Trying to Conceive after Miscarriage or Loss ~ September 08 #2

hi ladies!

it's been a while but i just wanted to pop my head in and say hi to everyone...i still pop in now and then to check on you all and i'm glad to see there have been some more BFP's lately too- congrats girls!

jen- so good to see you are still sticking up for everyone here and helping to keep this a safe and positive place. i'm sorry to hear AF just arrived, like issy said keep your chin up and keep going, some good news is just around the corner for you and you are one step closer to getting there. :hug:

issy- wow sounds like you have a bfp hun! i won't celebrate too loudly yet but am holding my breath to see what your results are today....will be popping back later to check on you :hug:

to everyone else sending lots of :hug: and :pray: and hope you are all well

afm- haven't been in for ages because i have been really sick and i knew this wasn't the place to sook about it. really it is good because it has been reassuring for me to know things are still ticking along (even though i know logically that being sick is not a guarantee things are still ok) anyway am 10weeks and 3 days now, just had a scan yesterday and was blown away to see a little bub in there kicking and waving like crazy. doc thinks i must be drinking heaps of coffee but i swear i haven't had any! so finally it is starting to sink in that being pregnant is not just about feeling sick and having sore bb's it means there is a little life in there...pretty silly but up til now it hasn't felt that way. i have my 12 week scan in a couple of weeks so will be telling the world after that...can't wait.

anyway girls i miss you all and am spreading lots of :pink-babydust::bluedust: for everyone, take care xoxo

Sneaky post before work...

Jen - great big :hug: lovely - so sorry that the witch showed up for you. Thanks for your encouragement to bd! We did but temp still low this morning so looks like I might still have another chance to catch the eggie again tonight! Hope today is not too rough on you. Its bloody hard work fronting up and being a trooper again and again. Make sure everybody is lovely to you today :)

Issy - wow that's great. Quiet congrats - hoping tomorrow's test is even darker and that you can get the support drugs asap

pbstar - great to hear from you. Not good to hear that you have been so sick, but what a great scan you had. Not long now until 12 weeks!

Better go - have a ds who is sytematically destroying his bedroom so had better dash and head off to work.

:bluedust::pink-babydust:

xx

Jen - sorry that fatty fat face showed her ugly head - you'd think by now she would know that there is no welcome at your house. :hug:

Issy - hoping that todays test shows a BFP for you.

Jenushka - all the best with bd fest - looks like we're almost cycle buddies.

PBStar - was only thinking of you the other day, glad things are going really well for you. all the best at your next scan. How cute to see bub moving around.

Smi - hows the house hunting going.

Fifi - glad to hear your job is safe. One less thing to worry about for you.

pbstar--Thanks, mate! ;) Always good to hear from you! Congrats on your scan--how cool to see your little bub kicking and waving away at you! :hooray: Are you waiting until your 12 week scan to put up a ticker? Hope your m/s calms down a bit so that we can hear from you more often! :hug:



jenushka-- What's going on with those temps--you aren't sharing thermometer's with me and mollycat, are you? :o Got any O pains with that EWCM?? Better keep those BD'ing shoes on, sounds like you're still in the green.... hopefully you'll see some higher temps for the next three days.


mollycat--Looks like it's about time for you to have your BD'ing shoes on, too! How are you feeling lately, a little better? :hug:


Sending you both some extra :pink-babydust: :bluedust: :pink-babydust: for O time!!

Jenushka - Good luck catching that eggie! I've had heaps of problems with OPKs too and if I were you I'd definitely bd just in case. I'd also recommend Menevit too - my DH takes it at the suggestion of our FS. He doesn't have any swimmer problems, but the FS said the antioxidants in it can help with DNA fragmentation which can happen more often in older blokes (like DH ;)) and can cause m/c.

pbstar - Glad to hear you are going well :) Hope the ms eases up for you soon.

Jen - Cycle buddy! I'm sorry to hear that stupid AF showed up :hug: Hopefully this will be her last visit for 9 months. Oh and what's this about junkie friend?? :p

issy - Oooo sounds very promising! Good luck for tomorrow and hope that line gets darker for you.

Tam - Happy birthday for yesterday!

fifi - Glad to hear your job is safe. My DH got made redundant from his job last year, and it is definitely no fun knowing your time is just about up. We were lucky though, he scored a new job fairly quickly.

larz - I hope all goes well with the u/s today :pray:

Angel - Excellent to hear that the IUI went well :) Good luck with the TWW and enjoy the pessaries ;) fun aren't they? LOL

Hi to everyone else that I've missed!

AFM - DD was at preschool yesterday so I went and had a facial and a massage, it was lovely and relaxing. Actually I almost fell asleep LOL I'm just so tired lately because of the side effects of the nasal spray. Have also started having some twinges in the ovaries too - hoping that that means the FSH is doing the job, I am on day 7 of injections now. After the twinges I went and jumped straight on the scales last night to weigh myself though - sudden weight gain can mean hyperstimulation - but my weight was OK, still the same as is was before I started the injections. Only 2 more sleeps until scan day :dance: hopefully they will find lots of nice follies and we will be on for an egg pickup sometime next week.

Jen Jen..... Worms... hmmmmm no... have to say mum never said anything about it....

Megsmum.... thank you... and yes the perseries... hmmmm such a Wonderful feeling... my favourite time of the day.... NOT ;)

Pbstar.... thrilled for you hun.... i know.. its bad to say.. ohhhh your really sick and I m so happy for you.....


smilanatu..... thanks hun... I dont have my fingers crossed or anything... accupunturist told me not to.... she said she would cross hers for me but I wasnt allowed to.....

Ohhh and Jen Jen... a further note.... you had better not be waiting on me....

Just a quick one today ladies.....sorry, got the head in the books today.....grrrrrr!

I didnt POAS this morning, DH convinced me to wait until tomorrow to get a better idea of whats going on....damn pee stick nazi that he his :rolleyes:

pbstar - thanks for dropping in hun, now youll have to come back tomorrow....what a shame ;) So glad to hear your scan went so well, how amazing to have seen your little one bouncing around the screen....DS was like that too when we saw him at 10 weeks, he was doing gymnastics in there, flipping all over the place....6 years later...he's still the same :)

Angel - GL with the IUI....relax and visualise that lovely little Gabriel growing stronger and stronger everyday :pray:

Will be bbl for more persies....huge :hug: to everyone.

Issy

Hi ALL

Just wanted to thank you all for the well wishes and :pray:. I think I just panicked a little!

u/s sound went really well, baby has grown so much since the last u/s. Now 3cm and heart beat is 163, baby was even moving it's arms. So amazing, they couldn't find anything wrong, so guess I just over reacted!

Thanks again and :hug: to all

Larz - That is fantastic news. You were in my thoughts and :pray: all last night and today. I'm so glad your little jelly bean is growing so strong. :hug:. I've been checking for your post on and off since yesterday, that is just great news and you got to see your little bubba waving at you.

Jen - I'm so sorry that witch (AF) paid you a visit. October is looking really good for both of us now. I'm :pray: for some magic in October. Well that's the plan anyway. The biting your finger nails and the worms story is what I told my step son when I caught him biting his toe nails. Gross I know. We made him have worming medicine the same day and he's never done it since. Not that I've caught him anyway.

larz - Yay - so happy to read your post and hear that all is going well. :dance:

Big Hugs and babydust to everyone else :hug:

LARZ Thats great news :dance: sounds like theres no need to worry now just try and enjoy the pregnancy.

Jen So sorry that AF showed up today I really thought that you were going to have a BFP as we all know here that you deserve it.

Everyone else I apologies and will have to try and post later. Sprinkling lots of :pink-babydust::bluedust: especially blowing some your way jen :hug:

Ohh and Angel baby sending truck loads of :stickyvibesgirl::stickyvibesboy:

Jen: Consider the hulk-smash-a-thon commenced!! Damn stupid witch!! She just can't take a hint. Big :hug: hon, glad you're doing ok. Eat some chocolate cake or something. And have a piece for me. Maybe two. Mmmm. Cake.

Larz: that's wonderful news hon!! YAY!! :hug:

megsmum--Oooh, a facial and a massage sound so lovely! Can you believe I've never had either? :o I'm feeling a little deprived! I'm saying lots of :pray: that Fri's scan find lots of nice follies for your egg pickup!! :crossfingers:



issy--Aww, man.... pee stick Nazi is right! I was hoping to log on to see your big, flashing BFP!!! I hate being 17 hours behind you girls--now I have to wait almost all day long just to find out your results!! Sending lots of BFP vibes your way! :pink-babydust:



larz--Great news on the u/s! :cheer: So happy for you that you got to see your little bub, and that you got a little wave out of it! I can just picture Sophia or Sebastian waving and saying, "Hey, mum, here I am!" :hug: You must feel so relieved--congrats!



:hello: to AJC and plc! :bellyrubs: for you both!

anneebee--Bring on the October BFP's!! Saying lots of :pray: that Oct. is THE month that we empty this thread out!


Tam--Thanks for the extra babydust! Looks like at 6DPO, you could use a little :bluedust: :pink-babydust: for yourself! Good luck!



tut--Sweet! Kick her arse to the moon! :lol: Mmm, cake.... now you've gone and made me hungry! Just realized I forgot to even eat dinner last night! I think we're probably both drooling on our keyboards now! Thanks for the :hug: Sending you lots of :bellyrubs:



Krystie--It's too quiet around here without you! :hug: Miss seeing your posts! Hope you're feeling ok and the m/s isn't being too rough on you! Love ya! *kiss* :stickyvibesgirl:

Angel--Missin you too, Nuff.... :hug: So are you feeling UTD yet?? Grow little Gabriel, grow! :stickyvibesgirl: :bluedust: :pink-babydust: :stickyvibesboy:

Hey, how much longer until you get your internet at home fixed? I'm going crazy! Looking forward to our Friday chat! *kiss*



mollycat--Hey, you... got some big :hug: coming your way!

Was wondering if any of the mods could tell me why I can't change my mood smilie? Mine seems to be stuck on "tired". Is anyone else having this problem?

Thanks for all the e-mails, smi! I always get a good laugh, then forward them on to give someone else a good laugh! I'm definitely a Maxine, how about you? :lol:



:hello: and hugs to jenushka, Toccara, Van, Chappas, WTH, Easha, Ruthie, dellydoo, mannie, hannah, jade, Emmykate, babymiracle, babyjubz, treelo, Abbey, Rachel B, babbs, babyonboard, Louise, & mummyO3B :pink-babydust: :bluedust:



Our :bfp: list is getting so long! Krystie, joey, fifi, larz, pbstar, tutmae, tina, plc, AJC, Katiegirl, nickster, Canary, Rachel S, & Leyza :stickyvibesgirl: :stickyvibesboy:

Maxine and I are one and the same jen! LOL

I have no smilies...just big ol red x's...hmm server issues?

Hi ladies,

Well the last test must have shown an evap line cause this morning it was a BIG FAT NEGATIVE!!!!!!!!

Its ok though, I only ovulated last wed or something, so I guess I just have to wait a bit longer....this cycle is the longest one EVER!!!!!! How frustrating :doh:

Have a great day ladies, ill bbl.

Issy

Hey girl's just wanted to stop in and say hi to everyone ... :hug:

a big thanks to AJC, ANNE, TAM, TUTMAE, JEN

Issy - The 2 week wait is the worst, don't give up yet. I got a very faint positive 14DPO and even than my HCG was only 24 because it was still very early. Crossing my fingers for you!

Hold in there Issy!!! Hopefully you had a freaky-deaky sensitive test, and that's why you had a faint line. I'll keep my fingers crossed over the next few days for you!! :hug:

Jen Nuffer - Oh my little rock :) :hug: Don't worry, you can't get rid of me! Hopefully tomorrow I have a beautiful photo of my little baby to show you :)

Angel Nufferino - Come on Gabriel!!!! *cheers*

Hey :hello: JEN Thanks for the baby dust. Your situation sounds similar to mine. DH and I were ttc for 6 months b4 our first miscarriage and again 6 months b4 our second miscarriage so I'm not getting my hopes up this month.

I have long cycles though 37 days, I thought acupuncture might have changed them to a normal 28 day cycle but it doesn't look like it has as I have only just started to get EWCM. So DH and I have been :bd: the last few days.

I have red x's all over my pages as well must be something wrong with the server. It took me ages to be able to log on.

Hi Tocarra glad to see you are still lurking around and feeling better :hug:

Issy Sorry to hear that you got a BFN this morning it's not over yet though unless AF decides to show her big fat ugly head. Sending you lots of :bluedust::pink-babydust: to try and turn that BFN to a BFP.

AFM I thought the acupuncture would fix my cycles but obviously not this month I had so much faith in it as well. So looks like it's going to be another long one. I have had EWCM the last two days so I'm taking this as ovulation day. So TWW from here ohhh it's going to be so long.

Hi friends....
sorry I have not been on you all know I'm mourning my child.
Just wanted to update on me... for those who wondered.
I have not been coping with this too well.. when I thought I was finally having closure I got a letter yesterday from the Genetics place and basically what it said was that the fetal tissue analysis found that the chromosome studies came out normal. My baby was fine. It was all my crappy body..I'm such a failure. And.. to top it off.. gender: XX (girl)
I was having just what I wanted a little girl.
I have been depressed since yesterday and hubby and I decided to name our Angel daughter Amy Grace. ( Amy= Beloved Grace= Blessing)

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So am back to the mourning game.. am still "spotting/lightly bleeding" from my D&C.... doc never gave me any meds which SUCKS... and I think I have a UTI!!!:angry:

anywho.... on a a happier note.. I found the perfect doc who is treating a close friend.. she just had an IUI with that doc today and she recommends him to me 100%. His office is a few minutes away from my new apartment ( BTW I'm moving this weekend)
and all in all.. he is a fertility specialist and a Perinatologist (the docs who specialize in women with recurrent miscarriages)
...sooooooo basically the reason for all my miscarriages isssssss.....drum roll.. Insulin resistance ( F*****ing PCOS!!!!!!! :wall::rolleyes:

My body is a failure.. I'm a failure as a woman for not keeping y babies and basically I feel like crap. (excuse my language)
I don;t want to bring my dark cloud on no one... just that I'm sick of miscarrying.. When I spoke to the doc I was in disbelief that now is it that they take me seriously.. it looks like if a woman has less than 3 m/c she is not considered high risk.. so WTF??..you have to have 3 losses to be taken seriously??.what is wrong with docs today..??..guess I reached their limit.. 3 is enough. I won't handle any more losses.

This doc even e-mailed me shows he cares.. I am to start seeing him in the end of October to see what he has in plans for me.. basically he might leave me on Metformin throughout a future pregnancy and I will have progesterone suppositories cuz low prog is another reason of my losses.
So at least among all this I have hope.. the docs can prevent this now. I just want to be preggo again and finally have the happy ending I thought I was going to have.. but as you know.. I didn't..again. :(

..this is it.... I'm just getting through this sh**tty month and hope for the best when I start seeing this doctor.

I would have been 13 weeks today and so happy.. unfortunately it isn't that way.
I am praying for all of you to be doing ok .. those who got their BFPs.. I wish you the very best.... and those TTC... **baby dust****

I might not be on too much cuz I'm moving this weekend and dunno when I will have internet again.. I hope the redecorating and stuff keeps my mind off all this.. its hard cuz I'm still bleeding a bit and every time I see that blood it reminds my of my empty womb. I feel like a wounded animal.

Love you all girlies. Good luck and my best wishes are for yo all. ♥

Ruthie

Ruthie - My heart goes out to you, I am so sorry you are feeling depressed. But so glad you have found a doctor that can help you, i really hope you get your little miracle (a girl)!!! Wish there was more I could do for you, but please know you are in my thoughts!

I had a little scare earlier this week Ruthie and all I could do was think of you and what you are going through...I prayed so hard that I wouldn't lose my little jelly bean. Please know my thougts are always with you.

Wow - I have been having so much trouble even uploading BB today, let alone attempting this post, but just wanted to send a few quick, but important persies. Will not even attempt smilies in case I lose the lot

Angel - I have been thinking of you and Gabriel. STICK BUBBA STICK! You seem so calm about it all and I will try and take a page from your book.Thanks so much for the offer to PM you to help me through my first cycle. No doubt you will hear from me if the going gets tough, but things are going ok so far. Just on the lucrin and WAITING BIGTIME for AF so I can start the FSH. If it does not come by tomorrow I have to wait a whole week!!

Jen - wretched AF. Your charts are so darned perfectly triphasic they have me stumped every cycle. I hope you cruise through the next few weeks and enjoy getting back to it (so to speak). Ummmm - nurses uniform tee hehe. I wish I had thought of that!!

Megsmum - good luck tomorrow with the scan!!!!!!! Imagine I have posted a four leaf clover and some crossed fingers right here.

Issy - good luck when you POAS in the days ahead.

KrystieLove - so nice to see your ticker growing. Sending you a lovely gentle belly rub.

Jenushka - good luck with your FS appointment tomorrow. I hope they give you some answers. Hope you got the PM I sent a few days ago.

Ruthie - so glad you have found a new FS - it is a really positive step. I am really sorry about the test result. I lost a little girl in March who was chromosonal normal. But my FS advised, and this isn't easy to explain, that sometimes the test is returning our own chromosone result when it comes out female. The reason I am telling you this is because you are being so hard on yourself. Your body is beautiful and created your wonderful little boy. If there is something going on your new FS will help you. Sending you lots of xxxxxxxx's and oooooo's

AFM - dreading Saturday. It will be one year since we suffered our first loss. DH is in Melbourne so will try to keep busy and focus on DD. Meanwhile and doing ok with the early weeks of IVF. No side effects really at all, so far

BABY DUST AND STICKY VIBES
WTH

Larz: Thank you hun. I will be praying that your bean is perfectly fine. See when we have had scares and losses it will always be within us to worry when we are preggo. believe me I will always worry about it... fertility meds and all.... I know your baby will be beautifully healthy , alive and developing ever so wonderfully inside you. You will have your baby in your arms full term and healthy. You'll see. I am praying for that. I don;t wish this on anyone it's too heartbreaking and overwhelming.
My heart goes out to you and know that I'm praying for you and your jelly bean darling.
Good luck and always wishing you the very best.... a H&H pregnancy & baby! ♥

WTH: Thank you sweet friend. Among all this I always have hope.. This doctor seems to know what he is doing and he even e-mailed me. When do docs do that???...
He said he needs to do blood work just to confirm that it is my insulin resistance in the end of Oct and I have a good idea of what he is going to do.. since I respond so well to Clomid I bet he is putting me on that again.. yet this time it will be different as he is going to put me on progesterone suppositories since before ovulation adn after.... abut after a BFP.. he might leave me on Metformin to control my insulin resistance... ( due to PCOS)
so that gives me hope it will work why??..cuz those things I had with Erick (my son) and he is here.. with all three of my lost pregnancies no specialist saw me really just reg OB/GYNS and nothing was given to me to prevent m/c.. so I know all those factors are very likely to also have happened on my other two miscarriages.

This doctor seems to care and that is a relief to me. I'm still crying every day and was very depressed yesterday.. but like every storm no matter how much damage it always has an end and people manage to rebuild and recover.. even though the memories scar your heart forever. That's what's happening now.

I know this letter will give me closure. I know that moving this weekend will distract me and redecorating our new place too ..so am looking forward to that.
Thank you so much for caring.


For all my other friends here leaving loads of ***baby dust** sticky vibes*****

Ruthie

Hi Ladies,

Off to bed but before I go

Ruthie - big long bear hugs for you hun..... you are in my prayers

Jen - AF is such a doody head....... aaarrrrggghhh

For all you ladies TTC or have lost a bub - I heard the other day whereever there is a negative in life it is followed by an equal or even greater positive in the future..... we all just need to hang onto that lovely ladies. Our bigger and better positive is just around the next bend.

Have faith

issy--Sorry about the BFN.... probably just too early. Will continue saying :pray: and hope to see that BFN turn into a BFP!!!



Toccara--Lot's of big, tight :hug: coming at you!



larz--:hug: and :stickyvibesgirl:



Krystie--Wishing you all the best for a happy, stress-free scan today! Can't wait to see a pic of little Chyan and hear all about her strong little :heartbeat: Sending :pray: and :stickyvibesgirl:



Tam--Have you considered trying vitamin B6 to help with your cycle? I started taking it to help lengthen my LP, and within the first month I was O'ing earlier, and my cycle seemed more regular. Hope this extra long TWW ends with a BFP!!! :crossfingers:

Ruthie--Aww, hon, my heart continues to break for you! :hug: Amy Grace is such a beautiful name! I'm so sorry for your continued sorrow :( I'm so glad to hear about your new doc, though--I've never heard of a dr. e-mailing a patient, so that's a great sign of his caring and compassion towards his patients! I pray he can bring you your miracle baby to hold forever in your arms! Good luck with the move this weekend!



WTH--My thoughts and :pray: will be with you on Sat. Sorry to hear your DH will be away, but hope your special time with DD helps distract you and keep your mind occupied. :hug:



megsmum--:goodluck2: with today's follie scan!! Saying lots of :pray: for you!!



jenushka--Thinking of you during today's FS appt.... sending lots of comforting thoughts and big :hug: for what I'm sure will be an emotional day.



Easha--A doody head... :rofl: Simply put, but oh so true!

Angel Nufferlicious--Hey, my friend! Missed seeing a post from you yesterday. :( I'm glad tomorrow's Friday chat day, cuz I'm missing you a whole heck of a lot! :hug: Hope things are going really well with you, and that Gabriel's growing big and strong for his mum :pray: :pray: :pray: Hope you have a FAAAAANTASTIC day! *kiss*

Hi everyone

Just thought I would post todays "tip of the day".

DON'T WASH YOUR MOBILE PHONE. I tried this one yesterday and now my phone just doesn't work. I ended up having to go and buy a new one. The only problem was I had a pre-paid and about $70 credit on it, so had to get a new number which is a total pain so i didn't lose my credit (i'm able to send it to my sons phone but only can send him $10 a day.)

That just finished my day beautifully. I was having a good day until about 7am which I started to feel really sick and ended up taking the day off work sleeping for a few hours and then watched tv half the day. Something i never do. Must of needed the day off and the rest.


Ruthie What a beautiful name for your little girl (they are actually the middle names we will be using when we get our little girl) Great minds think alike. I'm so happy that you have found a very caring doctor. My gyno said to me after my m/c that he would have left me on metformin when my gp had taken me off it, so it's just another thing i'll never know that could have made a difference. Hope you have a great time moving (it's never fun) and have fun re-decorating over the weekend.

plc--Dipsy Frickenbutt!?!? :rofl: That one's priceless! :cryinglaugh:



mollycat-- :O You mean mine's not washable? D@mn! :lol: My DSD left hers in her pocket once, so I washed it without knowing.... as far as I'm concerned, if you leave it in your pocket it's going to get washed, because I don't have time to go thru everyone's pockets! But she had already lost one, then that one got washed.... she doesn't have very good luck with phones! Anyhow, do you like you new phone? I always like getting new phones!

Sorry to hear you felt so sick yesterday. I'm glad you were able to take the time off to rest and veg out--you need those days sometimes! Plus, there's no way to take care of children when you feel like that! Hope you're feeling better today! :hug:



Ruthie--Grace was and still is the planned middle name for my future daughter, if I'm ever blessed with one! I love it, it's beautiful! :hug: Just had to be in on this "great minds think alike" thing! ;)

Jen - i have the same rule for washing clothes - plus any money in the bottom of the washing machine is "washer woman's pay". It's just a bugger when you do it to yourself. Still learning my new phone, DS1 thinks its great as he's getting free credit. All I have to do now is let everyone know my new number so that will take a while.

Your gonna love what my name turned out to be - "boobie dippindoodle"

Feeling heaps better today, i was so annoyed yesterday, i was almost ready to start work - just had to vacuum - when i got sick.

Easha: Thank you so much girly ♥
Thank you momma for your comforting words.
((hugs))))


Jen: Thank you dear. I know you will be blessed. I like to think that we are fighting for these babies.. they see how much we want them.... and I bet they are having fun bidding on heavenly "mommy ebay"..they say " I want this mommy.." LOL and when they win you.. oh you will be so blessed!!! :)

Just a happy thought I like to hang on to. wink wink


Mollycat: Thank you hun so much..... I will be busy this weekend and it sucks.. yet the decorating part puts a smile in my face cuz I love doing so....
I'm so glad you liked the names I picked... ( and hubby) I think they are so beautiful for such beautiful thing.. a baby.
I loved how the meaning of those names fell appropriate and ever so perfectly with my baby... Beloved and blessing... she is and will be forever...Beloved...and a blessing. ♥ My Amy Grace.
Hugs to you sweet momma. ♥

I LOVE you girls!!!! ♥((((group hug))))))♥

Hello Ladies ...

Thank you WTH (yep, got your pm - just slow to reply!) and Jen for thinking of me at this morning's appt. To keep everyone in the loop it was the follow up m/c appt with my ob to get the results of testing on the baby ...

Turns out that our precious little Peanut died as a result of the exact same chromosomal abnormality as my first m/c - 45x (Turner Syndrome). Feel pretty shocked actually, which may sound strange - I'd half expected there to be have been a problem with the chromosomes again but actually never expected it would be the same thing. This is very rare (though not impossible) apparently, as we were told the first time it was just random bad luck. It could still be just bad luck but now dh and I have to go and have chromosome testing done on each of us - that will really determine where we go from here. Back to the Clinical Geneticist (genetics counsellor) in about 6 weeks once the results are back from our tests, and already there's talk of possible IVF with PIGD (pre implantation genetic determination). Of course I bawled my eyes out the whole time! Gotta love being a Sooky-Pants!!

Oh, and something really funny - talking about the IVF/PIGD - Patronising Ob of the Year actually took the time to explain to me that "we can't do that with natural conception you understand ... IVF is where the egg and the sperm are fertilised outside of the body..." wtf?!?! Honestly Lady!!

My head is spinning really to be honest - if anyone had have said to me at the start of the year that this would be my story I would never have believed you! I know we are lucky to have an answer for our losses but am just feeling so overwhelmed right now. It's definitely opened up a whole heap of possibilities and anxieties of it's own...

I'll wait for the dust to settle a bit before I put my trooper boots back on

Love, hugs and :bluedust::pink-babydust: - bbl for persies when my brain is working properly...

xx

Hi everyone,

Sorry for no persies today, I'm not in a real good frame of mind :( My scan was not good, there is absolutely nothing happening with my ovaries. I just can't believe it :wall: Anyway they have upped my dose and I have another scan on Monday, so I hoping that will work. Otherwise if we get no response to the injections in the next week or so, the whole thing will be cancelled and we start again. Yet another 2 months wasted :(

Megsmum I'm sorry to hear about your scan I really hope things get better for you :hug:

Ruthie oh sweetie that's very pretty name and no you are still in pain and upset just a few seconds ago I was crying thinking about my little angel babies ... hug:

Jen so AF showed up I hope you get that egg next month :hug:

Jenushka I'm sorry you have to go thur more testing but I hope they find what's wrong and can help you get a lil bub in your arms soon ...

ATM :hug: to everyone else I'm feeling kinda sad right now thinking about my angel babies and worrying about m/c'ing again once I fall pg again on one hand I'm happy I can fall pg so easy but on the hand I'm sad because they don't make it ... I'm so happy DH is coming home this weekend and that I have the weekend off ...

Megsmum - what can I say except "so sorry" about your scan. I know you must be so disappointed, especially as your blood tests implied some really good stuff was going on in your belly. I really hope the boost in meds helps and that the news is better for you in a few days :hug:

Tocarra - some days are harder than others, aren't they!? I totally understand. I hope you have a special time with your DH this weekend

Jenushka - glad you got your answers, but I know that must be a shock :hug: As you may know, I am in the early stages of IVF with PGD. I wanted to do it after our first loss this time last year, but our OB insisted we were "unlucky" and try again again naturally. Despite this, we booked ourselves into IVF with PGD but conceived while waiting. After losing our second, my OB then said we were "very unlucky", and to keep trying naturally. Again, we booked ourselves into IVF with PGD, but conceived while waiting. But then we lost our third. Now our OB says we should not dare ttc naturally. We've had extended karotyping done, all normal. If only I had been more patient after our first loss and listened to my intuition instead. So now I am exactly a year on tomorrow, with less eggs at lesser quality. Don't know if my rant will help - and I am certainly not trying to say the same could happen to you - but if you have any questions about getting started or to see how I am going, let me know ;) BTW your ob sounds like a bit of a d&%khead!!

Ruthie - glad you have found some comfort from us girls here at BB. We are here for you. Sounds like your new dr is taking much better care of you. It is great if you can email them rather than wait out the loooong weeks for appointments.

Easha - I liked your tip about the positive. Boy am I owed BIG TIME!

Mollycat - thanks for the mobile phone tip! Glad your feeling better today and hope you have a great weekend

Jen - thanks for being thoughtful. I think I'll be ok. We did a memorial on that bubba's EDD, so I don't want to focus on it. Just want the day to pass IYKWIM.

AFM - Feeling a bit impatient. I was hoping to start FSH today for my first IVF cycle but my blood test revealed AF is still a couple of days away, so now have to wait another bloomin' week!

:bluedust: :stickyvibesgirl:

Jenushka: Oh mama... BIG HUGS!!!.:hug:.....I feel helpless telling you anything at all as I too got my lab results yesterday and I found out the gender and that I have been miscarrying babies with normal chromosomes so indicates it was all my messed up body!!! which hurts so very much.. I can only imagine your frustration and sorrow about your lil bean.. all I can say is my heart goes out to you. I know your pain. I wish I could take it upon myself so you didn't have to suffer or none of my friends.. but unfortunately the world is not magic... its tragic and it sucks. We have to make the most out of these horrible situations.. I gained a daughter.. and even if I will never hear her cry or buy her cute dresses... I feel it in my heart she knows I love her since before she was conceived. :(

My heart goes out to you.♥

Megsmum: :hug:Maybe you can take hope in this.. my friend just had an IUI yesterday... I dunno what shots they are giving you but they gave her follistim and it didn't work for 2 cycles.. then this cycle all of a sudden she had 2 eggs and they went ahead with the IUI. She is in the 2WW now and we are very hopeful. I know how you feel.. heck 3 years of TTC with not 1 but 3 losses I know how yo feel all too well.
I'm here for you and I know we always keep saying to ourselves month after freaking month "maybe next month"... but if you have a doctor you trust talk about alternatives.... what can be the next step.. maybe you need to up your dose to help you ovulate (which is what happened to my friend she needed more follistim)
My best wishes going your way.. do talk to your doc.. I hope you can get more or another meds to help you achieve your dream. You know I''m here rooting for you and all my girlies here.

We WILL BE BLESSED!!!!!!!


Toccara: Thank you dear..:hug: even though yesterday I was so depressed and balling my eyes out....(cuz I got the results in the mail). I think it finally brought closure to me and now at least I know I have a daughter.. unlike my other two I'm in the air and maybe not as attached cuz I never met them or knew their gender. :(
My heart goes out to you too you know we are both going to get through this and in no time we will both be in the L&D room delivering our healthy miracles!!!! :hug:


Love you all my BB girls. I am ever so grateful to have found this awesome thread and am friends to all you amazing women!! :hug:

Know that despite my heartache right now I am here for you all!!! ♥ I know we can do it!!!!!:clap: