Beaksie! We've missed you in here! Hope you doing well!
Hope all of you are doing well too :)
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Beaksie! We've missed you in here! Hope you doing well!
Hope all of you are doing well too :)
Hello everyone!!
Everyone must be bd :lol: mighty quiet here at the moment!!
I am Ok just want to have a rant ...then I will be better!!
My sisters is due to have her 2nd baby any day now and I am feeling
a bit disappointed in myself - I am feeling really realy excited for her
and can't wait for the bub to arrive - ringing every day and being
very supportive - yet at the same time I feel like gosh here we go again
someone else having a baby and not me!!My sister falls pregnant like it
is absolutely no big deal and sails thru pregnancy like its no big thing.
My sister is great and we are really good friends but I feel so awful I am so envious of her and i cant put into words what i am feeling...I am just sick and tired of visitng everyone else in hospital and going to baby showers and christenings..blah ..blah...
Got another friend having a bub next week too so i think it is just getting to
me!!
My sister doesnt really ask much about the mc probablyt feels like it is
easier for me not to talk about it...i undestand... i would have been almost
6 months now...In midst of AF so it is such a reminder to me that i am not
pregnant at the moment!!
I am sure i am not alone in feeling the way i do but god i am really over being
happy for everyone else :(
Ok that is how i am feeling - thanks for listening girls...what would i do without all of you to listen and say all these horrible things to??
Hope everyone is having a good weekend - and I promise that I will be better soon.
XX
AnnaBelle
Annabelle - I know how you feel, I'm sure we have all had similar thoughts at different times. I think approaching Christmas makes it worse, because we think of all the "what could have beens" and then we have to face our families, who don't really understand how we are hurting. I hope your weekend improves and AF is kind to you,then tell her to pee off for good ;) Do something to make yourself laugh, or put on some favourite music and dance around like a maniac -that always makes me feel better. xx
*waves hi to everyone*
Hello and lots of hugs to Annabelle and everyone else who's feeling fragile and not very Christmassy (yeah, that's me too!) at the moment. AF is here with me and extra heavy, BettyBoop, and I've had a word to her and she says she'll be with you very soon ;) Hope that your bt on Monday brings some good news for you. :pray:
Lol, Belinda! I have visions of you dancing around like a maniac! :D Hope you're having a great weekend.
Thanks Pash! When do you head back to Oz? How's the weather where you are? Aircon is on almost 24/7 here lately. Too hot for much snuggling! :p
Hi everybody :hello:
Just dropping by and I thought Id say hi!
Annabelle- You are so not the only one who feels like that! Ive been feeling like Im the biggest cow put on earth at the moment because Ive just found out 2 friends are preg (8 and 13 weeks respectively) and both have 6 month olds!! Outwardly Im managing to be really happy and supportive of them, which I am. But on the inside it's like little knives stabbing away,and I can feel the envy and resentment building up. Particularly as DP says "we just have to get into it (BD) and start popping them out". Coz gee it's just that easy for me! :( More and more Im feeling as though My DD is gonna end up an only child, and though I know Im eternally blessed to have her, it also just makes me feel really sad....
So anyway, you're absolutely not alone on that front. It just all sucks.
OK, enough of the negative stuff....16 days till Santa comes. Yay!!! :confetti:
Have been teaching DD about Santa, so now if she sees a pic, or someone on telly she lets ot a nice low Ho Ho Ho. Bloody funny.
To Starrysky (where'd you beed??), Treelo, Kbowman, Pash, LizJessie, Bettyboop, Kaib and all the rest of you wonderful chicks .....hope you're all great!!!:D
annabelle - sending you a big hug , i know how you fell . i had a little bit of spotting last night , thought AF might have been here when i woke but nothing , bit strange.Big hugs to you all.
hi girls
sorry i havn't been on much latly keeping pretty quiet really hope everyone is well thinking of you all and spreading round the baby dust for those bfp's this mnth wouldn't that be the best chrissy present of all
take care girls
big hugs xx
thankyou all for trying to sent me AF but alittle spotting is not enough lol.
Hey bettyboop, missbelinda77,kbowman, beaksie, thanks for your support after my rant......I feel normal knowing you understand me and how i am feeling..
missbelinda I did crank up the music today (while doing housework) & that
certainly helped...nothing like a bit of powderfinger to get me smiling !!
betty - girl you must be so frustrated grrrrrrrrrrr...maybe AF is on her way now that you have some spots - hug right back to you :D
Hey i think yesterday i was like that because i seriously went to the shops and all i bought was presents for my sisters new bub, then something for the nos 1 baby so he doesnt feel left out when nos 2 arrives..and then i had to buy a christening present.....got back to the car arms full of ..baby things...for everyone else!!
That i guess triggered my little melt down..
Feeling bit better today thanks to you all...no baby yet for my sis!
I guess the only thing that will make this better is a BFP for xmas for us all yipee!
Thanks again for listening
AnnaBelle
xx
Hi everyone
Well, here I am, never in my wildest dreams would I think that this would happen to me!
I just found out on Thursday that my 10 week pregnancy was a blighted ovum. This is after a chemical pregnancy in August at 5 weeks. I had my d&c on Friday and I guess the preg hormones are starting to drop because Im starting to feel pretty damn emotional.
AnnaBelle, I swear I could have written your little rant. It seems everyone I know who decides to get pregnant, go off the pill and in 2 months they are pregnant. We have been trying 13 months now and I feel like Im just about to lose it emotionally. My close girlfriend is 12 weeks pregnant and I had to get my other friend to call and tell her about the blighted ovum because I just couldnt do it. I avoided a Christmas party yesterday with all our close friends as 3 girls there are pregnant. I just dont know how Im going to get through the festive season this year.
We have had all the standard tests and everything is normal. Had an appointment with a FS in October who said we should just keep going the way we are as he cant see what the problem is. (At the time I was pg but didnt know it). Well, obviously there is a frickin problem because wouldnt I be pregnant and staying pregnant if there wasnt? I dont want to hear, "Well, obviously you can get pregnant, so just keep trying, blah blah blah!"
How long should you wait after a d&c to try again,does anyone know? My ob said to wait one cycle, but when will that be? Should I count this bleeding from the d&c as a period, or will another one come in a few days when the hormone levels drop?
Im thinking I might wait till after Feb as we are going to Fiji at the beginning of it, yay! Im trying to look at the positive side of things, ie I can have ****tails around the pool, eat the raw fish salad they make there, not have to worry about listeria etc etc. It doesnt quite compensate but I will take anything positive I can get out of this situation at the moment, if you know what I mean...
Well girls, thats my intro. Sorry if I sound like a crazy woman, I probably am at the moment!!!
Hayley xx
Hi all - Well, I'm 4DPO and I already feel like AF is on her way! What the??
Hope you're all doing well :)
Hello there,
HayleyW - Welcome to our little group - I am very sorry to hear what has happened - it is just so hard but take one day at a time - looking at the
positive side of things is an excellent way of coping - so yes if you are not
preg when you go to Fiji - ****tails & seafood galore for you :D
It is truly the only way to get through these disappointments - have a rant
and rave now and again too - we are listening!! it helps :D
When I had my missed mc i was advised to wait for one period and then start
TTC again - my ob said it just makes sure everything is "gone" and then if
you do fall preg it makes dating the pregnancy more accurate cause you count
from the first day of your last period :D
Hope your stay here is short and sweet xo
Lizjessie - i tell you this TTC does your head in you notice so much that you never did before about your cycle - oh the days of just getting your AF and not thinking anything more about it !! so innocent weren't they!
Good luck in your TWW
I am OK - gearing up for ovulation in the next week or so !!
Got the worst blind pimples on my chin - does anyone else get them ??
No baby yet for my sister !!
Have a great night
Anna
Annabelle - man, i totally echo your rant about everyone being preg, and especially the bit about your sis - that is exactly the same in my family. She has never had a m/c and her pregs have been always so easy. Aaaaaargh. Not fair!
Hayley - so sorry hun about your news. Hope you can find all the support and friendship you ned in here to help you through.
Big hugs to everyone else.
Hi ladies
Thanks for your welcomes. Can I just vent here please? Ive already vented to my DH and my other girlfriend who is having problems TTC but still feel like I need to get it off my chest.
Well, I finally called my girlfriend today, the one who is 12 weeks pregnant after being off the pill for 2 months. And so after all the are you oks etc she proceded to tell me that I should take a break and relax and then it will happen. She told me that I have been consumed with TTC for the past year, and thats why Im not getting pregnant. She told me that after the first month that she didnt concieve and she started stressing out she just told herself to relax and then it happened!!!! So, apparently girls, thats what we need to do. Can you believe this??? AFTER 2 MONTHS????? She has the gall to say that to me, who has been trying for over a year and 2 failed pregnancies!!!
I swear, I just feel like isolating myself from pregnant women at the moment. I cant handle their happiness and their smug satisfaction in their fertility. And I know I sound completely irrational and nasty but I just cant help the way I feel and I know you girls understand.
LizJessie, how are you feeling now? Still feel like AF is on the way?
H xx
Hi ladies. I was just going over the thread. I just wanted to say, never give up! We lost our last bub as missed m/c at 9 weeks. Lucky for us, we conceived again after just one cycle. So far so good. We are expecting healthy baby girl in about 14 weeks. Wishing you all the best for healthy and successful pregnancies. Mummyhood is wonderful :)
Babydust to you all.
xo
Hayley I'm sorry for all the grief you've been through the last year. Welcome to this thread, and I hope you leave a smugly happy pg lady yourself :) It is hard to deal with well meaning but really hurtful "advice". So I totally hear you there.
Kerry I'm in Sydney now, afer a fab stopover in HK. It's a bit cool for this time of year, and I've been up since 3am! But I'm just happy to be with family and friends.
Annabelle :hugs: It just feels so unfair sometimes. But you're a wonderful supportive sister, and your nieces/nephews are lucky to have you for an aunt. As will be your kids when you do have them.
Bettyboop I hope the spotting turns into AF. I totally understand your frustration.
Hello to everyone else.
My HCG levels had dropped to 5, but then last week, went back up to 8. This is bad news for me. I had thought that I was so close to normal, and had counted out the 6 months, after which we could start ttc again. I had gotten so excited, and I guess I had counted my chickens. But now that it's gone up, I wonder whether January holds chemo for me, and and no ttc until 2009.
Sorry for dumping this on this thread, which should be full of hope and cheer. I just feel so down and hopeless. I couldn't sleep v well last night. And just feel like this has taken the shine off the joy of seeing everyone again. I don't want to be unhappy now, but just feel so hopeless. 2009 is so far away and I'll be so much older then.
I know in the past I've been really melodramatic by expecting the worst. But somehow, whenever I get my hopes up, they're dashed.
Hi everyone.
Pash - Hope you're doing OK hun. Im sorry your HCG has gone back up. Hopefully its a one off, cause it only went up a tiny bit. I can understand your fear about chemo and frustration about having to postpone TTC further, and I'll have everything crossed for you that it isnt the case. Goodluck, and I hope it works out.
Wow, this thread is quiet at the moment! Everyone must be busy with Christmas shopping and other preparations.
My HCG went back down to 5 this week, which was wonderful news. I don't know what's going on with my body, but I wish it would just work itself out. Thanks Beaksie. I go through such ups and downs, along with my HCG. Reading my last post now, I wonder why I got so upset. But at the time, it was a different story.
Hi everyone !
Pash- Im really glad you're doing better this week. It must be so frustrating!
To Starrysky, Kbowman, Treelo, Kaib, LizJessie, Annabelle and EVERYONE else, big hello's. Well this will prob be my last post for a while as the removalists arrive tomorrow, and I don't know when I'll have access to the internet again. Hopefully by the time I come back you will all have had nice big POSITIVE tests, and will be outta here.
I'll be popping my head in to check up, but dont think Im being a cow for not posting.
Anyway, wishing you all a wonderful, fun filled and happy Christmas, and may all your dreams come true for the New Year. Goodluck and take care girls. XXXXX
I'm still reading this post, hoping to hear about all the BFP's before Christmas.
We have officially stopped trying and are commencing the process to become foster parents - but looks like we have a bit of a wait ahead of us to get approval, with the training scheduled for March next year. I think I can pretty much sum my life up as "a time of waiting" :)
Hey Beaksie - I know you probably won't get a chance to read this for a little while, but I hope all goes well with the move, and hope you have a 'low drama' christmas with the family. Look after yourself during the move. Looking forward to seeing you back after your move (unless of course you get your BFP in that time!).
Hi Pash - it is a little quiet in here at the moment ... I think you're right with everyone doing the christmas shopping and preps. Hope you're hanging in there.
Hi MissBel - I'm sorry to hear that you've had to make the decision to stop TTC - I can't imagine the myriad of emotions that you and DH have gone through in your journey up to this point in order to make that decision. If you don't mind me asking, have you chosen to go down the path of foster care (as opposed to adoption) because it's a faster process? I hope that time travels quickly for you in this process. We would love to keep hearing from you - stay in touch.
Hi to everyone else (please don't feel offended for the lack of personals today). I must admit, I've been lurking but not had anything much to report on myself. I'm nearly at end of TWW, so will be looking at testing in a few days. I'm keeping my fingers crossed for BFPs galore on this thread before christmas! I'm sure there's a few of us coming up for testing over this next week - HJ, LJ, Starrysky, Zionsmum???? Will catch up again shortly.
kaib - Good luck with testing later in the week! We were told that adoption cases are very rare and a very long drawn out process. We are looking at a sibling program with foster care - which are placements up to 18mths - before we look at long term care.
Some of you have seen me around since my loss in April I have been having a hard time with everything lately but finally today I got my BFP, symptoms are strong I got blood drawn today and I go again Monday. Fingers crossed!!!! I can't wait to hear of more BFP'S :pray:
Congratulations Diane - what beautiful news to celebrate at Christmas with your family :)
Hi MissBel - I sincerely hope that the waiting isn't too long for the foster care process - you will make very compassionate foster parents given the heart wrenching journey you've already been through to get to this point. I'd heard that adoption is a long & tedious process in Australia. I've already had discussions with DH as to if we can't have children of our own, we'd look to overseas adoption programs, but I've heard the process to go through overseas adoption can also be tedious and expensive.
Hi Zionsmum - oh, that is such wonderful news, congratulations! I will be praying that this one digs in real deep for you.
Thanks so much ladies! I wouldn't have made it through everything without belly belly I found this site right when I miscarried and its helped me through all my ups and downs. I can't wait to hear of the bfp's to come and they will come.
Fingers crossed for you kaib~
AND Miss Belinda keep us updated on your situation as well. :)
Woo hoo Diane - so very happy for you. What wonderful Christmas news! All the very best and i hope this is a very very sticky bub.
MissBelinda - i think you are very brave and i really admire your strength of heart and character.
Kaib - good luck with your testing and good luck to everyone else at end of TWW as well. Fingers crossed for you all.
Pash - you are such a mighty strong chicky and i am soglad your hcg dropped for you.
Beaksie - all the best for the move hun xxoo.
Big squeezy hugs to everyone else!
As for me, not much news really. Have just finished our week of BDing (five nights straight!) and hope that we did it when i was O'ing. FF has stuffed me round this month, not sure if i O'ed on day 14-15, (which matches my temps and CM), but it seems to think i O'd earlier, just because i had two nights earlier on where i woke up in a sweat. I am going with day 15 though i reckon.
Just a quick qu. - has anyone ever used Preseed? It is supposed to be the only lubricant that helps conception and does not kill sperm. We used it this time, every night for the five nights... wonder if it will help?
If not, then we are off to see fertility specialist on January 10 to hopefully get some answers and get put on the right path.
Have a good night everyone and chat soon.
LSB xxoo
Hi LSB - yeh, I had difficulty with agreeing with FF this month - it initially said I o'd on day 15, but I reckon I o'd on 17. This makes it difficult to know when to test - I'm going to hold off until 14 DPO (based on ov at cd17) which is Wednesday for me. This was our fourth cycle at using pre-seed - I really do think it helps for us, as I have very scant CM so have always had to use a lubricant even before TTC. The pre-seed dries up faster than normal lubricant though, so we generally use two each time. Hope that isn't TMI!! Have fingers crossed for you that you caught the egg this month!
MissBelinda I wish you all the best, no matter which path opens up for you. Do keep us posted with the foster process though. I'd love to know how you are going.
Diane Congratulations! :dance: What wonderful news. I hope you get strong positive results from the bloods and it all stretches out into a lovely uneventful 9 months.
LSB Wow! You have been busy ;)
All the ladies in the TWW, :crossfingers: for when you do test.
Thanks for all the well wishes! We were on our 6th month of ttc and it seems unreal. I literally check the site all the time to see of more its still early yet.
Hi everyone,
I thought I'd better drop in and say hello! I've been pretty scarce in here lately - I've been struggling a bit emotionally with the Clomid and posting more in LTTTC and the TTC with Clomid/Metformin thread, we have been TTC for a year now :( But things are levelling out a bit for me now after finishing this months course of Clomid, so I am trying to stay relaxed about everything now. It has been difficult for me this year coping with the idea of Christmas, with feelings over the latest miscarriage being so fresh - I'm still dreading it a bit unfortunately :(
I should O later this week, so we are at it like rabbits ATM. I'm absolutely convinced this will be our month because my ob is on leave all of January :rolleyes: but we'll see. I have 2 more cycles on Clomid after this one and then I'm not sure what will happen - probably FSH injections I guess - so I'm really hoping it won't get to that for us.
Congratulations Diane on your BFP :)
MissBelinda - all the best with the adoption and/or foster care. What a wonderful thing to do :)
pash - hope your HCG continues to go down :crossfingers: I don't think I can even begin to imagine the ups and downs you are going through.
kaib and LSB - all the best for the TWW!
Hello everyone !!
CONGRATULATIONS zionsmum that is awesome very excited for you - I love hearing of BFPs here it is such an inspiration to us all and gives us such hope too
(sorry i would do some nice icons but my computer freezes lately when i attempt to do a smily face or anyting on my messagees - is that happening to anyone else??
hello everyone - been really busy but thinking of you all - my sis had a baby girl on Friday so now i am the proud aunty of a boy and girl - pretty exciting !!
I am now on the TWW - i think i haved Od over the weekend so now am just waiting and fingers crossed that santa thinks i have been a good girl this year - hee hee!!
Hope everyone is well and look forward to chatting some more.
AnnaBelle
fingers crossed for you annabelle that the NY will bring you some great news. Were o were is my AF.
*waves to everyone*
Hope your all doing well.. Still in the TWW and this cycle, there is a lack of symptoms except for feeling a bit sick and cramps since 5DPO.
Never mind, maybe next cycle
hi everyone,
sorry I have been mia for awhile.
congratulations zionsmom, that is fantastic news!!!
beaksie I hope the move goes well.
soory this is just short note, my dps dad is coming to stay so I have been cleaning like a mad thing (seeing as this is his house!!) hope everyone is well and good, welcome to the newbies hope your stay here is short and sweet!
lizjessie, it is so nice to hear you a lot more upbeat these days.
new job is going well, but I am very tired, not used to this anymore, working that is!!
crossing my fingers for lots more bfps, cmon girls, WE CAN DO IT!!!
Gotta luv yas and leave yas,
xxx
Hi everybody,
Hope you are all doing okay at this crazy time of year! Wouldn't a healthy BFP for us all be the best presents :pray: Or even just as an early 2008 pressie, that would do!!
Mainly just wanted to say hi PASH - I do feel for you, it's da...m difficult - it must be so hard to have to wait before you can ttc again. I really really hope your hcg continues to go down. Wierd how it goes up and down. And don't feel bad about dumping, thats what we are all here for, and you have had a particularly bad 2007, like me - but 2008 will be our year Pash, I think the tide will turn back in our favour, and you will start your family. Glad to hear you are back in Oz, and if you get down to Tassie, let me know - I'll either shout you a big glass of red and some good Tassie soft cheese; or make you a fresh juice (cos you'll be utd :) ) ahh....... anyway, wishing you the best of best of luck !!!!
Hope everybody else is okay - I'm doing okay, still very much have my moments. I'm about to ovulate again, so thats something good........ we will just keep on trying, and eventually, we will get what we want.
Take care all.
Lee xoxo
Thank you Starrysky and everyone in general. :)
Pash I hope your numbers continue to go down and you are able to move on and ttc soon.
Good Luck to all those about to ovulate!!!!!!!!! :pray::pray::pray:
Finger crossed for those on the tww.
Hi all,
I feel somewhat nervous and ambivalent about posting, but I've had very clear symptoms (same as early symptoms in previous pregnancies) for the past 5 days...have tested twice today and have very clear BFPs within the specified time. I'm 13 DPO. I'm excited, but to be completely honest, the pessimist in me is not allowing me to get my hopes up. I've made an appointment to see my GP - can't get in until Friday; so I'll be asking for blood test as I want to know if my hormone levels are lower than they should be and therefore whether I should be "preparing" myself. I have another session of acupuncture tomorrow, so hopefully that will help make this one stick. Doesn't it absolutely suck that we can't enjoy the simple pleasure of getting a BFP without having in the back of our minds the thoughts that it might not stick? Even my DH is saying he doesn't want to get his hopes up until we at least see the little one on a scan. Don't get me wrong, I'm extremely excited that I've got this far again...I'm 4 wks & 1 day! But I'm just so scared....
wow that is great new just before christmas, is very normal to be scared just take one day at a time. we are all here for you.send you a big hug and pray for a sticky baby.