Trying to Conceive after Miscarriage or Loss ~ September 2008

OMG... I m a sick little puppy.... nothing but coughing and fevers......even had the day of work sick first time since I lost the twins... normally me and sick days just dont go together. Half way through the day I had to straighten myself up and head off to the Accupunturist. I had sooooooo many needles in... all over my arms, my chest and my head.... all designed to try and get rid of this flu or whatever it is..... its certainly not a normal flu.

Kristie....I laughed when I saw you havent POAS yet... EITHER HAVE I :lol: Normally by now I would have done aleast 3 or 4.....

Jen Jen...... The internet is still not working at home and even though I had the day off work I have come into work so I can still catch up with you this evening.... at least its only DH, DS and I here when I have one of my coughing fits....and there are no clients to cough all over....... I ll "see" you in a few hours :hug:

Ruthie - sending lots of :pray: your way.

Oh Ruthie I hope everything is ok. :pray: really hard for you that this is nothing serious :hug: Thinking of you

Hi Girlie Worlies,

I miss you all sooooo much, so I am just popping my head in to say hi, and then THAT'S IT again until I come back with some BFP news. I really need to not obsess. Am keeping my blog up to date, and also FF if you want to spy. (I am keeping an eye on your charts too!!)

Am currently in the 2WW. Haven't got my cover line yet, but know that I O either yesterday or Wednesday, and managed to BD 2 nights in a row, so fingers crossed.

Take care everyone and hope to see lots of + on your FF charts.

Miss you :grouphug:

:bluedust::pink-babydust::bluedust::pink-babydust::bluedust::pink-babydust:

Ruthie - my thoughts are with you, hope u and bub are ok :hug:
Joey - hey hun, good to "see" you
BB - sorry ur sick hun, I have a rotten cold at the moment that made me throw up some nice stuff this morning but not "flu" as such, I don't think.
Babyfever - also sorry to hear about the fire - what a scare!

Hello to everyone - my thoughts are always with you - let's do a :grouphug: and send some extra positive vibes for Ruthie.

Oh....and delly - I am so very sorry hun, I can't tell you how deeply I was affected by your loss.

Delly - I just noticed your signature :( I am so sorry! I can't even imagine what you are going through at the moment and I'm at a loss for words. I can't comprehend the amount of strength you must have to be grieving your son and still be selfless enough to be posting to help someone else. I am truly amazed. My thoughts are with you and your partner.
I hope you feel comfortable enough to stay here in this thread with us once you feel ready. I promise that the girls in here are lovely and we are always very quick to lend a hand (or a shoulder) when someone needs it :hug:

Ruthie - I hope you made it to the ER and that everything is ok with both you and your baby :hug:

Jen - I've been thinking about you all day sweetheart! :hug:

Angel - Do you know what DPO you are? You've been very secretive missy. Are we cycle buddies???

Krystie and Birthday Buddy.....where is ya..i m in chat waiting... waiting ... waiting

Yes Cycle Buddies... 10 DPO.... 4 days till testing... if I hold out that long ;) Not secretive ... just trying to down play it as it just doesnt want to happen naturally.... so if or when AF arrives then its back to assisted conception again for this little duckie

Good morning gurlies!

Ruthie...I hope this morning finds you feeling better and baby fine...:hug:

Adele...such a selfless act to offer support when you've just experienced such a tragedy yourself...that is why BB means so much to me...women supporting each other from across the seas no matter what...May God Bless You! :hug:

Angel & Krystie...you go gurlies! I am so proud of you waiting to test I KNOW how hard it is for both of you! :)

jen...loving the emails! IT'S FRIDAAAAAY!

Ladies...:pink-babydust::bluedust:
:stickyvibesgirl::stickyvibesboy:

I almost forgot...I have an appointment today with FS...I am keeping the appointment even though Lee & I are seperated...you think that was a wise choice?

HEY SMI... in the chat room hun.. with Jen Jen and Krystie.. quick.. quick

Ohhh SMI... you didnt make it to Chat..... I would say just go ahead with the appointment as long as you feel comfortable with it..... bugger what anyone else thinks..... and yes... 4 days to go and still no POAS.... i have about 10 of them in the toilet at home... waiting to be used... But i ll wait till Sunday.. .Hey cycle buddy.

Smi - I don't think it's crazy to still go to the FS appointment. You can still tell him the issues you were having and surely they will still let you get all the testing done on "your half" of the equation. It might bring you peace of mind if you find out that all your bits are in perfect working order. Good luck!
Oh, and thanks for being so proud hehe :)



Ok, just going through my to-do list for tonight and it looks like I can scratch off "Make Jen and Angel cry" :P Sorry girlies, but I'm glad you girls both liked it enough to cry! I'm majorly flattered :hug: :hug:

Sorry girls, will be busy at the school this am, but will be back in the afternoon to do persies! Thinking of you all! :grouphug:



Special :hug: for Angel and Krystie--thanks for this am, it helped a lot! And Krystie, the avatar.... still speechless! Super duper :hug: :hug: :grouphug: for you both!


Ok, will be back later for the rest! Sorry, just really busy!

Tam thank you so much sweetie that makes me feel a lot better ...

Jen thanks for all the sticky vibes and prayers my emotion are all over the place so reading all your post helps a lot ... do you have an IM ???

AFM still praying and hoping for the best I'm so worried something will go wrong I can't wait until my next doc appt only ten days away ... :pray:

Ruthie I'm praying really hard for you right now !!! I pray things are ok ...

♥THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH!!!! ♥

Well..

After quite a scare... around 8PM I found brown spotting in my undies then I wiped again and it was red. I was scared outta my mind. What scared me the most was the bad cramping in my lower back, lower abs and cervix area. So hubby got home not too long from me posting and he took me to ER ASAP!!

Well a doc saw me, did blood work and "felt" my cervix.. at that time ( Like around 10PM??.. He said my cervix was closed ( good news) he poked and he said it is not open.. but he said he can't guarantee it will stay closed and he spoke about a "cerclage (sp?) ( stitching the cervix closed so baby won't "fall" out) if needed. He said there was old blood in my vag cavity but that the cervix itself stopped bleeding. He said it could have been anything, from irritation of the cervix due to sexual intercourse to just broken blood vessels in there.

First a nurse came in with a doppler and she found no fetal heartbeat. Scared me stiff. I was in tears. Then like an hour later ( looks like they were trying to call a doc for an u/s machine)) but dunno what happened there.. so doc came back with the darn doppler.. and he did find a fetal heartbeat.. he said it was 140 ( it was 153 on 8/15) I asked if I should be concerned and he said totally not.. at different times of the day the babys heartbeat changes just like ours do when we are resting or "active".


BUT..BUT.. he said I have a threatened miscarriage so he said I am to be in absolute bed rest and "cervical rest".. ( no sex till delivery day ..poor hubby..) managed to smile.


They did blood work and in the end he told me my HCG levels were 12,000 which he said it was perfect for 10 weeks.

here is a comparison chart I found online:

PREGNANCY STATUS SERUM hCG LEVELS
from conception from LMP (mIU/ML or IU/L)
7 days 3 weeks 0 to 5
14 days 28 days 3 to 426
21 days 35 days 18 to 7,340
28 days 42 days 1080 to 56,500
35 - 42 days 49 - 56 days 7,650 to 229,000
43 - 64 days 57 - 78 days 25,700 to 288,000
57 - 78 days 79 - 100 days 13,300 to 253,000 ** I would fall here******
17 - 24 weeks 2nd trimester 4060 to 65,400
25 wks to term 3rd trimester 3640 to 117,000
After several days postpartum nonpregnant levels (<5)"

**sssiiiiiiiiggghhhhhh*****

So looks like bub is ok.. ( PHEW) but he basically said they have a "red flag" up when it comes to my pregnancy.
:(

My next OBGYN appointment is this Wed. Sept 10th at 1:30 PM .. prayers much appreciated. Hoping that for my Birthday on the 14th I can celebrate in peace.:redface:


right now cramping has stopped but my cervix is sore from all the "touching" and am still spotting a bit.. . I'm asking God to please take care of this baby. I love this baby so much since before conception and as you can tell.. I won't be able to handle loss news at all.. I know my world would crumble below me. But I'm trying to think positive, for my sake for the babys sake. I know This baby is meant to be.. God is knitting him or her so very carefully in my womb.. I have faith in him... he will take care of my baby.


God bless you all Thank you so much for your prayers!! Much needed much appreciated!! ♥.:grouphug:

your friend,
Ruthie

Ruthie- So so pleased to hear from you, have been checking all day. So sorry to hear you had such a scare but really really pleased things are ok. I know you will worry, will be saying lots of :pray: for you take it easy and rest up. sending you and hubby lots of :hug::hug: sure this bub will be fine.

Thank you so much... and thank you all.. Well so far the doc said if my cervix opens even if it's a little bit I will need a "cerclage" (sp?) which is stitching the cervix shut till delivery ....hoping it remains closed.. on Wed the doc will check for that.
Again Thank you so much fro your payers.. It means so much you all understand how I feel..

I will keep you posted I'm still spotting a but its brown goop so I guess its old blood from yesterday.

**sigh**** just want Wed to come so I can see the bub in the u/s.. I was a bit mad as to why they didn't do one right away instead of scaring me with the doppler ( 1st time they did it the nurse didn't find a fetal heartbeat!! SCCCAARRRYYY!!!)

hugs to you all and I'm praying for you all to have healthy pregnancies and to see BFPs this month!!!

Good luck all of you and I cannot thank you enough for your prayers..they WORK!!!

Ruthie: am so glad everything is ok, have been checking regulary for an update.

still in my :pray:

Ruth-Big :hug: I'm sorry your going through all this scare. I really really hope baby stays hun your in my prayers. I'm glad things are okay. Poor DH. But, its best for that so you can have a h & h pregnancy.

Ruthie I am so happy everything is OK with your lil bub please take it easy and try not to stress to much I know that's easier said than done but please try and I will say some extra prayers for you tonight !!! :pray: :hug:

Oh I forgot to tell you me and my DH not going have sex while pregnant either the doctor didn't tell me not to I'm just trying to do all I can to help bub stick ...

Oh Ladies, what lovely messages to wake up to.
Kyrstie - I honestly think having BB to focus on forces you to not only acknowledge what your feeling but that other people need help too. My DP is working in Sydney during the week and I am on my own. Without BB I think it would be far too easy to concentrate on how rubbish I am feeling.
PLC - that is such good news 22 weeks darling that is simply wonderful!
Ruth - that is comforting news - I have been told I have to have a cerclage for my next pregnancy. I have been reading loads of stuff online about it. I can send you some website links if you like.
Smi - go to see your FS darling, it is your body after all.

OK - My goal for the day is to not be wearing a dressing gown at lunch time. Oh yes I am setting the bar high today!
Hugs to you all and have a fab weekend
Adele

I'm sorry it's taken me this long to get to personals--I've been so super busy today! It's been a much-needed distraction!


Fab 2/3--Thank you both again for being there for me this am! I knew that I could count on you girls to get me thru my morning! :grouphug: Angel, the card you sent me... you know... that's all I can say right now. :crying: And Krystie, I'm still so honored over the symbolism of your avatar--I feel very privileged! :hug: I appreciate you both so much, I don't think it's possible for you to ever know! *kiss* *kiss*



AJC--Thanks so much for your PM... it meant so much to me! :hug: I'm so glad to hear your u/s went well! :cheer: Thanks for letting me know how it went!



Tam--Wish I knew the answer to your baby aspirin question... I take one everyday because my doc mentioned it, but to be honest with you, I'm not sure what it's for or why I take it! :lol: All I know is that if it could help in any way, shape, or form, then I'm all for trying it! ;)



Oh, Angel, I hope you feel better today--I can't believe you hung around at work all night waiting for me--especially when I know how cr@ppy you're feeling! I hope that staying up late didn't make you feel worse! *kiss*



joey--Good luck with your :2ww:

Thank you my sweet ladies.
Kristylove, chappas, fifi, toccara, smi, jen, angelbabies,Tam, bytheocean, larz, babyfever, dellydo, jenishka, AJC, Leyza, mollycat, Plcb, Joey, all of you ( sorry if I missed anyone of you sweet ladies)
I'm doing ok... spotting the AM was this brown goop so guess it was just old left over blood from yesterday... I'm just sore down there... not cramping just sore to the touch and my tummy where my cesarean scar is ..also is sore.. cuz since they didn't find fetal heartbeat right away... they really poked and jabbed that dopppler thing and it hurts now.


dellydo: links appreciated..... doc said that the cramping could have been an indication of it opening and that's why he spoke to me about it.. but so far it is shut.. so on Wed I will be checked again.. if I will need it then so be it.. anything to keep my baby nice and warm inside.
I will do anything for his baby to make it healthy to our arms. We have been waiting for so long and have gone through so much just like many of my ladies here.


I'm very grateful of all your prayers. I will let you know how it all goes on Wed and if I need the stitching or not.

:hug: Ruthie

Babyfever--Sorry to hear about the fire, but very relieved everyone is safe and sound!



dellydoo--So sorry about your recent loss, hun! :hug: How very considerate and BB-like of you to be concerned with the well-being of others when you're feeling so down! I know for me it was very cathartic knowing that I was trying to help someone else thru a pain that I knew so well, and it helped keep my mind off myself and my own problems. Just wanted to :welcome: you, and I hope you stick around so we can get to know you!



Oh, Krystie, I forgot to mention that your temps are looking a little higher than usual, don't you agree? I'm :crossfingers: and saying mega BFP :pray: for both you and Nuff!! You're both showing such restraint this month! :clap: Very impressive!



smi--Woo hoo! Friiiiidaaaay! Sorry I didn't get to answer you earlier, but I hope you decided to go ahead and go to your FS appt! I agree, it's your body and you should know what's going on with it, whether you're still with Lee or not! :goodluck2: Will keep any good e-mails comin' atcha! But if it's the weekend, should I not send it to your work e-mail, or do you still check that one when you aren't at work? Let me know... :hug:



Toccara--I don't have an IM, actually....sorry! But I DO have these handy dandy :stickyvibesgirl: for you!! Hugs....

Ruthie--I'm SO very relieved for you that things are getting better! How scary for you! :hug: Just 5 more sleeps to go until your u/s--I'm sure it feels like a lifetime, but I :pray: the time goes quickly for you! :stickyvibesgirl: :stickyvibesboy:



:hello: mollycat! That was a nice little temp jump this am... what's with the open circle, tho, broken sleep? Hope you're doing well, and sending you a bazillion tons of :pink-babydust:



Hugs & hello's to any other's I've missed: Easha, jenushka, chappas, megsmum, WTH, Van, Issy, Jade, babbs, & mannie Sending you all loads of babydust(sorry, I've run out of smilies!) and lot's of good luck, too!

Here..... see next page....

:bluedust: :pink-babydust: :bluedust: :pink-babydust: for all of us TTC'ers!!! And lot's of :goodluck2:



For all our BFP'ers: Toccara, Rachel, fifi, larz, pbstar, tutmae, tina, Ruthie, plc, AJC, Katiegirl, and Leyza.... Bucket loads of :stickyvibesgirl: :stickyvibesboy: and :bellyrubs:


Hope I didn't forget anyone...sincere apologies if I did! Hugs to you all!

Ruthie - glad to hear that everything has turned out ok for now. All the best on Wed. :hug:

Jen - Open circle on those ones mean that the time taken was different (usually happens on a Sat) THE ONE day of the week that I actually get a sleep in. Unless we really need to go somewhere the alarm is never set so it depends on what time the cat wakes up and demands to go outside. :hug: for you.

Ruthie - am so happy to hear that bub is ok. Now rest and try to relax, I think the key word there is try. I don't think there is any such thing as 'relaxed' with pregnancy after m/c. Good luck for Wed. Sending special :pray: your way.
:stickyvibesgirl::stickyvibesboy: I think your little one is just snuggling in that little big snugglier.

Jen - glad you got my message :hug:

Big :hug: for everyone.

Oh, AJC.... I just saw your u/s picture! It's fabulous! I'm so happy for you! :cheer:



mollycat--Glad to hear you got to sleep in--hope you enjoyed it--I forget what that's like anymore!! :lol:

Jen thank you so much !!! I don't know what I would do without you right now !!! I been :pray: for you everynight sweetie :hug: ...

Aww, thanks, Toccara! :hug: :hug:

Ruthie

All I can say is wow! You had me worried I kept checking all day and night yesterday waiting for your update. I am so glad you and your bay are okay. When I read your post I had a big sigh of relief.

Good luck with your appointment on wed I hope everything is okay. And if it is brown blood it is old blood and there is no need to frown.

Tocarra. I havent forgotten about you either your still in my :pray: and sending lots of :stickyvibesgirl: to you and ruthie

Jen- Sending you lots of :hug:

Ruthie- Hope you doing ok :hug:

Toccara- How you feeling now, hope you are feeling little less stressed :hug:

:hello: to everyone else

AFM AF day late not gonna test though dont think could be pg this month unless o early.
DH is at hospital on wed having a scan what we thought was sports injury turned out to be something more.:(

Thanks Tam & Chappas I'm doing ok I'm still a little unsure and saying lots of prayers ...

chappas--Ooh, I'm :pray: AF stays late! Sending lots of anti-AF vibes! Sorry to hear about DH's injury, good luck on Wed. with his scan. Will keep you in my :pray: Keep us posted!



Toccara--Hey there, pg lady! ;) How's it going? Here's your daily, unlimited supply of :stickyvibesgirl: :stickyvibesboy: Lot's of :hug: and prayers to go with those vibes!



Angel, the Nuffiest Nuff of all Nuffs--Happy Father's Day Sunday! It's POAS day!! Oh please, oh please, give me some good news!!! :pray: Come on Turkey, we all want to meet you!! :hug:

Krystie--Happy POAS day!! Just wanted to send you some BFP vibes.... I'm praying so very hard for yours and Angel's BFP's!!! Oh, please, oh please, oh, please be a BFP!!! :pray: Let's start up that belly buddy group we were talking about--we made a pact, remember??? Do you have anything special planned for DH today?

Fab 2/3... these are just for you! :pink-babydust: :bluedust: :pink-babydust: :bluedust:

Hey folks, just thought Id drop in a say Hello... Hope you are all ok! I need to read back and find out how many more BFPs we have here! Any?
I wanted to let you know I also would love some sticky vibes as I have spent all week worrying sick. everytime i go to the loo Im checking for blood, none so far but Im scared out of my mind.

Ruthie

A special message for you sweety... I have just read that have had a threatened miscarriage. My heart goes out to you... I am so glad that you are ok, I am praying for you that all remains ok, I am sure it will somehow. KEEP POSITIVE.
We have also decided to refrain from ANY intercourse during this pregnancy due to possible miscarriage. I have quit cola COMPLETELY, quit cigarettes COMPLETELY and I am loosing weight.. which sounds bad but I know its due to to the lack of sugar and new diet I am on (orange juice, lemonade, cereal bars, new healthy foods, lots of fruit and vegs)... So no sex, fags or coke... sounds great but Im willing to do ANYTHING to have this baby and Im sure you feel the same.

You MUST bed rest.. do you work hunny? Is it worth booking a while off?

Rach
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