I feel like it's time to actually let people know what's going on. It's been hard to talk about it, but there really was nothing else to do.

Going back to work this year was a huge struggle. Not just the fact that it felt like I was leaving my gorgeous little boy to go yell at feral teenagers, it's the fact that my health has been particularly sucky since that gorgeous little boy was born.

We're now into our third week of rain in Sydney and I have been going through the worst flare of my strange arthritis condition that I can ever remember. However, today was the first day that I got out of bed and actually felt like I could cope with what I had to do around the house today. Which was good as today was the first day that my DH went to work leaving me at home with Sam.

On top of all that, things at school have been rough - I've had some crappy classes that my health has meant I could never really get on top of them, so it's just been hard work. Not getting the rest time I needed when I came home because Sam wanted attention has seen both my physical and mental health deteriorate badly.

I stopped going to work two weeks ago, but had been taking random sick days before then. Today... I went to work to put my signature on the piece of paper to make it all official. And then late this afternoon I finally got the guts to send the email to my principal to make it all permanent.

I have no idea what we'll do now. Financially things will be very tight on just DH's income. I'm applying for a disability support pension but I'm not sure I'll get it. We will just have to trust that we'll be able to scrape together enough money to keep a roof over our head, food on the table and clothes on our backs.

So... back to being a full-time SAHM.

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