I have such a whirlwind of emotion coursing through me at the moment. My partner and I decided to start TTC again last night. I'm so happy and excited by the thought of being pregnant and finally holding the little life we created in my arms, but in the same heartbeat I am absolutley terrified I will misscarry again. I don't want to be obsessive about it... but I can't help it!!! I've been constantly thinking about this moment since for a long time and how much I want things to be perfect. My head is spinning and I'm feeling a little crazy right now... Think I just needed to vent, we're not telling anyone yet so I feel like I'm going to burst!!! Thanks for listening!