mollycat--Sorry about your temp drop... :( I just realized that I never put my protective force field around you this month! :doh: I'm saying mega :pray: that AF will fall of the face of the earth! :hug:
:hello: plc!! Bellyrubs for your :babygirl:
Leyza--Congrats on your great u/s and seeing that beautiful little :heartbeat: Continue taking it easy!!
Hi's and :hug: to Babyfever & mannie!!
Krystie Chyan--That is so super strange about your client and her mom!! Some people just have a gift... and I don't think there's any other way that she could've known! I would feel comforted if I were you--that's a great sign! Ooh, and a :babygirl: (!!!) I'll bet she's right about that, too! :cheer: Can't wait to hear about your fabo BT results! Grrrr, the insomnia--I remember that all too well! Hope it gets better soon... I'll keep the light on in chat in case you can't sleep! ;) *kiss* and :stickyvibesgirl:
joey--Not too sure about your Prog question... But :pray: the high numbers indicate an impending BFP!!!
fifi--Hope your back and m/s are getting better! :hug:
Emmykate--Your symptoms sound really promising! Think you should say "forget the dr" and go in for some BT for some peace of mind! :goodluck2:
Angel Chyan--Good morning, my friend! It's been entirely too long since we've chatted!! Pill Girl withdrawals are bad enough... but Angel withdrawals at the same time??? GRRR!! I'm missing you!! *kiss* :hug:
Ruthie--Haven't heard how your u/s went.... I'm saying lots of prayers that all is well with you and your little jellybean! :stickyvibesgirl:
tutmae--Hey stranger! You've been MIA for waaaaay too long! Bellyrubs and :stickyvibesgirl: I miss you, chickie! *kiss*
smi--I more day till Friday!! :woot:
Tam--:goodluck2: with today's u/s!!
Toccara--Don't forget we're here for you! You've been in my heart and on my mind... I'm so sorry for the cr@ppy hand you've been dealt! :hug: Please let me know if there's anything I can do to help! :comfort:
:bluedust: :pink-babydust: for all those TTC'ers out there: Angel, mollycat, Easha, joey, jenushka, Chappas, megsmum, WTH, Babyfever, Van, issy, hannah, dellydoo, Emmykate, Jade, Tam, babbs, & mannie
Can't forget our BFP'ers! Krystie, Rachel, fifi, larz, pbstar, tutmae, tina, Ruthie, plc, AJC, Katiegirl, Leyza, nickster, & Canary Sending you all :stickyvibesgirl: :stickyvibesboy: and lots of :bellyrubs:
Hi,
Well I just got home from work (2am) 12hr shifts can feel so long sometimes. Especially as all I can think about is my u/s. I should be in bed trying to get some sleep as my u/s is at 10am but I am sooo nervous. Thank you all for your support.
KL & Chyan :goodluck2:with you blood test results today hope it all goes well.
Leyza Congratulations on your u/s glad to hear everything is okay :dance:
Jenushka Sorry to hear about your grandmother but comforting to see that she died surrounded my the ones she loves. Hope you have a great time on your break.
Ruthie Hope everything went well with your u/s looking forward to reading the good news :goodluck2:
Jen Thanks for the goodluck I will let you know the results when I get home.
Well it is now 2.30am I better try and get some sleep so I understand what they say during the scan.
Goodnight hope you are all having wonderful dreams.
Jen - so it's all your fault :p LOL. Now i'll have to walk around all day saying "it's jen's fault, she forgot to put up the "force field". Just don't forget again. Really hoped that AF would have stayed away this month, it's our wedding anniversary next weekend, that would have been a lovely present, it's also the first anniversary of our friends death so something positive to look on would have been great. There's obviously a grand plan out there somewhere for us (just wish I knew what it was).
Krystie - hope the pups owner was right for you :babygirl: we'll have to start buying pink balloons to decorate the PAML thread. (that's if PLC has left any in the shops, maybe she's already decorated it).
PLC - thanks for your hug yesterday - I really needed it, I was feeling a little fragile all day. I really wanted to take the day off and spend it cleaning my house (sad huh), but I soldiered on and worked instead.
Today 9/11/08 at 8:Am I found out my baby grew wings at 10weeks. I was all excited to look at the screen except baby was not moving, heart was not moving, and no heartbeat. Baby measured 10week and in "medical terms" I had a single "non-viable" fetus with 0bpm. Dead.:(
I have nor words right now as my heart is just more than broken all over again. My beautiful baby is in heaven playing with it's 2 siblings. I am blessed and HONORED to have had him or her in my womb. No words to describe how my world is crumbling beneath me all over again.... please understand if I am of few words. I have a beautiful onesie and socks and beautiful things for a baby that won;t be here.
I go in tomorrow at 7AM for a D&C...
Thank you all for your prayers.
RIP my dear angel... sniff sniff.. you will live in my heart till the day I join you and your siblings in heaven! Can't wait to meet you my love!!!
Ruthie...I am so very sorry...:hug:
Ruthie - I am speechless .... and just so so sorry to hear of the very cruel news you have just received. I am thinking of you and sending every comfort I can without actually being there to give you a great big hug. Your beautiful little baby had 10 weeks as a part of you and was given every bit of love you had to give. Don't try and make sense of this yet hun because it just makes no sense.... I have tears rolling down my cheeks Ruthie knowing your pain exactly and wishing you didn't have to go through this again....
I'll be thinking of you tomorrow too :hug: pm me if you need...
Fly free little one...
Ruthie - words cannot express the feelings that I have. I'm so sorry that you've had to go through this once again. :hug:
Ruthie - sweetheart I am so so sorry. You are in my prayers and thoughts. My heart is breaking for you.
Love
Adele
Ruthie :hug:
I am so sincerely sorry. I wish there was something I could say or do to ease your heartbreak. I hope you are able to get some sleep and find some inner peace. Please look after yourself as best you can :hug:
Oh Ruthie, I am so very sorry :( You and your family are in my thoughts :hug:
Take care of yourself xx
Ruthie - my tears are falling unashamedly and freely for you - I am SO SORRY. Please accept my long tight hug cos I just don't know what to say.
KL - what a beautiful experience to be blessed by. i have total faith in that kind of intuition.
....just can't stop thinking of you Ruthie......:(
Ruthie - I am so deeply sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you :hug:
Smi, Jenushka, Mollycat, Dellydoo, WTH, megsmum & Plc, AJC.. Thank you dear ones... I know you all understand me..:hug: I was not expecting this today... I was daydreaming for weeks to see the baby move and listen to a wonderful heartbeat again... nothing.
When I think my eyes can't cry no more because they are so swollen... I start all over again.. I'm breaking apart.. when I got the news my knees went weak.. I fell to the floor with absolute no strength to stand up.. I curled there like an idiot and just sobbed in the middle of the room with 5 pregnant women there sobbing with me.. it was so painful.. I looked at all those huge bumps with pain, with anger WHY??.. my 3rd baby. I thought I finally was going to have this baby.. I thought all my pain was going to be over.. and again. Again??.. WHY???? I don;t want to sound whiny.. I know most of you if not all have been through this... just that today I didn't expect this.. I was not prepared... I was even thinking of celebrating my birthday this Sunday the 14th.. what F****g birthday... it is the saddest birthday I will ever celebrate. :(
I don't want to ruin anyone's day.. and again I don't want to be whiny... just that I thought that finally I was going to have my happy ending.. . right now I have to pretend to be strong in front of my son... he saw me break down in the hospital and the whole day for a matter of fact and he senses there is something wrong... he cried with me. I see him sleep and just hug him.. knowing he is my miracle.. and yet I feel horrible because he has no one to play with.. I wanted him to play with his own brother or sister so bad.
I am not going to give up.. I have no idea what the doctor will say after th D&C but I am TTC again.. I want this miracle... and even if I have to wait a month or two I will find a specialist now.. a doctor a perinatologist not only to help me get pregnant but to help me stay pregnant full term and have a live baby. It's like my worst fear came to life today.
I am in debt with you ladies.. you have been more than awesome.. my head is starting to hurt again because I have been crying nonstop.
so tomorrow at 7AM I get a D&C.. what a horrible procedure.. to think they kill babies that way.. and to think my precious angel is being treated that way.
But this time my health is at stake.. doc said I can let nature take its course but if baby has a week dead my body has not even started the process of expelling the baby and it can get ugly.. so I prefer to just "get on wit it" and go ahead and do the D&C. I have no signs that my body knows it is not pregnant anymore.. in fact I still have morning sickness.:(
Thank you my loved ones.. so much.:hug:
Ruthie
Oh Ruthie I am so sorry honey! I am devastated for you. I don't understand the unfairness of life sometimes. Take comfort in your son. Even if he doesn't understand what has happened, he will understand the pain inside his mummy and he will be there to comfort you. It's amazing that children seem to have such a strong instinct for their mother's pain. Please look after yourself. My thoughts are with you, and I will be thinking of you tomorrow morning. Take all the time you need to grieve, but always remember that we are all here for you if you need us. :hug:
Oh Ruthie...I am so very very sorry.
Hannah