everyone else & hoping this thread is about to explode with super glue sticky BFPs.

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Definitely!

I'm feeling ok, tired, but that's also cos DS isn't sleeping well. Went to the dr today, had lots of bloods including hcg. I'll get my results on Wednesday. I've made an appointment in two weeks (31 March) for an early ultrasound and my Ob the next day. But I also know there is nothing I can do to make this baby stick if it's not meant to, so I'm trying to relax as much as possible.

Dory, when I read stories like yours, I feel selfish for feeling like it's been hard. I know every m/c is tough, but I just can't imagine it, you're one very strong lady - all of the girls in here are. I am in awe of every single one of you. :grouphug:

WBM - the thing is, a loss is a loss and any loss involves heartache and a loss of a dream. If I am feeling sorry for myself, I do think "oh wow you've suffered so much", about myself. But really I honestly don't feel that way, because I honestly feel blessed. Sure there's heartache there and I a don't always have good days, but I am blessed. And it's really only when I am having a bout of self pity that I even think like that for a moment. Life is too precious and too short. In my opinion it's vain and arrogant for me to think that my loss is "worse". It isn't a competition and our emotions and responses to loss are valid and important in their own right and what is important to each of us is how we feel & respond not how someone else does ( though sometimes the way they do helps us through). Actually it makes me sad when people minimise their loss. But the funny thing is, I do it too from time to time. I honestly don't think I'm anything special, just trying cope with what has come my way in life. It's kinda crazy to just condense so many feelings and experiences of the past 3 years into a short paragraph. It is sad, what's happened and it's a tragedy. But also, birthing my children and getting to meet them, and hold them, has been the most profound, and amazing experiences of my life. I can't ever say I wish it didn't happen either, because that statement asks me to make a choice that I can't make. It goes something like this, if not for my first m/c there would not have been Amelia, and if not for Amelia, there wouldn't have been Nick and Sophie, and if not for Nick and Sophie, there wouldn't be Hannah. How can I choose between them?

Hope DS gets some better sleep tonight and that your results come back as they should. Sticky Sticky.

MummytoTwo - your symbol for sore BB's had me ROTFL. Thanks. Might use that one myself one day.. it's a really hard journey, pregnancy after loss. One thing that I have learnt and I do try to put into practice, is to be grateful for the now and to live in the now. So how does that work? Right now my dear you have your BFP and YOU ARE PREGNANT!.. We each have to find our way through, and my way wouldn't work for everyone. A friend of a friend of mine just ignored her preg. Went to scans but never acknowledged the baby at all. One of the things I do try to do is actually try to acknowledge and be thankful for what I have now. It's kinda useful in all aspects of my life. I do get swept up though from time to time in the hum drum of everyday life, but who doesn't.

M2T -

Congrats Mummy2Two :) I totally missed your part where you said you got your BFP i feel so rude!!! So happy for you and hope you have a very sticky bub :stickyvibesgirl:

Dory: I hope your TTC journey is a quick one! and you get another beautiful sticky bub just like Hannah!

AFM: My temp went up again this morning :) Sure hope it stays that way, I just wanna test but I don't wanna waste it lol, I would be testing today with my original O day but cos it changed gotta wait till either tomorrow or Sunday, will see how I go in the morning, if temp is still high will definitely test!! :)

ooh MummyDeb, temp IS looking good :crossfingers: I really hope it's a bfp.

Thanks for that Dory, you're right, how can you choose between your children. Every pregnancy, every baby we make is an individual and precious. Every person brought into existence is there for a reason and teaches us a valuable lesson regardless of how short their lives are. We're lucky in some ways, no way will we ever take our kids for granted!

Mummytotwo - what is your EDD? Want to come join me in a BB thread? It's very quiet for the second half of November :)

If I am pregnant this month I'll be due roughly the 26th November!!! So we will be BB :) but now just gotta hope my temps stay high and either tomorrow or Sunday I get my BFP :) Oh it would be the best thing, but also will be trying not to worry!!