Englishrose - I am so sorry to hear about your son I agree with Castle, it is not too long and I hope that writing it and getting it out of your head for once has helped a little. I am so glad, after everything you have been through, that you have found a DP that is loving and treats you with the kindness you deserve. And also to hear that you have worked things out and have your parents in your life is a wonderful thing, what would we do without our mums?

For most people the TTC journey is full of excitement and anticipation but sadly there are a few, like us, who find the journey frustrating, frightening and heartbreaking.

Unfortunately I know the pain of a late loss, my son Nicholas was born sleeping at 36w1d in September last year. My DH and I started TTC straight away, about 6 weeks after his birth. It will be 9 months on Tuesday and we are still for that miracle of pregnancy to come our way.

You have posted in the right section, there are several women here who have suffered a late loss. We are all at different stages of our journey but the support that we get from each other has been a life saver to most of us. I am sure some, if not all, of them will post a reply to you. Personally, I wouldnt get by each month without my BB friends.

If you feel ready pop into the TTC thread and introduce yourself, you will be welcomed by everyone. Here is a link: TTC after Stillbirth/ Recurrent Miscarriage or Loss after 1st Trimester June 07 #1

Again, big :hugs: for you and your little He is up there watching over you, playing with all of our little ones.

Love Mel