Thanks for your feedback guys, Dr says that I can try whenever I feel ready, but there's part of me that is absolutely petrified that it's all gonna happen again.... I'm seeing a psychologist on Friday, I'm hoping that I will feel better emotionally if I talk to a professional about it all. Thing is that my fiance seems very unkeen at the moment, I know that it's because he too is scared that it will all go wrong again, and he's worried that next time around he may lose me too as it was very touch and go the first time around. Guess I'll just give it a bit more time...