Hi trinh68,

I know how you are feeling. My story is different but the emptyness is the same. We chose to terminate our son Brendan at 30 weeks due to X-linked hydrocephalus, his prognosis was extremely poor so it was the right thing to do for him and our family. I delivered him on June 3rd this year.

I will be starting IVF as soon as possible and we will choose a girl so she won't have the same condition.

The tremendous pain I was in did subside a little the morning after we placed his ashes, which was only 2 weeks ago.

Try and be strong and remember that it is ok to hurt and cry and feel angry and empty, this is all normal. Keep talking to your partner, it is very easy for a relationship to falter after such an enormous loss but try to keep on the same page as each other and be kind to yourself.

My heart has shed a tear for you, I don't seem to have any left in my eyes.
Lisa xx