I live near Cobram/Barooga if thats any help! The weather here is beautiful, not that it's helping the grass in our paddoks at all!
I think this whole board is a bit quiet today!
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I live near Cobram/Barooga if thats any help! The weather here is beautiful, not that it's helping the grass in our paddoks at all!
I think this whole board is a bit quiet today!
Hi Ladies...hoping this may be the place for me if you'll have me. I've been spending most of my time in the LTTTC AC threads but have officially been put in the 'recurrent miscarriage' box by FS so thought I'd pop my head in here and say hello :) We only found out on Monday that my HcG levels had dropped and now it's Thursday...I've seen FS this morning and the next plan is in place...and I started bleeding today...what a week! Looking forward to getting to know you all!
Hi Ellie, of course you are welcome, I am so sorry for your losses, and I'm sorry for your tough week. big hugs to you hon
jo - i know where you are talking about, have frequented there many a time, its a lovely part of the country. oh yeah i didn't of that, silly me, i hear some rain is supposed to be coming in the next few days
Hello ladies, i have gotten all that pesky work stuff out of the way and i am all yours!!!
OK, things are still see sawing for me. Up and down. One minute i feel completely pregnant, then the next i feel full of energy and fine. I just do not know.
I had to have the blood test on Wednesday morning, the dr said he will call as soon as he knows anything, but not to hold my breath till friday. I had to have a glucose test where i had to fast overnight. i did another test with my mum yesterday, got a neg then as Judy said, i keep them all and after we had been shopping (like hours later) i checked and again there was this faint line, but the dr has already told me that happens when they get left to dry up, so i dont know. And judy, i am not sure if i could get a picture of it on here, i am not in the digital age yet, i still have the old fashioned camera with good old film. I could send my pee soaked tests to you if you would really like!!! :lol: Just let me know!!! I have them all!!!
But seriously, the lines are there, i am just not convinced.
NOW ladies, when i get my blood test back- Judy you mentioned a number 152, what does that number mean and what number do i want to hear???????? I have never needed a confirmation BT before or even know what the go is, what actually comes up in my blood? I have heard other women in here talking about having levels chacked to make sure they are still producing something which means the pregnancy is happening or if their levels are down that M/c is going to occur. Can anyone give me a heads up on what the number should be and what it might mean so i may be prepared when the dr tells me??? Or is that another test all together?? I was also tested for my anticardio again and CMV which i had while in the last stages of preg with Zahra. Plus the glucose thing and something else, i cant remember what it all meant. I hope they dont make me wait for the results on everything before they call me, i specifically asked for a ASAP phone call re being pregnant.
I am abit scattered at the moment. I am quite edgy and flittery, i am telling everyone who asks anything everything that is going on, all the girls at work know, even my fav old mate Fred our 100 yr old licensee who lives here is up with whats going on. He said i shouldn;t have put up with the lady telling me i had to wait to have my BT (coz of the glucose thing) he said i should have told her to do it anyway and bugger the results coz all i cared about was whether i was preg and now i have to wait an extra day. "I just tell them what to do- you will learn when you get to be as old as me" quote.
Everyone has been really good. We had an old friend visit on Tues night and he brought a friend with him and as conversations happen, we told them where we were at (WAITING) and Ben, they guy we just met started to say congratulaions, Well Shane said thanks, "but even if we find out she is for sure, we are not accepting any congrats until the baby is born because we have tried this before and it hasn't worked." So straight away he says sorry and we showed him Zahra's shelf and he actually really looked and was really considerate and caring and we had just met this guy!! AS the night went on (we were watching the eclipse) and the boys had had a bit to drink, he actually pulled me aside and asked if he could ask me about it all. He was curious as to what had gone wrong in the past etc and we had a little chat and it was nice to have someone be really genuinly interested and not afraid to ask questions,(especially a bloke!!) but still have the respect not to intrude. It was a nice change, He wished us all the best when they left the next day and he said he will be thinking of us and to make sure we let him know either way, and let him know as soon as he can start congratulating us.
I tell you what tho- i am seriously thinking (in worst case senario) that if this isn;t going on now, that i may have to really consider surrogacy. I just stress myself out too much, I would love to be able to have my egg and shanes sperm make a baby and then put it somewhere else for 9 months where i am not reponsible for my thoughts and feelings to be influencing things. I am too aware of how much i influence my body. I know i am stressing out now, and i dont even know i am pregnant. I am aware that even that stress on my body is effecting everything, i know all of this but i cant stop it from happenening. Plus i may have to consider the fact that my body does not have a good track record for this and it may just be the option that i need to take. i just dont know. i know i am trying to cope, and i am trying to maintain some normality in my waiting days but it is so hard. i feel like i am floating around me and i am too scared to actually feel anything, oh ****, i am starting to cry, this sux.
the worst part is that i am not even coping waiting for a week to know if i am pregnant, how am i going to realistically make it through 9 months????
With plenty of ups and downs thats how.
BOOST OF DETERMINATION
i have to do it. i know i want to do it, but can i do it?
Going to hang around and wait for some replies, i will be floating in the threads. i am ok, its just nice to get it all out and it is the first time i have shed a tear, this week anyway.
THANKYOU EVERYONE FOR BEING HERE!!! i am ok, just letting it all out.
xox Kat
p.s Judy yes you can call me kat in here, its just on headings and sigs and stuff i didn't want my old name coz it was too obvious if someone checked new posts or stuff, but in here should be fine!!
JO when i lived on the hill in my farm house, we used to leave the cobwebs coz they caught the bugs!!! :lol:
phew Thanks for that kat, I thought I had put my foot in it again. Still getting used to BB as opposed to other forums.
Ok beta tests.. when you go to your dr to confirm a pregnancy they can do one of two tests. There is the qualiative test or the quantative test. the quali one just gives you a yes/no answer. The quan test gives you a hCG level. The level varies between how many DPO/weeks you are. Generally around 13dpo anything over 100 is good. The test is normally done twice, 48 hrs apart. The number is supposed to double in 48 hrs to indicate a healthy pregnancy.
If it goes up but does not double then they may suspect an ectopic pg. I had that happen in November 05. my first beta was 141 then 48 hrs later was 205. I had to go straight to my OB and he did a scan and another beta. The scan showed no ectopic but inconclusive as to whether it was a slow pg or a failed pg.. that beta came back at 178 and then 4 days later was down to 15 but I had already started to m/c the day before.
It can be very useful as one of the earliest signs of a succesful pregnancy or whether it is doomed right from the start.
However. a good doubling does not mean you end up with a baby either. Joey was 123 at 13dpo then 271 at 15dpo so a more than 48 hr doubling time but I still lost him at 11w4d. Then Ethans betas were 150 at 13dpo and at 17dpo it was 968 so a doubling time of about 31 hrs.. but I lost him at 7wks.
Samuel was 390 at 16dpo with no 2nd beta and he is here...
I never had any betas with the others.
I hope that has proved a bit of an insight into what the early tests can show. :)
As for stress.. I often think about that and how much it influences pg or not and as was pointed out to me people have been in extreme stress and hardship and still have babies. So don't stress about the stress lol.
I hope you all have a good weekend and we all get some much needed rain and of course BFPs
hugs
Judy
Thought I would just pop in and say hello :)
howdy everyone.
Jo & Klee- thanks so much for the hugs. it helps so much just to be able to tell you all how i really feel knowing i won't be judged, and better than that, i will be understood. thanks! i feel much better today, lots of sleep and thinking about Yeti being happy for us and helping us . . .
Klee- good on you for spoiling dp for his birthday!
Jo- cobwebs are a specialty at my place too- fun fun- like Kat i leave them up for as long as i can stand them and until they start to take over so they can catch the bugs.
Ellie- so sorry for your losses. i wish you didn't need to be here, but am glad you have found this thread. these folks are a lifeline for me.
Starbright- big hug to you darlin. what stress - i'd like to knock your doc one for not getting that test faster. you are a strong lady, Kat, i know that from your posts - i don't suppose that will make it easier, but it is true. your stress and fear are so normal. try to take a big slow breath, and remember what Judy said -- lots of stressed out ladies have healthy babies. take good care of yourself.
LizJessie- hi!
Hi,
Just wanted to say Hi to Ellie & LizJessie,
I'll be back in later to do some personals!
morning ladies
kat - thinking of you today hon, i hope judy's response helps a little with the knowledge of what you should be looking at. am in total agreeance with auntie m and i've said this to you before, you are such an amazing woman to have faced what you have to still find the strength to follow your heart. you will be a wonderful mother when you get that screaming bundle of joy in your arms. you make me laugh you make me cry, you are inspirational, if not a little crazy, but thats what makes you special! lol your pm yesterday, i never want to hear something like that again lol, i am still laughing and disgusted at the thought!
jo - how you going today? is it a good day
judy - how are you? i loved the idea of the eeyore pendant, it sounds gorgeous, gives us a new way to look at how we are feeling
auntie m - give peanut a welcoming rub for me, and blow a kiss to yeti.
lizjessie - welcome, i have seen you around in a few other forums and look forward to hearing of your ttc journey, i hope its a short one for you. oh and i think we are cycle buddies
ellie - how you going today? thinking of you
mel - i know you are lurking, am looking forward to seeing you tomorrow, its going to be emotional but i know you can do, nicholas is going to be soooo proud of you
as for me, dp and i had a wonderful night, we had laughs and tears, he told me it was his best birthday ever, thats a big call. and ssh this is a ssecret but he also asked me that question i've been waiting 9 years to hear (being shall i put a new toilet roll on? kidding), and of course i said yes :). oooh now i can change his dp to df (how childish do i sound), this might sound really selfish but i just wish we were o'ing, as we might have hit the jackpot, lol
Klee can I be the first to say congratulations on converting the DP status to DF woo hoo girl, what a way to celebrate a birthday :D
Aunty M I hope you can start to see the rainbow days and that Peanut is a very sticky and healthy one for the 40 week limit.
Lizjessie I hope you get a sticky bean soon. It is hard to face recurring m/c :( Have you had any testing doen to find out why?
Ellie you have looked to have walked a long hard road to Motherhood. I hope the road will soon be a smooth one with the only bump in it being a bump that grows for 40 weeks. Good luck with the CSI.
Jo how are you? Thinking of you.
Joanne how are you feeling... anything we can obsess over yet ?
Kat it is Friday... when do you hear from the Dr?
Hi to everyone I have missed.
Sore bbs and a headache today.. one HPT in the house so I am not even considering using it unless I cave on Dhs birthday next Saturday or if not then it will be if I get to be at least 4-5 days late..rain on the roof and DS2 with a sore broken toe.. hyep roll on the weekend.
hugs
Judy
PS The rain is wonderful
Klee - :happyforyou: I am so happy for you hun! thats great news!
Well, how is everyone else?
Starbright - any news?
Judy - I saw the eeyore pendant in a magazine today, it is so cute!
Mel - Hello & come back soon, we miss you!
hiya again, just an update from kat, and unfortunately not good news, af came last night and from what i understand its pretty heavy and clotty, she is just off to docs now as they rang this morning with the results, she is going in to have a chat, she wanted you all to know and also that she is ok just, as expected, very very sad.
kat hon thinking of you today, let all the emotions out, hug dh, knowing that he is by your side through it all, as are we.
oh Kat I am so sorry .. I wish I could pass on a big hug in person. Take it easy hun.
Thank you Klee for passing on the info
hugs
Judy
Thanks Klee.
Oh Kat, I'm so sorry hun! I'm sending you huge hugs!
Kat, swettie I am so sorry hun. We are all here for you. Sending you a big warm cuddle :hugs:
Lv Spring
kat, oh darlin, i'm sending all my love and hugs to you today. :hug: i hope that doc can clear things up for you.