hey everyone

firstly jenushka- my heart just broke for you thinking of having to take the phone call from your friends who had a good 12w scan the day after your d&c...as if it isn't hard enough already without that happening...not their fault of course but bad timing or what? good idea to talk to the counsellor about it because i am sure the constant reminders will be so hard. once again sending you major and please know that it is definitely ok to come unstuck, sometimes being strong and dealing with something means admitting to yourself it is ok to feel and hurt etc if that's what you need to do to heal.

oh and with the pain and bleeding...after my d&c i had nothing other than spotting for the first few days and thought i would get away with it but then it started really bad. i remember being really scared and speaking to my ob on the phone who said it was different for everyone but most ladies had some pain and heavy bleeding with clots at some stage. definitely call or see your doctor if you are worried and need the peace of mind.

thanks to everyone for your quiet and sneaky congrats...have poas again and it is pretty much the same as yesterday, maybe a smidgeon darker. it is pretty clear though, even dh is claiming it to be a bfp. i guess i just don't want to admit it to myself until i have at least got past when af is due (sunday). but who am i kidding, because i know if i end up losing this one i will still be devastated...maybe i should just enjoy it while i can?