Two week wait support #2

Acria - im so sorry hun that this is happening. I understand your anger and sadness, and i hope that you can find the strength somehow to get past it all. Im thinking of you sweety

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treelo

Acria - sending u major hugs hun. I know how u feel. I feel exactly the same way every cycle lately. Try to hold on to the hope matey - i pray that you will one day soon hold your much-longed-for bubby. uge hugs and we are all always here for you. xo.

Thankyou so much for all your kind and supportive words ladies, Sasha, Treelo, Belinda, LSB. It really does mean a lot to know there are people who really understand how I'm feeling, and have been there. It gives me that little ray of sunshine I need to feel like myself.

My body can't decide what it's doing. I've had another bit of blood, but very watery. Now it seems to have stopped, for now anyway. I think I'll do a test with FMU in the morning, that will be cycle day 28, so a test should be pretty much accurate.

I'm feeling okayish now, compared to before anyway. If I'm not pg, it gives me from now to March to lose weight, which will give me greater chances of successfully carrying a baby fullterm, and likely better outcomes for the baby as well. So there is a positive...I'd just much rather be pg now. Fingers crossed.

I hope you girls get some good news of your own soon as well. Thinking of you all, and hoping this place gets cleared out!

Lisa xx

Lisa - im sooo sorry if it is AF - i was sooo hoping you would be one of the first to get a BFP!
Try and keep thinking positive and i know its hard but cheer up!

Hi ladies,

I thought I'd pop in quickly to give an update. Am down in Sydney - DH is on conference for 2 days, and then we've got time to do our own stuff towards end of the week. Meanwhile, I'm taking it easy in a motel room - brought the laptop with me - hence the quick post now.

Firstly I just want to say thank you for everyone who posted their encouraging words & best wishes in response to my posts on Sunday (after my very faint BFP).

Although I took another test on Sunday later in the day and it showed up an even fainter line, unfortunately I haven't had a positive result since Sunday. I tested again this morning with FMU and no line - not even the faintest shadow! I definitely think that Sunday's result was a positive, but I guess I've experienced a chemical pregnancy. I am definitely sad about it, but because DH & I looked on the first tests cautiously, I guess it's not as hard to pick up the pieces & move on, hoping for a better outcome next month. AF hasn't showed up yet, but my temps have been down since Saturday (when I started spotting), and they haven't gone up at all, so I'm anticipating AF is on her way still. I'm not going to test again until Thursday, but I'm pretty convinced this isn't my month. I guess this highlights the risks in testing too early, as we're more at risk of identifying a 'positive' pregnancy that just won't be viable - if I hadn't have tested on Sunday, I would still be thinking that this again wasn't my month. I had a dream last night that two doctors were doing all these exams on me in an attempt to save my unborn baby - I don't recall whether the baby survived, but I remember the contraptions that they were examining me with, and they were horrific (a bit like a horror movie really). Not sure what all that means in the scheme of things.

After catching up on the posts, I just want to say before I go that Beaksie, I am really feeling for you. I know things may seem quite bleak and hopeless at the moment, especially given that you don't know either way what is happening with your body - and it's the not knowing that is the worst. I know this may seem flippant, but I'm being sincere when I say that I am a firm believer that 'all things happen for a reason' - we may not ever fully understand the reasons (as there is much in this world that we can and will never understand) - but I really believe there is a bigger plan and bigger purpose in everything we go through. If we always got what we wanted straight away, we would never grow emotionally and spiritually, we wouldn't learn patience, and we wouldn't experience the joy and gratitude that we would experience if we had have waited for something. I also believe that each of us will be better mothers because of what we've gone through to finally get to that 'pot of gold at the end of the rainbow'. Our little ones will always be wanted, always be cherised, and they will always be a blessing in our lives because they were 'waited for'. I watched Sunrise this morning and saw the story about the 13 year old who is 14 weeks pregnant but doesn't know what to do with the baby (ie to keep or terminate) - in a way I don't feel saddened for the girl as she can still make a life for herself either way (as hard as her life may be) - but I really feel for that baby, growing up with the possibility of knowing that he/she wasn't really wanted. Our children will know that they were, and are, wanted. Beaksie, I am thinking of you, and for whatever reason you are having to go through all of this, know that we're here to walk with you through it.

A quick hi also to Acria - am thinking of you today as you test &/or wait for AF. I really hope that AF stays away for you so that you don't have to wait until next year. And Lee - wishing you all the best with testing - I can't believe you've held off since Sunday! Am thinking of you.

Hi to everyone else - I will catch up sometime soon. (So much for the short post!)

Well i havent tested yet at 9DPO, this is a huge achievement for me, as i normally cave around 7 in the hope that i O early !! This morning i ordered my 10miu hpt from LC so as soon as they come (in about 2 days) then i will test !! I dont think we bd enough but who knows !!

Kaib - im sorry hun, sending you big hungs.
hj - how you doing hun?
lsb - were nearly there sweety !!

everyone else - i hope the tww is being kind to you hun.

hugs
treelo

Hi everybody -
Kaib - Thanks so much. Can't believe you are thinking of me when you are faced with this potential disappointment yourself. You girls have all been such a huge saviour for me at a time when its easy to feel lonely and depressed. I want to thank you ALL for taking me into your hearts and thoughts, and want you to know that you're all in mine also. Kaib, big big :hug: I sincerely hope that AF stays away, and that BFP comes back. Sometimes its the tests. Have you used the same brands?
I agree about the perils of testing early, yet we want it so much, we all do it. Thats one of the things Ive found hard this cycle, is doing so many Hpts. I reckon I got 2 false positives, as all the rest were BFN, and I swear ive done at least 12 or so. Its just so hard. I sometimes envy those women who didnt have access to hpts, so wouldnt know they were utd till at least 2 afs were MIA. I truley believe this is why theres such a high instance of MC. Not that there's more, we just know about them now. Antway. I know Im ranting, but keep your chin up, and hopefully it will all work out.;)

Treelo - thanks im hanging in there - the days are going soooo slow - if there is such thing as really early symptoms im not getting any - however im looking! i cant believe u havent given into temptation yet! i would of if i was you! fingers crossed for 2 days time!

Kaib - that was such a beautiful message you wrote for beaksie, got me all teary eyed! Sorry to hear you got an even fainter line, fingers crossed it will get stronger for you! :goodluck:

beaksie - good point about testing early but I think every women is guilty of it! I am getting my husband to hide my damn themometer this cycle once I know I have O'd..... I am sooooo bad like that! I am sure you are not alone in the amount of HPT's one uses; thats just a part of all of us I reckon, being a woman.

treelo - well done hon on not caving in to test. 9DPO might still be a little early so good timing with ordering your hpt's off the net.

As for me well I have decided to hold off till the 12th November (af due then).
Feeling confident about this cycle but probably because we both are making more of an effort on the BD side of things. Hubby said to me this arvie "honey I really want our bfp this month" which made me feel all 'mooshy' sometimes I feel like he wants this baby more than I do (and thats saying something) lol

hj - id say you have a good chance this month having BD'd either side of your O date. Best of luck hon!

Hi to everyone else.... I am off to start dinner.... be back later

Hi ladies.

Kaib - sorry to hear about the lighter lines, and so on. Keeping my fingers crossed, for you, just in case. I'm also glad that you're maintaining such a positive outlook, and you're just such a beautiful person, so supportive of everyone when you're going through possible disappointment yourself.

Beaksie - thinking of you. You must be incredibly strong to still be so sane with the way your body seems to be messing you about at the moment. Big hugs to you, thinking positive thoughts.

Sasha - it's great to hear your Dh is so enthusiastic, it makes the whole thing feel that much better, and more 'together', if you know what I mean.

Treelo - well done on holding off on testing so far. I know what you mean about wondering if you O'd early..we end up making up so many theories and trying to weigh and justify things in our minds, drives us all mad! At least when your hpts arrive, there may be a chance of getting a bfp if you're pg. It's not completely unheard of to get them at 10dpo. Not that common, but still..

HJ - I have a good feeling for you this cycle. Not sure why, just a good feeling :)

Sorry if I missed anyone out! Totally unintentional, just got home from work, and a depressing shopping trip in which I realised I really MUST lose weight. It's getting very bad indeed. I'm too embarrassed to buy skirts or anything because of my ankles -_-

In TTC matters, I've had no bleeding at all today, not even pink mucus. Hardly any cramping either and my ankles are icnredibly swollen. I did a hpt with FMU this morning, and it came up bfn, couldn't even see a shadow of a hint of a whisper of a line. Last time I was pg, I got my bfp when AF was 3 days late..so maybe. Haven't completely given up hope...but still..gahh!

Just trying to think 'If I'm not pg..I can exercise hard, starve, and not have to worry about the baby'. Obviously, if I am pg, I'll be eating very sensibly and nutritiously, and only doing moderate, gentle exercise.

Lisa xx

Lisa - GL tomorrow. Hope AF stays away for you. And Im hearing you on the shopping issue. Really sucks!!

GOODMORNING EVERYONE!
can someone please tell me what my ticker says -i cant see it on work computer! hehe

Sasha - hello how are u today? everyone has said that i have BD'ed on the right days so here's hoping! :)

Lisa - how are things going for you? have you done a test? was it AF that arrived the other day? thank you sooo very much for telling me that youhave a good feeling about my cycle this mth - i hope your feeling is right - as i dont have any feelings - for some reason i cant see my self getting a big pregnant belly! and i know i shouldnt think like that! but i dont just want it too be the only one getting a BFP i want to share the excitment with you and everyone else out there! lets hope that this is our mth!!! :)

Oh i forgot to tell everyone about my scare last night - last night i was starting to feel yucky in my tummy - the kind of sign i get when AF is about to arrive which would of been very early for her! but i woke up this morning feeling good and no AF - so im hoping its not a sign that she is on her way!

HJ - your ticker says day 24. As for me..I'm starting to think it maybe wasn't AF. Still no real cramping, just small twinges occasionally, and I've had virtually no bleeding. There was a slight bit of watery blood last night, but it was very little, and now nothing since. AF usually has one day of being light for me, then comes on very very heavy flow, with clots and strong cramps and sore hips within a day or so. It's been a few days now..

I did a test yesterday which came up bfn. I'm going to try to hold off until Friday before I test again..if I can manage.

Lisa xx

Lisa - having no AF has got to be a good sign - as for the BFN maybe bub just dosent want to be caught out yet! haha!

Lisa - sounds really promising for you chick. Hope AF stays away, and your bfn turns to bfp soon. Fingers crossed.
Af is now 13 days late. Arggghhh! Have docs appt tomorrow, hopefully a BT will give me the answers I need. Finally....

Goodluck Beaksie

Thanks heaps, but Im not expecting much. XX

as everyone keeps telling me - just think positive and all will be good!

man !!!!! iv been thinking positive for 3 months and nothing !!

im just saying what i keep getting told day in and day out! haha
but dont worry we are next for BFP's!

im feeling a bit off again tho - so i think i may get an early visitor!

oh i hope not hj!! surely it has to be our turn soon !!!! I just really dont know how much longer i can do this.

i know exactly how you feel!

eeww.TMI, I know, but had a little bit of lightly brown tinged cm on the paper before. Ahhh, maybe AF will get here in time to cancel my doc appointment tomorrow...

beaksie - best of luck to you hon for tomorrow. I am praying for you that your BT will bring you much good news! Last week I did the same thing I was bleeding but went and had a BT done anyway; you should do that too that way you know for sure either way!! Think positive!!

HJ - I am good and yeah I still have my fingers crossed for you to get your BFP this month darl!

Hi girls, Beaksie i hope you get some answers soon hun.
Well my tests arrived today from LC, so i will test tomorrow morning, although it will be to early im sure. I also just got something to take my mind of ttc and to fill in the tww, i was just voted in as Registrar of the junior rugby league club that my son plays at....im going to be one busy little chicken !!!!!

hugs all
treelo

Treelo - congrats on being appointed Registrar for your son's footy club. That will indeed keep your mind off the TWW. Fingers crossed for two lines in the morning, let us know how you go ok.

I am off to bed, hope to see a post from you bright n early tomorrow (no pressure or anything hehe) :lol:

Nite nite xx

Treelo, thinking of you for tomorrow.

All my warm vibes going out to everyone, too exhausted to write anymore tonight!

Still no bleeding from me, AF is officially late now.

Lisa xx

Hi everyone. Big news from me. AF is here!! Woo hoo!! 2 weeks late tomorrow,but hey, we get there in the end. I feel so relieved. Am definitely thinking it is just a "resettlement" after my MC, and has made me feel more positive about trying again next month. Some would say Im a sucker for punishment! Anyways, can cancel my appt in the morning.
Acria - I have my fingers crossed that AF stays absent, and you get your BFP. Goodluck chickie!
Treelo- Goodluck with testing tomorrow, but dont be disappointed if its too early.

Oooooo Beaksie - at least you know where you are at now! and im glad you are feeling positive about it all!

Acria - when are you doing a test?????? i would of done one by now! hehe

Yeah Treelo - that will def keep you busy and keep your mind off TTC - and that is when it will all happen for you - when you least expect it! its tomorrow morning - how did your test go?

Sasha - how are things going with you?

for me still no AF - im on CD25 and i am just dying to do a test - i started to feel a bit yucky yesterday again in my stomach so still not sure what the go is!

No joy for me this morning, but all hope is not lost yet....im only 11dpo. will try Sunday morning again.

hugs
treelo

Treelo - sorry about your test hon but yeah as you say 11dpo is still quite early. I would wait now as hard it is until you are late for AF that way you dont have to deal with the disappointment again IYKWIM

HJ - I am feeling optimistic about this cycle. Going off Ovulation calculators I am starting my fertile period today so hubby and I are going to BD now every day; well we'll try anyways whether it happens is another story :lol: until 'O' is confirmed with my temps then the thermometer is going away!! Told DH to hide it somewhere so I dont use it...... a longer post is in the other 'TTC 1-6months' thread.

Acria - no AF is good news! Sounds promising. I have my fingers crossed that she stays away for you darl and you get your BFP real soon!

Beaksie - glad to see you are happy to see AF. I understand how you feel as I was like that back in July when my cycle came back after not having her for 9 months (had one depo provera shot last september) Good luck for this cycle!

Sasha - sounds like a good idea to me! thats when it will all happen for you!

Morning ladies. Embarrassed to say I just got out of bed and had a shower, at 10:40am. Oh dear. I've been getting up progressively later each morning this week. Still no AF, and just the same small tinges every now and then. My ankles were swollen as soon as I got out of bed this morning (horrid things), and we have a full length mirror in the bathroom which you need to walk past to get to the shower, and I couldn't help but notice, I'm sure my nipples look darker, lol. Though perhaps I'm just thinking myself into again..however, I've never been able to think AF into not coming. (I tried many times as a teenager in the summer when I wanted to swim!)

I"ll be testing tomorrow morning, as long as AF stays away. That was the compromise I made with DH - he gets 'thingy' about the cost of HPTs, which is fair enough, they are pricey. I'll buy one tonight so I can use FMU tomorrow.

HJ - I still have that good feeling for you this month. I'm glad to hear that AF hasn't shown up, despite the feelings in your tummy. Think positive.

Beaksie - At first I was a bit disappointed for you when I saw that AF had finally come for you, but I'm glad to see that you're thinking of it in a positive light, and I can see what you mean about everything getting settled again, and now you know where you are with it. Your positivity is an inspiration.

Sasha - Once again, excellent idea about getting DH to hide the thermometer. It's like any addiction, it'll drive you mad for the first few days, but then not using it will be liberating ;) Now get the BD happening! ;)

Treelo - excellent news about your election. It'll be so good for you to have something else to think about and concentrate on. I agree with the other girls about it probably being too early for a positive test. Even though it does happen, usually people AF needs to be late before they get a BFP, so hold out for as long as you can! Sunday sounds like a good plan :)

Lisa xx

Hey Lisa-Im sooo excited for you! If I was a knitter,I'd be making booties by now.....hope, hope hope Af stays away.
Treelo- How you doing?? Dont stress about the bfns just yet, you've got plenty of time.
Sasha - good luck with the bding. Hope you catch that elusive egg
Hj - Good luck when you decide to test. have my fingers crossed for you!
I ordered 20 hpts from Lc last night. Bargain at under $50. I reckon I easily spent over $100 on hpts last cycle, and I refuse to do that again. Do you think 20 will be enough to satisfy my POAS addiction next cycle ? (lol)

Acria - i think i was about 13dpo when i got my last positive, so ill just wait. But i have 10 ultra sensitive hpt's so im sure ill use more than 1 between now and then. DH even text me to ask when we find out, he has never been that keen to know before !!!

Beaksie im a poas addict too hun, im really surprised i lasted this long. But my 10 tests will be gone way to quickly. But i have to admit, i have totally no signs at the moment, so there will probably be no joy at all for me this cycle.

Sasha - thanks for the support hun.

HJ - Im hoping something will happen !! its going to be a tough gig, especially with two little ones. I might have to pass up on team manager for the under 8's this year.

hugs
treelo

Acria - im still hoping you are right! ive got stabbing/crampy pains in lower r side now! hopefully implentation? but when does that usually happen?

Beaksie - 20 HPT!!!! what happens when soon you get a BFP - are you going to use them all? hahaha

Treelo - it will happen! these thing always do when you least expect them!

Well..I was in town, buying a baby magazine (hopeless, I know), and just happened to see a pack of three HPTs on sale for $6. So I bought them, of course. Got home and was busting to pee, so I thought 'why not'?

To cut a long story short, I did the test, and I think there's a very faint line! In fact I know there is! I can see it! So basically..I think that counts as a BFP! Good god!

DH will be home in an hour and a half, will get his opinion..but surely, a line is a line, yes?

Have discussed it with a very good mutual friend who has 2 kids (and one of the way), and he (yes he) agreed that it could just be faint because the hcg might not be very high yet. So going to test again over the weekend, and the head to the Dr.

Beaksie - I've actually been knitting a baby blanket for a while now..but whenever I get it out ans do some more on it, I either have a m/c, or AF comes, so I'm leaving it well alone. I suspect it may be cursed ;) And 20 HPTs should do nicely, lol.

HJ - last time I got pg I had severe pains on one side when AF was due, not like normal cramps at all, but very sharp...no idea if it was implantation, but that's the only time I've felt anything like it.

Treelo - Glad to hear Dh is so keen, makes it all the better :)

Sasha - Thinking of you chick.

Lisa xx

Thanks Lisa - heres hoping it is!