TTC after Recurrent Miscarriage/Stillbirth or Loss after the first trimester #3

Are you talking the lunar calender?? I checked it after we talked last week and it did say I was having a girl.

Don't give it away!!!! But yes I am. I think I guessed everyone's age and date of conception correctly ;)

Well if Hope is in fact growing inside me she will be a he based on the lunar calendar.

Lol, we will have to think of a more masculine name for hope then won't we. What about Bo - you know from Days of our Lives or whatever that show was with Bo and Hope. Lol.

LOL!! Do you know how funny that is. I was saying to DH tonight that I had pressure in my lower tummy and that I hoped it was Hope growing and he said no it isn't Hope, it is Beau. I laughed because I thought of days of our lives with Hope and Beau. DH likes the name Beau.

:lol: Great minds think alike!! Well, I guess we'll have to just mix the two together until we know if it is pink or blue. So how about Bope? Ha ha or Ho??

LOL! :lol:

Hi Girls,

Tommysmum - :hug: for you and your family; Happy Birthday Tommy.

Spring - I can imagine how hard the birthday party was for you, you are very brave to have gotten through it with only 3 breakdowns! I hope lil Spring helped you get through :)

Lynn - YUUUUUUM! Hope your sending some of those puddings my way :p I a glad you have had a positive day, hope you can stay positive until you get that BFP next week :hug:

Deb - We did travel into the town and we went into Colin James and the info centre, but mainly we were looking for the cheese factory and got lost in all the fog it was amazing I have never seen anything like it! So cool to watch it come in the windows. My friend and I kept laughing though saying it reminded us of something from a movie like I Know What You Did Last Summer or something LOL. We could have passed each other on the street, how weird is it to think that?

Bailey - LOL @ porkchop sandwiches, you crack me up :cryinglaugh: So nice to find another sicko!

Hi to everyone else.

Well the agency got me replaced so I dont have to go back there again!!!!!! So next week I am working for a general surgeon at RWH (same hosp, and floor, as my OB) for 4 days. Nothing booked at this stage for a couple of weeks after that. But then I am going back to the place I was working for up until last week as of the 18th June for 2-6 weeks while they recruit (they offered me the perm job but I said no) so I am looking forward to that cause they were really nice people. Admittedly there were some baby/pregnancy things that came up but I really do believe it will come up in some way no matter where I am. Wonder if they are bummed they bought me farewell flowers and took me out to lunch now LOL. Apparently they are wrapped I am going back, so that is nice to hear.

On the TTC front - I guess it would come as no surprise that I am not UTD again this month :crying: I tested this morning and got BFN but AF didnt show, after bowling tonight went to toilet and when I wiped I had pink on the paper so now am just waiting for the heavy flow to arrive. I dont really know what to do. Now we have to wait until our "post coital test" (she says with a giggle LOL) and FS will check if sperm can swim through CM. If they cant he will organise IUI. If they can he said IUI will not help and so more investigations will have to be done, and maybe IVF - I cannot believe this is happening! First we lose Nicholas 2 weeks before we were going to meet him and now we seem to be infertile - aint life grand?!?!?!?!

Thats my whinge for now, I hope you all have a nice lazy Sunday.

Goodnight, sweet dreams - Mel

Hi Mel - sorry to hear that AF is on her way and the news on the TTC front - it is just not fair i know. I do hope that things improve very quickly for you so that we can see some permanent smiles on your face. Thinking of you.:hug:

Spring - i am glad that you have got through seeing the babies -it is tough but it is only making you stronger that is for sure. Unfortunatley it is something that we cannot hide from - there are too many pg women out there and too many new borns - but i guess that is what we all want in the end....

Lynn - you forgot about HoBo for your baby's name. Pudding sounds yummy - do you have a spare piece for me ? Hope you are doing well..not long now... And yes i think you are right about me having a boy - was that from the lunar-tic calendar too ? I hope you are right but i know i will still be happy no matter what sex we have.

Bailey - how are you feeling - any MS yet ?

Hello to everyone else - hope you are having a lazy sunday.

Went out for dinner (Seafood) last night and do you think i could eat much of it ? I felt so full (being constipated) so trying to shove a lobster my throat was impossible. There was so much i would have eaten if i had an empty stomach but NO it was not to be. I did however manage to eat about 5 oysters Kilpatrick - god they are sooo yummy.

Hi girls,

I just wanted to check in on Mel to see if AF arrived?? Hoping not and sending lots of Anti-AF vibes!
Will come in later to see how everyone is doing.

I am really worried and I dont know what is wrong with me - AF arrived and it is heavy but it is brown, not red like usual start of period, I have severe cramping to the point where I am struggling to tidy the house, I feel really faint and nearly passed out when I was trying to vacuum, and I feel like I am overheating. This is not my usual period and DH is not home, I know I am being a worry wart but I have never felt like this with AF before :crying:

Mel I am so sorry AF arrived. Can you call your dr and talk to him about the colouring and cramping? Can you go to a medical centre if your dr is not available? I'm worried about you, I hope you are ok. I hear you about first losing a baby then fertility problems - it sucks!! I hope so much that they can help you next cycle to get you that magical bfp because you deserve it so much. The good thing is that there is a plan and that has to be a positive. Let me know how the cramping is going. Thinking of you :hug:

Mel, are you OK? have you been to the doctor? Let us know how everything worked out.

Mel: I hope you are feeling better hun :hugs: and I am so so very sorry that AF had showed up. I agree with Bailey and Lynn though, call your Dr about the cramping or if you are really worried, go directly to a medical centre. It is probably nothing but it is worth checking out. Take care sweetie, I hope that you come on later and let us know how you are.

Well I'm back. I realise now the whole weekend was really a bit more than I could deal with by myself, I really needed DH there. It was hard to see those babies, about Harrys age, you know the drill anyway. People who pretend like nothing has happened, etc etc. At least my girlfriends were really good and we talked and cried about Harry together once the babies had gone to bed.

I am so glad to be home, I feel sick in the tummy but I think that might just be the weekend all getting on top of me. About to have a nice warm shower and get into my PJ's.

I hope you have all had a nice weekend.

Lv Spring

Hi ladies - Mel - hope you are feeling better now - did you speak to the doctor? If its any consellation my AF was often like that but if it is different for you then please call for some advice.

Bailey - hiya, I am doing okay today - have had a very busy weekend so am absolutely exhausted. I don't really have any symptoms though so a bit worried about that - this time it is very different and it is scary. I understand you are scared, I assure you that you are not alone. I am having some amazing nightmares that make it so as I don't want to go to sleep at night to be honest with you. Hoping they ease soon as I agree this is going to be a very long 8mths.

Lynn - Hoping the tummy pressure is a good sign and Hope is growing nicely. Looking forward to hearing about your BFP. I hope you are right about the baby - but to be honest I just want them to be alive and healthy.

Tommysmum - Hiya, sorry you did not manage to eat all that sea food. Still I am sure you had a nice time anyway.

Spring - Glad to hear you got through the parties - it is so hard isn't it. I keep thinking that I am so pleased those other ladies have not gone through what I went through and that they can enjoy their miracles - one day it will be all of us out there showing off our babies proudly. Take care.

I am sorry I cannot keep up with all the posts - hope you are all doing okay.
Take care, T.

Hi girls,

Mel - How are you? I am so sorry AF came. Are you OK?:hugs:

Lynn - How is Ho-Bope? Not long til testing Fingers crossed.

Tess - No ms or anything for me either. Just bl00dy constipation!! I have to have another BT on tuesday just to make sure levels are rising etc. Nightmares huh, I have had some really strange deams, but not bad ones yet.

Spring - Welsome back. Only one more weekend for you without DH, how does it feel?

Tommysmum - How is it now that MIL has gone??

Hi to everyone else.

Not much to report for me. I have been having slight cramps on and off, but I am hoping that it is just constipation. Have started eating a high fibre cereal so I am hoping that fixes it, cos it is stressing me. The pains are not sharp. Other than that, nothing going on yet. Hmmm, hurry up ms, I am looking forward to it!

Hi Bailey - glad to hear you are doing okay - good luck on Tuesday with your BT. I too am having some stomach cramps and think it is also a need for more fibre. Hoping m/s kicks in soon so that I can start feeling pregnant - at the moment I keep thinking it is just wishful thinking.

BTW I am sorry I keep changing my ticker I just want one that shows my baby is coming home to me this time - silly isn't it. Still I am sticking with this one I think .... maybe ... not sure - grrrr. I must be pregnant as I can't even make a decision on a ticker without getting all worked up!!!

Hi girls - just a quick one to let you know that I am ok. AF had turned bright red and Naprogesic helped the cramping. Over the day I have become really sick though, I have a bad temperature constantly being freezing and then overheating, and needing to vomit but not being able to, and diarrhoea :( My joints are all achey but I dont have flu symptoms. The weird thing is my skin is really irritable, its hard to describe but its kind of all tingly and whenever DH goes to touch me it feels all weird. I have a massive headache and pretty much just want to be put out of my misery.

So I am off for an early night, have to start a bloody new assignment tomorrow so cant even take the day off work :doh:

I hope you dont mind I havent done personals - but I hope you are all well, and glad you got home safely Spring.

Hey Mel: Thanks for letting us know how you are going. Sounds as if you may have an infection or the start of an illness. Don't go to work tomorrow if you are still feeling ill. You need to give yourself a chance to get better. Rest well tonight and then see how you are in the morning.

Bailey: Good luck with your BT on Tuesday, I am sure your levels will be wonderful.

Tess: Love the new ticker.

Lv Spring

Hey everyone,

Mel - I am glad to hear you are OK, but sorry to hear AF came. I hope you are feeling ok.

Tess - That is why I chose that ticker too, to show this bub racing home to meet us. That was important to me too.

Hi all - I haven't been posting (and we went away for 10 days) but a BIG congratulations :clap:to you Bailey99!!!
And Spring - you know I have an extra special interest in your ticker so an BIG :dance: for you.
Hey Mel - I'm sorry to hear what you've been going through!
Hi everyone else...I just felt brave enough to post again...as you all understand the time passes but emotionally time stays still. It's been four weeks now and AF arrived while we were away -it was supposed to be a little break to spend some time with DS, DD and DH - and to rub my tummy of course...but there was no rubbing.
The break was great but the sadness is hard to shift.
Just wanted to say hi - and to once again say thank you to all you girls that understood - when no one else in the world seemed to...love Georgie

Happy 6 month birthday to you darling Cooper Nathan, watch over your mummy and daddy, keep them safe and let them know how special they are.

To dear Lynn and Nathan thinking of you both today and I only wish I could give you and all of us in here your babies, you are very special parents, and we are thinking of you today. All my love to you Nat & DH xxxx:hug:

Sending you both love on Cooper's special day:hug:

Thinking of you today Lynn... :hug: You have a very special Angel watching down on you...

Happy 6 month birthday Cooper - we are all thinking of you and your mummy and daddy today. Hope you are dancing around with all our angels, now your angel friends. We love you .

XXX

Hi ladies

sorry no personals for me yet - i hope i haven't missed anything but suffering from MS bad lately (all night in fact) so can't do much today...hope you are all well.

Happy 6 month birthday Cooper! "'ll be thinking of you today Lynn!

Tommysmum - hope that m/s settles down soon!

Mel - hope you feel better soon!

Deb - glad to hear the u/s went well!

I really need to vent right now, we have been waiting for the plaque for Storms grave to arrive for some weeks now, it's been 3 months since our funeral director sent it off to the local council!
Anyway it was starting to bug me that it hadn't turned up yet so DH rang his best friend, the nephew of the funeral director (he works for his uncle) to find out what is going on! So his uncle rang the local council & guess what, the form is still sitting on the desk of the STUPID woman who is in charge of sending the forms off! GGGRRRRRRRRR! I am so #@* off! I can understand leaving it sit on the desk for maybe a week but to leave it sit on the desk for 3 months is disgusting! how many times has this happened to grieving families before?
So sorry for this carry on, but i'm just so annoyed!

lynn- thinking of you, cooper and nathan today. happy 6th months you amazing boy. may the gift that Cooper was enrich your heart forever. I hope you find comfort in those that you love today.
tommysmum - was thinking of you on saturday.
mel - hope you are feeling a little better today.
i am with you AF arrived, two days late, was so annoyed, had a realisation yesterday afternoon though that I am on exactly the same cycle day and date wise as was my last af prior to phoebe's conception. i don't know if i want to ttc this month just for the fact that if i did i would be due on the same date as Phoebe was. if that makes sense.

Lynn - Thinking of you and DH today on Coopers 6 month birthday. I hope you are both well.

deb - so comforting to hear that Col is ticking away happily in there. another milestone down and one week closer to meeting Col.

sorry me again, DP came home on thursday night, he'd bought me an ipod because he wanted me to hear a song that reminded him of Phoebe. we listened to it and both just sat there and cried and cuddled. I just wanted to share it with you, its by Coldplay so you might think its a bit depressive, but here goes, its called Fix it.

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
when you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you


thanks for listening ladies

Hello everyone,
Been very busy with DS 11th birthday party. I am sorry AF came Mel. I have had 2 weird AFs lately to combined with terrible pelvic pain on one side, going back to gynae to get it checked out for a possible lap. I have endo so all the pg and m/c of the last few years may have made it worse.
Klee, that song is meaningful for me too- wish I could be "fixed".
Lyn, thinking of you and hoping the 6 month b/day is not too difficult for you.
Funny how we look forward to m/s once you've lost a pg:)
Jo

Hi everyone,

Lynn - How are you doing today? I have been thinking about you.:hug:

Mel - How are you going?:hug:

Tommysmum - How did you enjoy today without MIL? Are you feeling any better? I won't be going on wednesday either, mum is working so no monster-sitter.

JLK - I dont blame you for being peeved about that, how hard is it to put some paperwork in the mail or fax it? Hopefully they will get onto it right away so you don't have to wait any longer.

Well, still no real signs for me yet, but I did do another HPT today, and according to that I am more UTD than last week. Go figure! But I have another BT tomorrow, so hopefully all my levels went up nicely over the week. I will come back later to see how everyone is.

~ HAPPY 6 MONTH BIRTHDAY COOPER ~

Lynn - you are an amazing person, mother and friend. You have been in my thoughts today, along with Cooper and your DH. I wish I could take your pain away but I can't, all I can do it give you a great big cyber :hug: and tell you how much we all care about you.

Hi girls,

Klee - So sorry AF arrived :( Its a hard decision to make about whether to skip TTC or not, just do what you feel is right. I guess one thing to consider would be whether your OB will deliver your next bub prior to full term. If so then maybe the dates wouldnt be as close as you think. Either way, you will make the decision that is right for you and DH. What a beautiful song, I havent heard it - you will have to bring your ipod when I see you so I can listen :)

Jo - Sorry to hear AF came for you too.

Georgie - Nice to hear from you again. Give yourself some time, its a long road :hug:

Jo - That is awful the council have stuffed up so badly, I would be angry too. I hope they are going to get onto it straight away now.

Hi to everyone else, sorry for the quick one - made myself go to work but feeling really crap and my temp seems to be 35.5 which I think might be a little low so I should really rest up. Might have a nap and pop back later.

Love Mel

P.S. One more :hug: for Lynn

Sweet Cooper, the sky is dark and the stars are about to begin shining for the evening. Shine down on your Mummy and Daddy sweetie little boy and let them know you are ok.

Happy 6 Month Birthday Cooper.

Lv Spring

Edited

Hi everyone!

Mel: I am sorry to hear how awful your period has been... :hugs: I am more sorry that that Bfn came at all... So, this is the month for the "post coital test" It doesnt' seem fair tht you have to go through all of this... Sending you big big hugs my love... :hug:

Lynn: How are you today my love??? I hope that you are okay after Coopers birthday yesterday... I was thinking of you so much... :hug: When is your blood test my love??? Is it today??? I have everything crossed for you and HOpe this month... :hug:

Jo and Klee so sorry tht your period arrived also... Let's hope it's the last one you see for a looooong time... :hugs:

Nat: I hope you are okay and that you got my email back??? How is the bus ride going for your DS?

Everyone else HI from me... A Bit stressed at the moment. Waiting for bloods on this friends little boy who has ?parvo virus (it can cause miscarriage... :cry: and he has been here playing with my kids)... So I am praying that he hasn't got it and that *Col* stays strong...

Oh Flowerchild,
I am hoping everything is ok with your friends little boy and he doesn't have parvo. I am sure that Col will be fine, but you certainly don't need to be stressing over this. Let us all know as soon as you hear. Hold on in there Col.

Deb - thinking of you and praying that col will be alright.

lynn -still thinking of you, let us know how you are.